u're big, and i'm small.

in the midst of ups and downs, rain and shine, dark grey water and pitch black sky, sometimes its difficult to look past all bad things that has happened around us and simply feel good bout being here, being alive, being healthy and being blessed. some days, it becomes so overwhelming and you wondered, why are you lying here on a comfy bed, in a cooling room wrapped in warm blanket and still complains...
though some days you're just contented and grateful, there are always some days where you just take it all for granted.

there are always certain point in life when you ask the questions, what for? what if? what then? what now?
what difference can we really make as a person? how much can we do or even, what can we do?
they say one can make a difference, at least to the other one.  just like that starfish story. but when the moon hangs low, and more things become overwhelming, its difficult to constantly stay within that high spirited happie positive mode.

there are days where you just have a heavy heart.
a heavy heart.
it only proves that you're still breathing, and living.

but where to lead ur heavy heart?

sometimes i let that heavy heart linger a little, and let it remind myself how weak, how tiny, how insignificant i am. in hope that this time will be the time where i'll learn to fully leave things to God, and let the heavy heart lead me back to God.

last time, i've tried.
this time, i'll try.
and till that one day when i try, i'll know how to not try.
for a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know you're near.

the sound

one always gotta have a cover ready.

who knows when they will need to publish an album all of a sudden.
u can't be sure, really.

so now that i have one ready,

i'll have one thing less to worry about..

you're a good man

happiness is singing together when the day is through,
and happiness is those who sing with you.

happiness is morning and evening,
day time and night time too.

for happiness is anyone and anything
at all that's loved by you~ :)

sidetracked

ou. just in case u want a quiet night, the pause button is right ther... --->
:) good night.

the A list

saturday night,

an often eventful night. but surprisingly today, i'm just home too early.

maybe its because my sis isn't around for me to bug, and i'm free to go anywhere with a car, i felt so restless, and didn't feel like going home. 

but in the end, i still did came home. to find my family sitting in the living room. and they're all home. except for my sister. that's when i realize, it has been awhile since i sat in the living room like this. and \im suddenly glad i'm home.
and there's so many things i feel like doing.

feel like blogging, feel like painting, feel like filtering the photos that have sat there waiting.

feel like dancing, feel like sketching, feel like cleaning the house till the sun comes calling.

feel like hiking, feel like swimming, feel like skyping all my friends who are half way around the world studying.

and here i am blogging, and listing down a whole list of random things to do. 

thank God for random things, and random words to say.

that perk things up a little and make it more :D :D yay! 

i wonder y i like making lists. :P

how white make things shine

photos by Sharon Montrase

i remember falling in love with a giraffe from a gallery of animal portraits. i don't remember who the photographer was but i love how the photoshoot was done. all young animals were brought into the studio and photos were taken gently. i think its Sharon Montrase. 

maybe, it was because the animals were taken to heart by the photographer, the pictures came out beautifully genuine. 

oh  giraffaaaa....  sho cute

check out her other photos and videos of doggies too...

here here here~~ 

do the potato dance~

hmm.. i wonder if there's a job to try all jobs?
yesterday there's a pizza delivery girl.
i wanna try delivering pizza.

i wanna be....
hmm..

i wanna be
a fisherman. erm. fisherwoman? and experience the storm.
a bus driver. and drive a double decker bus.
a waiter and wear a tuxedo.
a garbage collector. and see wher all the rubbish go.
a farmer, and eat rice by the paddy field. milk the cow in the morning and own a big big zoo.
a painter, and paint anything i like.
another kind of painter, the one that paint houses.
a bricklayer, building a wall from scratch.
a mechanic, then all engines i'll understand.
a coconut picker, then learn to climb tall trees with bare hands.
oh. i wanna be the guy driving people's luggage to the plane. standing on the belt and throw their luggages off the plane. :D

i wanna try all jobs, and learn the value to it.
i think all jobs are cool, if u noe what and why u're doing.

:O but i dun wanna try all these in kidzania.

wee? :D

every smile worth a little

it always feels good to be appreciated.
it feels even better when u don't have to ask to be appreciated.
i like it when people shows appreciations to one another.
people saying thank you very much with a smile always charms more than a little.

sometimes, always being available and nice tend to make a certain person takes you for granted too easily.
that's when the idea of going far away suddenly seems so tempting even when it means you have to leave everything behind to go to a whole new place all by yourself. all that, just to pass the message that all the things you do, aint something that's "supposed" to happen.

a simple thank you, a simple how are you, a simple bye before ending a conversation, a simple motivation and encouragement, sometimes is all it needs. is it that difficult? but i guess, not everyone get that point right. most of the basic things sometimes just fall into the "not necessary" category. and in the world of short messages and online chat, too many things are taken as unnecessary.