a second difference

the last second u think its the end of the world,

the next second you laugh at your own foolishness,
comparing to the things happening around,
the problem you have doesn't really count.


the world doesn't revolve around you,
the earth doesn't stop turning just because you don't feel good.
its normal to feel bad after receiving a news,
but after a moment you have to make yourself move.


now i'm moving moving~~ now i'm moving moving~~


Thank You God =)


silly me~~

its in a mess

its getting worse and I have no idea,
on how to clarify, and make things clearer.
I gave up on trying,gave up on taking over,
I've made up my mind to leave it for God to handle.

I'll have faith that things will get better,
I feel weak, oh Lord make me stronger.
now that dreams are all shattered,
everything else doesn't really seem to matter...

Everything is just in a mess,
I need you now, I need you more than ever.
I don't want to know by my own understanding,
Lord let me learn, through your words and letter.

Still I give thanks for all that have happen,
its all in your plan, to make me a better person,
I will rejoice and praise your name in heaven,
To live in your plan even when I can't comprehend.

out of control

when things didn't go according to plan...

I realized that, the more you try to clarify, the more messy it gets.....

So...why try so hard?.....why be anxious over it?..

I should just surrender this into God's hand.....For only He can do things we can't....


"A righteous man may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all; he protects all his bones, not one of them will be broken. Evil will slay the wicked; the foes of the righteous will be condemned. The Lord redeems his servants; no one will be condemned who takes refuge in him."

Psalm 34 : 19-22

So we say with confidence,

" The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?"

Hebrew 13 : 6

He said: "Listen, King Jehoshaphat and all who live in Judah and Jerusalem! This is what the LORD says to you: 'Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God's. ... You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the LORD will give you, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the LORD will be with you.'"

2 Chronicles 20:15,17

"Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you," declares the Lord.

shhhh

=)

Of leaf and trees and everything nice...

Then Jesus said: ' Did I tell you that if you believed, you would see the glory of God?'


They won't be afraid of bad news, their hearts are steady because they trust in the Lord.

Psalm 112:7

" Therefore, in the present case I advise you: leave these men alone! Let them go! For if their purpose or activity is of human origin, it will fail. But if it is from God, you will not be able to stop these men; you will only find yourselves fighting against God."

Acts 5:38-39

Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek His will in all you do and He will show you which path to take.

Proverbs 3:5-6

better

when you think that the days can't get any better................

guess what??

IT ACTUALLY CAN!!!!! ^ ^ blessed

I'll have faith.....

Introducing~~

Meet Conor , my new bestfriend ^^

Finally, after so many years.... I told ya I'll come back for you! =)

dear toe....

Dear toe,

My dearest "toe", what's troubling you? It has been months since you're injured....yet, you're still not healed...Is it because I walk everyday? But I can't NOT walk, I can't possibly crawl in public right....So long d leh....what do you want me to do?? Can you please heal? I'm sorry that I went futsal when you're injured, i'm sorry that I've hurt you....but so long since the last futsal d leh..i didn't even touch football this year....oh my dear toe.....when will you recover? I'm recently into hiking, toe....is it hurting you too? If not, why since last Wednesday hiking to the stream, every time i walk, i can feel you screaming? sorry la....can you please recover soon? What's wrong with you? is it the soft tissue? or the muscle? or is it the joint? takkan the bone patah d, i still can tahan so long right...so it shouldn't be the bone.. hmm.... must i really go x-ray ah??

Oh toe, when will you be healed??? I like hiking leh....trees make me happy....so can you make me happy too by recovering soon??? preeety please.......

Send me

Faith requires a little more boldness. Faith is for the daring, the brave, the believing.

-inspired by blogger

That day a friend shared with me a testimony. Usually, when we heard of the word testimony, we expect to see God's miracle, and an incident that will result in expanding the house of God. But this testimony, ironically is about how she left Christ.

She used to join church with her friends. But her mother didn't really like that fact. Until one day, she got into a terrible accident but she was only injured mildly. A few days later, when she went to the temple with her parents, someone from the temple asked her to sit down and she said, one of the God told her that He can only save her just once. She was shocked by that fact that the God knew. So, since then, she stop attending church and went to the temple instead.

As I listen to her, I felt like the story was somewhat familiar in a way but the result wasn't what I expected it to be. She told me that at that very moment when her car overturned, a force pushed her down and she avoided the shattered pieces of the windscreen. She believe that the force was the God that saved her. At that moment, I don't know what to comment. But I was wondering, if she was to go to a church on that day, instead of going to the temple, will the result be different...

On the way back from Penang, it was somewhat similar to the scenario as the day of the accident, it was raining quite heavily and the car was moving fast. I sat there, still thinking of what my friend has shared. Somehow, this question came into mind, if God were to make it happen now, if God were to create another accident, which I may or may not survive, but this accident will then bring her back to christ, will I be willing to do so?

As the car speed through the slippery road, when the car infront wasn't really visible, my hand gradually gripped the safety belt. I was in doubt for a second, there was fear. How far am I willing to go for God? How much am I willing to do? Does it include sacrificing my life? Am I afraid of dying? What if I really crash in the next second?

The next second, I looked up at the sky, and I pushed those thoughts away. Why do I have to be afraid if I'm certain that I'm going to heaven. So, whats with all these doubts. By having doubts, I was in the danger of missing heaven.

From there I realized, having faith...being just two simple words to say, yet requires much courage, trust and believe to have that faith. To have the faith that I am saved, to have the faith that this God is the God, to have faith that He is watching over us, to have faith that the life I'm living is according to His will....all these all these, all are plainly depending on faith alone. I need to be brave in order to believe.


Send Me by Planet Shakers

send me i will go
send me i will go
to this city, to this nation
and to the nations of the world

send me i will go
send me i will go
i will proclaim the truth
that Jesus Christ is Lord

i stand before you pleading from my heart
that by your spirit you would set me apart
to bring good news and liberty
to see this nation on its knees

i cry out for every family
you'd open blind eyes and set people free
that as a nation we would turn back to you
and see revival sweep this land

as we humble ourselves
and seek your face
fall on our knees
turn from our ways
you will hear our cry
wipe our sins away
come and heal our land we pray

aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

mum in the jungle~~oo~ oo~~

This morning, I brought my mum to hiking. For one, she didn't expect it to be the jungle kind of hiking, she was thinking more of the road kind like she used to go...and 2ndly, she don't usually exercise... and so, when she got there, the morning went by like this....

"where are we heading?"

"what? we're going in there?"

"harh? the trek like this one ah?"

" how far more? "

"we have to go through all these steps????"

"r u sure that we're heading the right way? "
(to be frank, i wasn't really know where were we heading....it was just my 2nd time there...but i guess it wouldn't be that difficult....)

That, was the beginning of the trail, she was kinda afraid and hesitate a bit on whether or not to continue the trail, but anyway...at least, she reached the tower, which was actually quite an achievement for her....

and here comes the funny part, while in the beginning, she was following behind me, on our way back through another route, she took the lead.. and she was walking fast.

me: " walk slowly la, very slippery leh"

mum: " must believe in your shoes....nike!"

me thinking....=_= "was that the one who was climbing the steps timidly 15 minutes before?"

and, both of us, not really sure of the route, we just try our luck....because that uncle who wanted to lead the way out left us as we stopped to take a picture...haha

you know what's the funniest thing? the one who was reluctant to go at the first place, now, couldn't stop telling other people that her daughter just brought her into the jungle. Through out the entire journey home, she kept planning to bring my dad, then suggest to bring aunt , my sis and in the end, she just came up with a plan to bring everyone on the next public holiday. HAha....

when she saw my maid, she said : " dia bawa saya masuk hutan oh....betul betul hutan leh..semua daun daun...."
when she saw my neighbour, she said: " she brought me into the jungle...really jungle one...no road one...."


so, as you can see, she really enjoyed it a lot.....she even said that now that she knows the way, she might go alone.....wow....even I didn't feel like going alone....

hehe...now that she's addicted to hiking, i have another member =) yay!

craving for something to do...

I would rather be ashes than dust! I would rather that my spark should burn out in a brilliant blaze than it should be stifled by dry rot. I would rather be a superb meteor, every atom of me in magnificent glow, than a sleepy and permanent planet. The proper function of man is to live, not to exist. I shall not waste my days in trying to prolong them. I shall use my time.

-Jack London, American Author

Connecting the dots . . .

Here's an inspiring speech by Steve Job on connecting the dots.



God's plans never fail to surprise me and keep me in awe. As I was blog-hopping again, I was reminded of God grace again and again. Last week's youth sharing, the topic was, "Fail to Succeed". Joseph was used as an example on how God plans work so unexpectedly. From what we know right from the beginning, Joseph faced nothing good but jealousy and bad deeds from his brothers. If we do not know the ending of his life, what we see is that his brothers hated him and tried to take away his life by killing him; all these occur just because of jealousy and anger. Despite being not dead, he was then sent away to a faraway land where he know no one. Who would know that this is a good thing to be? Who would expect that, being sent away to a total stranger place would be the start of his great destiny. All the ups and downs, being given great responsibility from being a slave to being Potiphar's special servant; then being thrown into prison but then later became the prime minister of Egypt. Everything was just unexpected.

What Chrystal was trying to share was, what seems like a failure now may just be one of the stepping stone that will lead us to the greater success. "Fail, is just like a feeling". she said. It depends on you to think whether or not you have fail. Which is quite true, seeing that human are weak, there are times when we are tempted to feel disappointed. Even my course lecturers mentioned that we'll often fall into the "black hole" during our design process.

And at times like these, questions came popping up , how can I get rid of that feeling? How can I get out of the black hole? Who can provide me the strength to pull through all these so that I can one day connect the dots, to see where I have been and what have gotten me here? What's worth suffering all these?

Throughout these few years, it had never been clearer to me that God has been with me all these while. Through happy memories to sad moments, I realized that I depended on Him more during time of failure. It was when I was weak that I cried for his help, it was when I was grieving that I read His words the most, and it was when I fail that I witness his miracle of healing. Without failing, I wouldn't be here wanting to know him more, and without failing, I will not be able to learn what is having faith. For one, if I hadn't fail my driving test so many times, resulting in my limited self confidence in driving, will I still pray every single time before I start driving? During that period of time, which was in between after failling and before passing the driving test, I was so frustrated bout driving that I didn't even allow my family member to mention anything related to car. no driving, no test or whatsoever that will remind me bout my yet to pass test... But if I didn't fail, I wouldn't be carrying bible verses when I went for the test for the 3rd time, praying hard to Him that only through him that I can conquer my fear. Looking back at these helped me connect the dots. God's plan, indescribable.


Quoting from Steve Job's speech,
" You can't connect the dots looking forward, you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future."


Now, i no longer feel the fear of failing, for I know,
Without failing, I wouldn't have the chance to learn how to stand.
Without tough times, I wouldn't be able to build stronger faith.
Without weak moments, I wouldn't turn to depend on God.
Without trusting God, I wouldn't be able to connect the dots.

So, during tough moment, instead of blaming God and asking God why, give thanks and continue to have faith in Him for nothing is not made for his plan. Failing, is also part of God's plan.


Although I don't know what tomorrow holds, but I know who holds tomorrow. (taken from Christ Note's weekly wisdom)

i sat there and wonder....

what's the shape of a tree?