why i love Dessau

why i love dessau

some say it's plain and boring,
but i say it's plain is quaint

why i love dessau
of the many mornings i cycled, overlooking the misty lakes,
of the many beautiful summer, days of bicycle tours,
of the endless new discoveries, of every new hidden gems,
of the beautiful green path, beneath the blue blue skies

why i love dessau
of the 3 little cygnets that slowly turned into beautiful swans
of hours and hours lying under trees, feeling the spring breeze,
of shades of yellow orange and red leaves, falling down swiftly ,
of melodious birds chirping, singing happy songs

why i love dessau
of sitting by the peaceful still water, waiting for wisdom to be bestowed upon
of strumming of strings by the river flow, accompanied by dandelions flying
of grilling with my comfortable friends, waving them at kayaks passerby
of lying under more trees, with snacks and munchies and refreshing fruits

so do you see why i love dessau?
i think it is here that my overwhelming energy need not be contained
it is here that i can cycle hours and hours, using up every exploding energy
it is here that i can take a nap under a tree, without worrying about anything
it is here that i learn about myself, what i really truly like
it is here that i hear God, so close, so loud, so real to me
it is here that i found family, of sisters and parents and friends so kind

and so it's why i so love dessau
it's plain is just because it is a quaint little town

worth it

I am experiencing something new and really heart overwhelming view every time i go out i felt like i have never really travelled before in my life.


okay. maybe, that moment at the peak of Mount John in New Zealand, but that was a rare moment.
Here, it is almost easy to get that.

and the breathtaking view, in which at that moment, i felt like, all the hardship, the efforts put, the long journey, all the uncertainties, the trouble along the way, the disappointments seem insignificant anymore, because what is important is i am standing here, at this place, staring into this view, at that very moment, absorbing all.


it was all worth it. worth the wait. worth not to settle for less. worth the trouble, worth the dream, worth everything.

Thank you, my dear God :')

Feelings

Officially 3 days to go.

luggage packing is a mess.
my feeling is in a mess.
thoughts are everywhere,
gifts everywhere...
yet there is one thing for sure.

It is God who made all these possible.
In d midst of all these rushing here and there, sending and receiving farewell gifts, last minute shoppings, last minute meeting up and all... i thought i should stop a moment to absorb all this, and to thank God for a little.

look unto Him despite of all things, all the mess, all the anticipation, all the hopes and dreams.
just stay still for a little to reflect on all things.

He has made this possible, and its finally happening.

Firstly, he sent a senior there before me. before any of these even begin. Just so this day will arrive where i can have some guidance and reliance.

then, he provided a best buddy to pick up the language. He provided the best teacher i could ever find to teach us, to prepare us, so that we did not just learn the language but the culture, and forming such special bonds.

all those, happened, and i was still clueless of what is to become.

and then, he offered a preposition through my boss. The motivation and opportunity that gave courage. and before all that, he gave the word that says : " Opportunity gives courage", the resolution of taking chances that begin in 2017.

It all came inline now. Connecting the dots.
It was my sister who witness me winning the award back in 2012. It is her who's supporting me to achieve my dream now.

He planned the cell group who gave me a prayer support system, the letting go of my heart on my sister's case, the love for my family, to surrender all things to Him, to taking this step, of finally going to achieve my dream.

God had it all planned. The roommate, the placement, the mail courier, the projects, the closed doors to Australia universities, the rejected scholarship, the relationships formed, the kindness of the consultants, the experienced seniors, the kind colleagues. He had it all planned.

Every step of the way, he was there, and he is still here. i can almost feel Him, sitting next to me, encouraging.

Thank you my Father Lord Jesus.
Thank you God for everything that You have given to me.
Despite all the mistakes that i have done, the rebellious heart, the ignorant mind...
Yet You still choose to bless me with my dream.
Your grace, Your love, is so amazingly great.
Greater than all things in the world,
greater than anyone can ever give.

I thank you Lord with all my heart and all my soul.
and I pray oh Lord, that i'll stay close to You throughout this new phase of life,
that i will not forget Your love, and keep close to Your teaching.
Teach me Dear Lord to hold unto You in all things, to consider You in all ways, and to renew my love to You every day just as You renew our strength.

thank you Lord for this day.
for this i give thanks to Your glory, to your grace, to Your name.
In Jesus name i pray,
Amen

When You Are Gone

by Yasmin binti Ahmad

But if only God would grant me a piece of His courage,
I might face your absence without dying. 
But if only you would take me with you wherever you go,
I would find home in a million different places.
And I would sweeten you in a million different ways.
Before you are sleepy, I will have already placed a thigh under your falling head.
Before you are hungry,  I am already peeling onions.
When you are angry with me, I shall kiss you.
When you are not, I shall kiss  you twice.
If you should die before me, I shall lie down beside you.
Whisper a joke into your half-listening ear.
Promise the ultimate promise of eternal companionship.
When you are gone, I do not die, 
But I am forever dying. 

bring me back to you

do u believe?

do u believe that there's song that can make everything alright?


i found one today.

Juruselamatku

Walau kuharus berjalan
Dalam lembah kekelaman
Perlindungan-Mu Oh Tuhan
Nyatalah bagi hidupku

 Tiada pernah sedetik pun
Tiada pernah Kau tinggalkan
Sungguh mulia dan sempurna
Hanya Kau layak disembah

Yesus Engkau Juru s’lamatku
Dalam janji-Mu kemenanganku
Selamanya ‘kan kunyatakan
Besar setia-Mu Tuhan
Di hidupku

you're a good man

happiness is singing together when the day is through,
and happiness is those who sing with you.

happiness is morning and evening,
day time and night time too.

for happiness is anyone and anything
at all that's loved by you~ :)

legs are made to move

i think, everyone in this world should spend some time watching this.

after watching, i googled and found a blogger's review on how this movie is only  for kids and children, with its animation and illogical illustrations. no comment on the message of it or whatsoever, it is plainly described as a children movie. 

i find it, untrue, and felt that its totally underrated.

there's just so much more than what it seems in this movie. It may seems like one children movie and i do not deny that children will definitely enjoy this movie, but i think, this movie is one of the best movie i've ever seen. and by saying this, i don't mean in a childish way. this movie allows one to go into deep thoughts yet it is actually just trying to show the basic truth. it is ironic how directly indirect it tells the story through the perspective of the little special one, and his unique thinking. the movie clearly display how children are often mislabeled for their misbehavior, how adults not taking children reason seriously, and i'm inspired by the it trying to give out the message of how each and every children nowadays are being "taught" on that one way to think. 

in fact, they do not really need to be taught on how to think. i believe God has made each and every individual specially with thoughts in mind and molded them to be different and special. and that's just how its supposed to work.

there are so much to learn from children, and its ironic to think that adults are actually thinking otherwise. 

i guess, children actually enjoy this movie because they are more open and humble in the sense of learning and the review from the blogger just further proves how true the message is. 

do you like the umbrella as much as i do?

imagine if there's someone who's actually peeking into your brain?
its even worse than someone reading your diary, because you choose what to write into your diary but you don't really get to choose what to think, until well, you actually start thinking...

i think..
God is peeking into my brain.
O.o
you know how people says God knows what you're thinking even before you say your prayer?

yesterday, i was just like, thinking.. " how nice if ........ could ......"
and i didn't even make this a prayer or what,
and its nothing big or significant even...
its just a little little thought tat i allowed it to linger in my mind for bout 5 seconds....
and no its not bout going for a swim at night.
its much much less significant...

guess what...

today, as i was sitting here,
i suddenly realized,
eii wait. the if...could..... just happened today.

o.O

talk about having a "creepy" God who knows all things! :) and actually making it happen so effortlessly
wow-ed and wow-ing =)

i can't help but to type this "out-loud"

wowwwww
amazing God i have :D
thank You.

delight yourself in the Lord
and he will give you the desires of your heart 
                                                        ~Psalm 37:4

one sundae cone at a time

sabbath.
the best day of the week.

and oh i wonder what God was thinking when He made this day.
it wasn't just another sunday. every Sunday beats every Sunday. and today was even sunday-er than any sunday.

sometimes, when u think that u are so busy and u have no time for anything else,
but really, when His plans want to include these things, that are deemed to happen, its not ur will to say no. and its really amazing how He chose to unfold these things.

i'm amazed by how he placed every single person who seems to be in need on your path, in which you think that u're doing them a favor by helping that particular person, but really, when God plans, its not exactly a one way thing. He doesn't just plan For that person when He makes you help him;
At the same time, He is thinking of you when He made you help that person.

u see, you're not just doing that person a favor, but there's always more than one reason for that.
and i'm so grateful for those people that God has placed in my life, people that needed my time, and people who spared their time when i'm in need. so grateful so grateful that i'm so overwhelmed right now for all the things that is in His plans.


perhaps for people who do not believe in Him, don't understand what feeling i'm talking bout, and can't  comprehend this contentment; well, i have no idea on how to explain His grace or describe this overwhelming feeling i'm feeling because its not exactly something you can understand simply by description. and if ever one day you have the desire to know, which i pray you will, you'll understand it somehow on what it means by the peace is here and His presence is strong. so strong so strong u have to put ur hands close to ur heart to prevent it from falling out.


ohhh i dunno what to say. i'm just so grateful that there's a sunday in every week. and when this sunday is over, it only means that the next sunday is a day nearer. :)



take me deeper,
deeper in love with you
Jesus hold me close in Your embrace
Take me deeper
deeper than i've ever been before
i just want to love you more and more
how i long to be deeper in love





how He place a contented heart in you that you can't stop smiling as you praise Him.
i am content :)

tangible : its sweeter on paper than on air

i wonder why people no longer write~ i mean on paper that is.
i find writing letter d most exciting form of mailing ever. it beats any digital mail or short messages on phone.
its always nice to find a coloured envelope with your name on it in the mail box. it never fail to surprise me every single time.

letters and cards always make my day <3 and because of my lovely friends studying abroad that i still get a mail or two once in a blue moon. and i always read it over and over and over again. somehow, no matter how long the letter is, it never seems to be long enough. heh.

don't u think writing letter d sweetest way to express ones wishes and thoughts?
maybe letter seem a bit too much for others, but postcards are always cool. :) so, send me postcards people!! i'll love you guys lots! haha.

ps: i still don't mind long long long long letters tho :) or i can live with letter with just a sentence. heh. in anyweiiiis, send me one ~ :)

i dun know what to do, but God knows! :) so i guess its okay~~

oh....i so so so love this christmas :)

i thank God for blessing me so abundantly. and i felt that He was also here to celebrate this Christmas with us ! can u imagine can u imagine?? like He was there when we sang and dance, He was there when we savor His story all over again, He was just sitting there, and guess what! maybe He was sitting beside me :) heh. 

yeap. i think so... i can feel it!!! bcoz the legs can't stop moving. :D

it makes people so happie that the legs of people who hop and jump when they're happie couldn't stop jumping and hopping around. like literally, they just wouldn't stop no matter how hard u try to stop them. they just won't. *shake head shake head*

yea..tell me about it~ people says legs are stubborn creatures who listen to no one but their own feelings. 

i like how He brought my family to church, my dad , my mum, my sister and brother :) coz i love spending christmas with them. n i noe my dogs are singing with us at home.

i like how He reminds me that things may not be in my control, but i need not fear because He is in control. 

i like the comfort He gives where i can surrender the bad things to Him with just a prayer and be all jolly again.

i like how He brought us to little children and uses us to bring them to Him.

i like how He help in suggesting gifts that i can afford with an empty wallet.

i like how they react when they receive d presents, the happie smiles on their faces like they've been blessed. 

i like how everyone smiles so happily wishing others blessed christmas blessed christmas, i like singing Feliz navidad.

i like christmas hugs. i like group hugs that can't fit in my arms. i like taking pictures with people i love lots lots.

i like walking in malls that are so crowded, with my parents infront, aunty beside, sisters in hand, and brother who then joined later. (but not so much on the crowd part unless the crowd are happie crowd, like yesterday crowd :)

i like playing silly games in my sister room, in which the loser would need to attempt in making others laugh. i like trying so hard to not laugh out that it makes my tummy hurt so much.

i like going to bed smiling. i like to sleep smiling.

i like that i don't need to know what to do and what is gonna happen next. :)

i like being able to love people i love and being loved by people who loves me. i like loving God.

when He's around, christmas became oh so nice and warm and happie and special. i like christmas like this. i like it like it like it so much i could fly and hop and jump for the next hundred days. weeeeeeee~

and they say there're 12 days of christmas... oh how blessed more can i be~~ :')

thank you God!!

tats y i love them lots

u noe they do actually understand wat u tell them right?
tats y i tok to them a lot :)

liking these days :)

again and again and again and again.

this extreme feeling of contentment. 

After d final internal presentation on friday, everything was done. What's left are paper exams and to repeat the presentation during the final assessment. Minor touching ups are whats' left to be done.
i'm so glad everything is done! and it ended perfectly! :) okay, mayb not perfect, coz ntg is perfect, bt seriously, i love God so much!! He always always blessed me! and what He promised came through, He said that all ur effort and hardwork WILL pay off! and it did! it did!!! it is during these moments that the extreme satisfaction came about and all tiredness and all d 委屈-ness and all d injustice just fade far far away.

so many times throughout the semester tat i struggled in group project. trying hard to cooperate, trying hard to compromise and trying even harder to focus on the good in people and not the faults of them. learning to forgive despite all things, learning to focus on the solution instead of indulging in the problem. finding ways to solve instead of people to blame. and i will not deny, it was absolutely super duper extremely DIFFICULT! The days when my patience were put to test, the days when i struggled to hold it together. mayb it was also because i was full of pride. tat i know is my biggest weakness. different people work at different pace, and most of the time i tend to get stressed up as i am one who prefer to get everything planned out in advance just to make sure everything will go right. and perhaps at those time, i tried to be in control and make things my way. so when things didn't go as i planned, i got even more stressed up.

those are the times when i failed and felt angry. those are the times when i gave up and cried. But what kept me going strong was God's word. In times when i felt weak and felt that i wouldn't be able to control my emotion, i brought God's word with me to class. and reading God's word really taught me how to look things at different perspective. to have a bigger heart and to learn to forgive. to not judge others while ignoring the plank in my own eyes. God walked with me throughout the semester. He was there, and His presence was strong.

He pushed me to do things i would never been able to accomplish alone. He insisted on planning cf activities despite the small number of people attending and the busy with assignments schedule. Every single meeting was a blessing. It may not be on the number, but it was ther to make that few of us grow, to make me grow. Many times, when we tried to plan things on our own, we get stressed and disappointed. But when we surrendered to God and just pray and let things be, He surprises us with the most unexpected and the awesomest plan ever! oh. How great is our Lord!!!

and now that even December is here. there is just one thing that i'm still waiting for. God has promised a million times on that and i shall no longer doubt. So be it what God plans may be, i surrender my all to Him. :)

architecture, may give the satisfaction that i dream and desire if enough effort was put into it.
but God's plan gives the contentment and greatness that i can never dream nor desire. It was given as a gift for me. without me having to do anything.

thank you God. thank you. i'm liking these days. many prayers that i once prayed long long time ago are now answered one after another. i once wondered if God's answer is Yes, No or Wait. so, now that it is happening, is God's answer wait? :) wait i shall. for You Lord.

blessed ^^ teehee... heehehehe ..heeehee

it was almost too obvious

image taken from: http://weheartit.com/entry/8576627

tis morning, God speaks through devotion, do u hear wat i hear?

"A benefit of being a teacher, I know that Thanksgiving vacation is always an anticipated respite from the routine of waking early, grading papers, and planning lessons. What I hadn't planned for the impending disagreements that would arise from our two children being home in close quarters with extra time. No matter how much I tried to reason with them, they couldn't seem to agree on anything. They were focused on each other's faults, while denying their own. A glutton for punishment, I grounded them from media for several days. Much to my delight, the arguments waned and they suddenly remembered that they actually like each other.

As living sacrifices--set apart, transformed--believers in Jesus are to become living, breathing reflections of God's will (Romans 12:1-2). In the quietness of our devotional time with the Lord, this goal stirs our hearts. In the day to day of relationships, however, it can seem to be downright impossible.

As I deal with my children, I often hear the Lord speaking to me about my relationships with others. It takes two to fight (Proverbs 20:3). You can't choose how others act, but you can choose how you respond (Matthew 5:38-39). Be kind, whether it's deserved or not (Proverbs 31:26). Like my children, I can either trust the wisdom of the One who knows far more than I do or I can rely on my own perspectives (Proverbs 3:5-6).

Godly love doesn't come by finding perfect relationships; it comes when I first choose to deal with my own faults (Roman 12:9). Relational peace is not avoidance. It's a decision to act on the things for which I am responsible, while placing the things I cannot change in the hands of Jesus. I must trust a God for whom nothing is impossible. (Luke 1:37; Mark 9:23)."

~Regina Franklin

(Our daily journey)

sweet serendipity

back in 2007

today, i woke up and never felt as contented as ever. Realizing, life has been great and couldn't ask for more than what God has been blessing me with.

Given so many opportunities to try things i never imagined myself doing leading me busy signing up for everything. n before i know it, i'm actually clearing out my  bucket list one by one. :D

 these are d things tat help in looking over d bad things and tough times bcoz when you managed to survived that period to reach these moments, u wud literally be saying....ahh~~thank God i'm alive to experience this. 
for me, these are d perfect moments.....

if u can, just stay alive for a little longer and give tough things a little more try before actually throwing ur bags away and say goodbye, it will be worth living.