and so about love

oh~~ its the end of the year again..
time to reflect...
*staring blank at the ceiling in deep thoughts*

and also time to get all hype up and ready for a brand new year....
*jumping around all excited with anticipation*

call me old fashion but oh well..i'm just going to say this....time is one arrogant thing who waits for no one..boo..
It wasn't another year this year...it was quite a year~ i would say...

for with God's blessing, i...

get to know a few new friends :) and also sending off a few besties abroad...:(
jump around out of happiness for friends who found their love ones,:):) and cry for friends who broke up....:(:(
being all stressed up on design and comments, while also fly sky high because of it...
and not to forget, finally get to go to a country further than singapore...

everyone is growing so fast, it makes me feel old...
LOL....i bet i sound like a 90 year old granny talking about the past...
haha...

make it short......i wish everyone a blessed year ahead!! :)
With an awesome God with us, i'm sure we have nothing to worry about...=)

love, is not bout getting what you desire, or getting back what you gave away,
love, is not bout owning something you deserve or saying what you have to say..
sometimes, love is just about doing what's best for the one you love and praying quietly for them,
even if they will never know it, or thank you for the things you've done...

it will be worth loving, for God knows you love them

50 first dates

 was watching a movie with a friend this morning after our "slumber" party...

50 first dates .....hmmm...how long since i watch a romance comedy....

it was sooooooo sweet.....can't believe i'm saying things like this but yea....it was so sweet so sweet...

its bout this girl who got into an accident and since then her brain couldn't absorb any new memory, therefore, every single day she wakes up, its october 13th for her. So, her family made lotsa effort to make sure when she wakes up she wouldn't realized its not october 13th...

conclusion, its a nice movie to watch...for a romance comedy la.. not the sobbing kind, not the dramatic kind...just a nice simple little story with a touch of sugar in it... :)

dear god dear god....

明知山有虎 偏向虎山行

dear god dear god.....

half cooked....

last week wrapped up my year 2 sem 1 architecture course...

couldn't be more grateful for what the lecturers have commented..

again and again, it never fail to give me goosebumps whenever my work is being appreciated.. it makes you fly up in the air, floating like a little bubble..

at that moment, you won't even care if you have only slept 1 hour in the past 2 days, or less than 24 hours in the past one week... the hours spent on drawing and colouring tiny little details seem to be all worth it... you might once doubt if all these are necessary or will worth it, at that very moment, you couldn't be more positive on the answer...

the more i study architecture, the more i feel, it doesn't really depend on talent. Just as the old saying state, its only 5% talent while the rest are all hardwork...sweat and blood hard work....

here i sat, smiling like a silly person.....couldn't be happier in the opportunity i'm given to study this course..
once i was just a little kid with hope of dreaming on making models and learning bout the incredible buildings around,
now...i'm actually on the journey of becoming one of them...

finishing the last sem marks the mid point of my diploma life...though the next three months wouldn't have any lessons other than some simple workshop, but i'm now a half cooked diploma architecture student... :) :) :)

so happy~~~

and also i couldn't ask for better course mates. For my classmates, without their silly nonsense, without their crazy ideas, without their singing voices and without their whining together, i wouldn't be able to survive till now...
for my seniors, without their kind concern, without their advice and experience, without their help and guidance, i wouldn't have found my way till here......

thank God for everything,
i feel blessed... =)

u're my hero..........

once upon a time, there was this little mini laptop, who has been loyal to its owner all along.. despite its very small mini size, it always tries it's very best to complete it's beloved master's work....

and today, the poor guy......or girl.....is pushing its limits to render out it's master complicated and heavy file... poor lappy... i owe u a big one!!!!

jia you!! dun die on me please...please.....continue....try your best to render it out....nothing is impossible...PLEASEEEEEEEE DON"T give up.....i know you can do it!!!! please, complete the rendering!!!!!

just keep going just keep going just keep going plsssss..................

when it comes to christmas, i'm still a kid :D

listening to the christmas songs online now is giving me the christmas feeling!!! :D so happy so happy i can't stop smiling!!

i forgot how much i love christmas!!

let's all celebrate christmas together together...

christmas is a time~~ christmas is a time~~~ christmas is a time to love~~~

i wanna make my friends celebrate christmas too!! its a time of celebration, a time of thanksgiving, a time to love!!!!
i realized many of my friends have never celebrate christmas before....oh...how much they're missing.... i wish to celebrate with them this year =) let's all celebrate together gether... i'm so excited!!!

let's give thanks....
let's exchange gifts...
let's have a feast on candy canes...
let's sing christmas carols...
let's joke and laugh all night...
let's dance and play silly games...
let's dress up and make lotsa lotsa noise....

LET"S CELEBRATE CHRISTMAS together gether :D no one should be left alone on this day...no one should be sad on this day.... its a time to love :D :D :D let's all have a blessed merry christmas!! :D

what's behind the orange

now i know why i don't understand a thing i was studying...

the notes don't make sense at all...the problem does not lie in the subject or my possible dyslexia, its the notes..
part of the contents are incomprehensible, and the definitions aren't right..... i'm not blaming anyone, i'm just pissed of myself that i didn't realize this earlier.

if i were to give a little more attention to this subject, i should realized this way before now, and not the night before exam. the truth is, i didn't even bother to read through the notes ever since i got it....

its college now, i forgot that we're not gonna be spoon fed anymore...

time to be independent, time to start blending the brain juice...

now that i'm not reading blindly, this subject seems much more interesting... :D

notes?? who needs them~~


(the above article applies to certain subject only)

d bore bomb ram pam pam.....shoot me

i've left my books so long that i've forgotten how to study......

its either that the lessons i had on this subject is of no use at all, or that i've just simply forgotten how to read.
i choose the latter, for then i wouldn't feel so bad that i've wasted 2 hours every week in attending it.... o.O

garhhhhhhhhhh....this subject brings boredom to a new level....now i remember why i chose architecture over every other course in the way....at least there's only 2 theory subjects this semester. i can't imagine gluing my bum on the chair studying till i don't remember which side do the sun actually rises from......ey, now i noe ur pain!

my eyes closes after reading every 3 sentences, and there is the need of repeating every sentence as d brain is having difficulty interpreting those letters flying around....seriously, they don't make any sense.....maybe those are not english.....they're just pretending to be....ha!!!! i knew something wasn't right....

or maybe i have dyslexia...my mum just didn't want to tell me that....

i'm just a dreamer~

soul mate oh soul mate
when will u appear
i can't wait for you to bring me go travel.....

assignments are drowning me,
insanely, i'm going crazy...


so take me away now, where to it really doesn't matter,
architecture journey or crazy adventure,
the further the better.....

in truth i know, i'm not at all special,
but i just can't deny that, i'm a dreamer....

changing

do approaching new year always make people wants to change something?

seems like changing just the skin of my blog is not good enough....

i went for a haircut today...


weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......

and my sis says now i look even more round...

great....tats just what i need to hear right now... =_=


had a great day today because FINALLY!!! i was not home alone....
Eldest sis is back from shanghai, brother back from training, another brother back from work, and another sister back from camp... though 3 pairs of eyes were glued to the tv watching the new drama, and the other was so tired she came back home, sick and exhausted...she K.O on bed right after just a few sentence of communication.......

stillllllll.... i was not home alone today =) hip hip hooray!!!

and i had homecook lunch....

yea....HOME COOK!! hear me?? :D

couldn't be happier....

hence, i've decided, to not do any assignments today....and allow myself to be indulged in a series of drama that mei xian just transferred to me...(though the excuse is not even valid =_=)
i know i'm sooooo gonna regret this tomorrow....but then, oh wells =) what's life without some procrastination~~

plain ol

things are getting old, time is moving slow....
work is overflowing, and paper assignments are really boring

to perk things up a little, the old skin has gotta go......( u noe i meant the blog skin right)

till the time when i'm free to edit on my own....
as for now, this skin will do.....plain ol plain ol~~

:D

more than just a roadtrip

i'm back!!!!! yeap, from the Eco Photo Hunt competition held by tourism selangor and pcp.

yesterday, we travel around Selangor, and u can try guessing how much can one do in a day!

We hike up waterfalls, mesmerized by dams, crash into orang asli village, drove pass winding roads and overnight at a total foreigner house.

We lost our ways, broke the laws of traffic, alternately thanking and cursing the gps, and ate non stop throughout the roadtrip.

We didn't looked at all like we were in a competition. We spent more time fooling around with one another than focusing in taking good photos. the only thing stopping us from cam-whoring was the weight and bulkiness of the dslr. lol... maybe that's one of the reason that cause us to crack our heads during the photo selections session, because all the photos taken aren't really "to the question"...... so, obviously, we didn't win. yea.....unfortunately no rm400 to treat anyone meals....

but all in all, despite the moments when we lost the maps for the zillion time and awkward moments in the homestay, we really enjoyed ourselves. and i think, i love my friends a little little more. =) and i also know Selangor a little little little better now...

i foresee us doing this all again, i don't mind going back to the same places... as we didn't really get to spend time at the waterfalls... and those places are really beautiful....please remind me to bring my hammock next time, i still haven't got the chance to use it.



thank God for journey mercies
thank God for the wonderful wonderful weather
thank God for these friends and the unforgettable experience

here are the photos =)











ps: dear eric, don't be so jealous bout this okay??....=) though u miss out a lot....hehe....but don't worry la....its all within an hour drive, so we can go anytime okay?? just make sure the next time, you don't ditch us to go dating.. =P

more than a little little

when i'm more than a little scared,
more than a little nervous,
more than a little anxious...
more than a little excited


for i'm going on a road trip tomorrow!!!! weeeeeeeeeeee~~~ it will be my first time driving so far....

i'm soooo scared but at the same time really excited about it. There will be about 8 pit stops, and i think most of them are gonna be waterfalls.... weeee.....this shall be a stepping stone towards our "amazing race" goal.......hehe..

wooohoo~~ can't wait to get wet already!!!! don't worry Canon, not only i'm bringin Conor, you're joining us as well!! =) told ya i wouldn't abandon you....

dear God, please bless us all with journey mercies and i pray that we'll have great fun tomorrow!!!!! pray that we'll laugh more than we quarrel, and pray that Lord will guide us throughout the way so that we'll not get lost and end up in else where....yikes...

as for assignments...hmm...I"M GONNA FINISH YOU TONIGHT!!!

goo goo gaa gaa

its when ur mind says no but your feet just went

u just can't hold it in any longer, u just can't pretend.

shall we then?

"A.U.R.A"

THURSDAY, 18th NOVEMBER 2010...a rare disease had hit the city of Ellefar. tens of people have been detected with this dreadful disease but fortunately, there has not been any death...YET..

According to the survey done on this group of "Eii-ah 09 sea-dy" , it is found that there are few causes to this disease.

1. being overly exposed to white walls and air-conditioned environment over a period of time.

2. being on and off a working schedule that has more off days than working days ( believes to break the momentum of the mood of any kind that might inspire one's mind, which can..cause serious emotional breakdown)

3. consume an excessive amount of Flour product. eg: cucur, pan mee, or any similar addictive product
(this cause is however still under confirmation due to fear of being sued by the party who sells these product for a living.

4. inhaled an amount of air molecules which contain particles of "oohoo" that exceeds 0.5ml.




It is believed that there are many more causes to this horrible disease, however, only few can be confirmed at this stage.

Public are advised to stay away from "the infected " individuals as this disease is believed to be able to spread within the same room, or worse, the same building. Therefore, public should be aware and take extra caution when come across to anyone who has these symptoms as below:

1. spending excessive amount of time screaming and spamming people's wall on social networking websites such as facebook. common words used includes T-T, aaaaaaaaaa, heheheheheheehhe, =( , etc.

2. neverending of complains and whining through sms

3. constantly feeling hungry

4. emotional ups and downs influenced by people with professional backgrounds or better skills eg: lecturers, seniors and even peers.

5. constantly repeating a same tune over and over again...eg: Nippon paint, mariaaa...arrmmpeat meehliisa

6. easily falls asleep and feeling extremely guilty about it ( something like bulimia, difference only the things that causes guilt.)

7. in denial of being emo

8. staring blank on a penknife, feeling excited by the thoughts of stabbing it onto something soft, like ( one's flesh)
( this symptom is filed under CRITICAL STAGE)

9. always looking out at the window, perhaps, making calculation of the perfect timing to jump of the window from 12th floor above ground.

These symptoms can be easily neglected as they are not really obvious in sight. However, ignorance of this disease might lead to serious consequences like, depression, urge of committing suicide and the worse case of all, FAIL.


The authority has currently set this disease to be at Stage 2 ( the intermediate stage), however, predicted that it will continue to worsen as the month of December approaches. THIS IS A SERIOUS CASE AND SHOULD NOT BE NEGLECTED BY ANY INDIVIDUALS. It has been filed under the "the most rare disease of humankind" giving the scientific name of " Arrrchitects Undergoing Ridiculous Assessments" , A.U.R.A.

beware...you have been warned.....

the A.U.R.A is contagious

till it resume

perhaps, maybe,
i don't know...

future, it shall,
be unknown...

just know, that now,
we shall not,

for there, are works,
models and boards,

i guess, for now,
this will do....

keep this, on hold,
till life resume....

if ever, it will.....

it will resume,...

bleeeh!!!

* messy hair*
*crooked specs*
* piles of book*
*papers everywhere*

and the list goes on....


ohhhhhh~~~
restaurants are such complicated creatures!! >=/

oh look! what a fine day =)

so, what's up today? it was one great day =)

we went for a study trip to the KL Performing Art Centre (KLPAC) today and weeee~~ it was one fruitful outing!
seriously, i love this place so much...

the architectures were all inspiring, though their main concept was to save cost, it's way of saving cost did not affect the beauty of its architecture. All the raw materials were used with such intelligence that it actually looked nice in a whole....very got the feel ah...hehe

and also, their landscaping....it was one fun ground for us to play around....green grass grows all around and around and the green grass grows all around~~~

i really had a great time there. didn't look at all that we're in malaysia.. =) lovin it!

o.O emo bunnies

was walking past Borders today when this book caught my attention,


i flipped to the first few pages and i was actually entertained by all the ways the poor bunny tries to commit suicide....
what an emo little bunny! thinking of all the ways to commit suicide...

this is NOT a book for kids, but my honest opinion? i was really entertained by it...yikes....the poor bunny just looked so innocent when it tries so hard, so many different way, just to DIE...

and...i can't believe i'm actually gonna say this....i wanna continue reading the book! haha!! >< it would be an entertaining animation series if they ever produce this in cartoon, but i doubt if it'll even pass the authority, seeing that its somehow, encouraging the idea of suicide...lol

dear santa

dear santa,

can i have this for christmas?
it would be nice to be able to slip this into my bag, downloading all the freeeee books, reading mua favourites at all time, scribble and doodle anywhere onto this sleek little technology.
can u put this into your list of presents to give away this year, and though my house has no chimney, i promise i'll leave a big rectangular socks that will fit this just fine....

you're not afraid of dog, are you santa? even so, don't worry, they don't bite..and just to make sure, i'll play with them soooo hard in the morning so that they will be worn out hence soundly asleep on christmas eve....then you can come in to deliver this little present.

deal? preeeeety please....i've always like your snow white beard...=)

if God hears every word

do God hears every word?

if He really hears every word? what is it that He's trying to do here?

i do not understand. maybe i'll never ever understand, for if i do, i wouldn't have to have faith.

faith is believing even when the whole world are expecting you not to

i had faith, but maybe its time to move on

maybe that's just it, no more to it...its just it.

and somehow, i was actually prepared for this....so i guess, thats just how God make things work for us...
He does it gently...

hocus pocus, my dear cactus, tell me why i can't focus...

why do i always allow myself to work last minute? this week, i'm not rushing like crazy, and i should be enjoying my time designing and producing lotsa lotsa lotsa sketches...but now that i'm sitting here, i don't feel like doing any architecture related work.. especially the report that i'm supposed to show some progress tomorrow...

this is not good...

i feel like sketching, non-architecture sketches
oh~~~ how i love to procrastinate >< lalalalalalalalalalalalalala~~~ and i'm feeling a little sleepy... weeeeeee~~~

so preeety~~

was doing research for my final design project for this sem and found these photos....greeceeeeee..i've always love greece...


.......this place is sooooooooo pweeeeety~~~
i'm gonna go there someday!!!
it kinda reminds me of 九份 too...it was something like this ..not white though...hmm....missing the trip..

i found u!!! =)

finally...i found the song!!!! =) arigato oma....

fallen angel

"If God took you to it, He'll get you through it."

You have probably faced times, when you thought you could never do something, never complete a particular task, or never make it to the finish. However, if God has promised you something, then you can be confident that God will get you through the difficult times in order to bring about his promise.

another word of wisdom from Christ Notes Weekly Wisdom that gives the "wow" -ly.."how true indeed" feeling ....

because, i just experience this today.

when i thought i could never complete it,
when i was about to break down and cry and maybe even hyperventilate because of all the panicking thoughts and what ifs',
when i thought i was alone and was helplessly waiting to "die",

God sent his angel down to save me =)


erm...how should i describe this?
its like you're having a sudden cramp on your leg and no one is there to help you, when you're in so much pain because of the cramp and your hands are just not long enough to pull your legs on your own. at that very moment, someone appeared, came over to give you a hand.



what seems a little meant a lot to me...i'm overwhelmed.... Amen..

i want no present, give me donations instead...

THIS is interesting...






everyone loves their birthdays, except for those who have the phobia of aging. and on birthdays, we always expect presents. Well, not for these few special people.

On their birthday, they did something special.
Instead of expecting for expensive presents with little ribbons and pretty wrappers, they asked for donations in exchange for the presents. yeap, they ask to receive cash....which will go into donation to build a well of clean water in rural areas. And with just 92 people birthdays, they managed to build a well for a village of people! Talking about the little things WE can do!!!!

this is just inspiring...imagine, there are only 365 days in a year, but there are how many billions of people. Everyday, there are probably more than 10 million celebrating their birthdays, and if each just receive the donations instead of presents.....wow...u do the math....the calculator states MATH ERROR..

hmm....so friends, don't waste money on buying presents.... .as in those presents for the sake of just being a present one....might as well spend the money on something meaningful...the ultimate purpose of present is giving and appreciating right? so, give...with a purpose.
handmade gift on the other hand, is different =D



talking about saving water,
ironically,yesterday, i saw a lady in the toilet,
she was pressing onto the tap while checking at her teeth in the mirror =_=
like for more than 30 seconds, the water just flow for no reason....speaking about being ignorant,..i was sooooooo tempted to just stick my hands in to use the water in behalf of her...if only i have the courage to tell her or something......embarrassed to say, i did nothing.

this reminds me of what Sammy the turtle quoted, "Humans are weird, some destroy, while some build."
well, in the end, its still your option to choose which side you want to be in. and its not simply determined by saying, but by actions.

alright, the next time i see something like that, i'm gonna tell the person.....oh dear God, please give me the courage to do so.... ><

for more info on these inspiring people, check out their website.

stains....

it has been a while since i last watch a movie that will get stuck in my mind....or worse, stuck in the heart.
(warning: spoilers ahead, stop reading now if you planned to watch)


just came back from watching Buried, and seriously, for a movie that only uses one actor and one setting, you would expect it to be dull and boring, but surprisingly it wasn't. This has been proven right because i did not go for any toilet break, yeap, not even one. =D

but, its no happy movie. its so so sad...its the kind of movie that makes you go....noooooooooooooo!!! no no no no no!!!!
argh.....
this kind of movie, you can't just go home after watching, because you will just feel so bad about it....i suggest, can try going yumcha with friends and talk a little crap, hoping that the feeling will just fade away.....

In conclusion, its one movies that stainssssss.....whether if its in a good way or not, well, it depends on how you think...and i think, the only reason for this movie to be rated as horror is, this story, fiction or not, very sad to say, might just be happening to anyone anywhere, right now....

rate : 4/5

wats easy to say and almost impossible to do?

to have faith....

More Than Meets The Eyes

It's not a sign of weakness
When it's out of your control
To everything there is a reason
And a time for letting go
Things aren't always as they seem to be
And sometimes life is something
You can't see


[Chorus:]
It's more
It's more than meets the eyes
It's more
It's more than meets the eyes
It's more...


So go ahead and cry for something you can understand
There's no real need to ask why for
We're all a part of this master plan
Things aren't always as they seem to be
And sometimes life is something you can't see


[Chorus]

its more than meets the eyes
its not like what it seems to be

i never told you

through the string...

once upon a time prayer

its amazing to see how God remembers your once upon a time prayer and answers it at the very unexpected moment.

masquerade

o.O i'm an architect?

according to "How i met your mother",

one of the "plan" to win a girl's heart is by telling them that you're an architect.. o.O

just simply fascinate the people around you with your design concept, and bring in the names of some famous architect like Frank Gehry, and the girls will go gaga....

hmm...

i wonder if that works the same for guys....*deep thoughts* lol

i shoot you!

yesterday tomorrow, there's no longer the "wa-ness" in owning a dslr. walk on the streets and you won't be surprise to find teens as young as 14 years of age have one hanging around their necks. More and more peeps are being exposed to photography and many made it their careers or their serious hobby.

if it was yesterday, i would say , being an amateur myself, i am learning hard to shoot, i am seeking my style and i dare not show my photographs without filtering it again and again. making sure that they aren't lousy shots. i compare my shots with others and i try to imitate certain style and angle. i tried to make it a serious hobby, building my passion in it. though reading bout the words are ....somehow, confusing....

but then, if you ask me now, what do i really like about snapping photos? i realized, the things i like about shooting didn't have anything to do with skills or techniques, dslr or compact camera...i just like shooting....

i likeeeeeee simply shooting in all different weird angles which when i review the pictures, i get to see things in a different way.
i can't turn my eyes upside down, but i can always turn Conor's eye upside down!

i likeeeeeeeee taking random shots of people and make them laugh from the silly shots i make them pose.
and so when people look back at the photos, they remember the silly things they do...

i like clicking away again and again, just to listen to the "cik cak" sound. ahh~~ because its just soooo nice~~and it made my hands so itchy that its always tempting me to just click it again.

i likeeeeeeee having a thousand photos that packed up all the space in my computer that it makes it so lag and load so slow, just so i can see the moment again, like reading a storybook with lotsa colours and little words, as the many photos combine to form a video.

maybe the photos i took, its out of proportion, there ain't any focus in this picture, lacking of strong contrast...and yada yada..
but i realize, i don't like taking photos in a right angled frame, i love things in weird proportion, i don't like to plan my photo, i don't like adjusting the light for hours just to get the "theoretically" good shot, and i am extremely lazy to edit my name into every photos i take, because i just have one too many...i don't like to think whether i'm doing the right thing or not, whether the photos are overexposed or underexposed...


and to be honest,
i know nothing at all about techniques or skills,
in fact, i don't even know what "DSLR" stands for,
i've heard it many times, but i just can't seem to remember.
hmm...mayb even my subconscious realize that its not always about learning and trying hard to study about it like you're taking a course. its about simply doing what you want to do just because you feel like doing it.


sometimes i feel i take things too seriously. almost everything i'm interested in. whether if its sports, hobbies, traveling, art, video, photography, food, computer, studies, music. seriously i feel like learning everything! and if i were to learn, i expect myself to excel...

but maybe this time, photography ain't in the field of learning, just like music,
maybe this time, its about simply enjoying and clicking away.
i don't have to be good in it, i just have to be happy while doing it.

so, canon, don't be sad, i love you just as much as i love conor. =) though you don't know how to sing cik cak cik cak, but you're much much lighter than conor. so don't worry, i won't abandon you..^^

weeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~~~~

getting to know you

"getting to know you~~ getting to know all about you~~~
getting to like you~~~ getting to hope you like me~~~~
haven't you noticed suddenly I'm bright and breezy?
because of all the beautiful and new things I'm learning about you
day by day. "

i've always love this song, and i still do.. but in real life, i guess...we don't always like what we know....and the new things we learn about a person, aren't always beautiful things.

time doesn't really matter when it comes to knowing someone. give you four years and if you did not communicate with the other person, you still can't say you know him/her.

i came to realize this recently.
four years, and i realized that i know nothing much about this person. only until this year that i got to know a little better.i guess, only through face to face interaction that one can learn more about the other.

So, it turned out to be, this person wasn't really how i expected to be. it was kinda different with the image i had in mind. because in mind, i built an image that's all too perfect to even exist in this world. i thought i know a little about this person. as i was saying...i thought i knew...
how foolish of me to expect this person to be perfect. who is perfect? only God's perfect. so, how could i even think of blaming this person for not being perfect. as if i'm perfect... how shallow of me....i should slap myself for even having the slightest thought bout it! i thought i had patience, but it turned out to be that i wasn't patient enough.

and i was just telling my sister, i don't like what i see! how arrogant of me...

but today, God revealed to me again.
i'm learning to learn to see things differently. learning to look beyond the frame that i've created. learning to see not only the clean white picture but to also appreciate the black dots around it. learning to like the good and not hate the bad. learning to look beyond the weakness and focus on the strength, learning to pray that i'll be able to see things more maturely. to not be shallow in seeing God's unique creation. and also to be even more patient than patient in waiting to see what God has in mind. learning to focus on not what i am to receive but to think of more ways to give. learning to not get impatient when things didn't happen as expected. learning not to expect that i have to get what i planned for me. and when i start to think differently, i'm beginning to feel different too. and so, if my plan wasn't exactly God's plan, at least i know, i won't be discouraged, because, at least by then i'll know, what i planned wasn't suitable for me. God has something else in mind instead. And His plan? will just be the perfect one for me.




and i pray that God will help me see.....
and just as weekly wisdom state,

"As thunder follows lighting, so actions follow thoughts."

now that i'm thinking this way, i guess its just a matter of time for my actions to come this way.

i guess i'll never know

maybe it wasn't "wait" from the very beginning,
maybe all these while, it was "no"
but i guess i'll never know

"Love unexpressed is not love at all"

was reading the weekly wisdom from "Christ Notes" and this statement caught my eye.

"Love unexpressed is not love at all"

how shallow of me to be thinking that the word express simply means letting people know that you love, be it family, friends or lovers.

but as i read on, it was talking about a whole different thing.

Love are often expressed verbally, which can be said superficial. How true of the saying that we often heard, " we often talk love, but don't live love".

In the bible, it is written clearly that we should love one another. All christians know that from the very beginning, yet sad to say, not all apply it at all times. me included.



If you say that you love someone, but don't express it by what you do, then that "love" is worthless. Indeed, it isn't even real love.

Likewise, 1 John 3:17-18 asks, "If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him? Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth." Here again, we are instructed to love with actions—not just with our mouth.

-christnotes-

you don't have to say it out loud to love,

just do it.

love is patient, love is kind.It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.

its time to get back my heart and get ready to start..

it had been a blink of an eye month that went passed way too quickly, a holiday which i never quite get to have any rest yet wouldn't want to spend it otherwise.

after having my mind off architecture for the past 4 weeks has made me a little way too distracted to get back on track. moreover, now that the college has moved to a new place which takes me an extra 20 minutes drive and an additional 10 minutes walk to college everyday, it simply means no more waking up at 9am for a 9am class!

Yet i'm more than contented that classes are now being held 11 and 12 floors above the ground, and more than happy to be able to look out to the window and have a view of subang and ant-like cars below us. Bonus, the weird clouds gave a better view from above *wink. one of the best thing about moving.

Despite the fact that the new college now has more white than the former colourful walls, i couldn't help but imagine the casts of high school musical dancing along the corridor every single time i walk through it. the only thing lack are some lockers and of course, the casts...

anyway, as i was saying, i'm soooo not in the mood to go for lessons. last sem result, was..alright, though it could have been better. oh well, who to blame but me.. Nevertheless, moving on to year two means more hard work and more brain squeezing designs. and thank God for the wonderful lecturers arranged for us this semester. and as expected, the number of student in our batch are getting lesser by the semester. From 8, to the 5 with 2 new, and now its back to the 5 of us, with another 2 seniors who joined in. hopefully, the 5 of us will remain the 5 of us till the very final sem. Come on people, don't give up!!! we must graduate together!!

Other than that, this semester's timetable rocks too! Our dream for the classes to be arranged together has finally came true. For this sem, there are only classes on tuesday, wednesday and thursday. yeap, that means we have a 4 days long weekend! vacation anytime.

ooo...and one more thing, brother might be leaving to study in UK. m so worried bout him. but at the same time, am proud that he's having such confidence in achieving his dream. I should learn from him too. oh dear Lord, please bless my little brother. Guide him and protect him in every way. please be with him and help him to surrender his future into Your hands Lord. In Jesus name i ask and pray, Amen.

i guess that's all for now, i've really got to get my heart back soon..but oh...its so tough..my mind just keep drifting away, to a far away land....traveling around the world...

words in mind,

i lose my heart all too easily...

my very first backpacking trip!

it was aweeeeeeeeesooooooome!!! I couldn't find better words to describe my feeling right now! 7 days of surreal experience, 7 days together, 7 days away from the world, it was one awesome experience!

a trip to taiwan, each with a 7 kg backpack,
the four of us, a senior of mine, a friend of his and another high school friend of mine, off we went as foreigners. On day one, we don't know each other, in fact, one has never met us before. nevertheless, we had the time of our lives! the first 3 days felt like weeks...and when it was time to leave, without knowing if we'll ever meet again, we know, we're so gonna miss this trip!

The very first day, we almost miss our flight. After breakfast, we lined up at the counter that we thought it was THE counter, not until we heard the announcement calling our names, we ran to the plane with our bags and cameras... It was one special experience. what a dramatic way to begin our trip!

moving on to booking a weird stinky motel online, upon reaching there, the weird scent was horrifying.so, we decided to go for another one instead. Although we have only knew each other for like 8 hours, we spent the night squeezing in a room full of mirrors... ironically, from how the room look in reality, the room really proves how photos can be deceiving. From photos and videos, the room looked somewhat like a palace, yet, in reality, hmm....it was quite nasty... We then went to the famous night market and bought ourselves a whole lot of food since we were starving like wolves! All of a sudden, it began to rain, and we packed all our food from the table. However, the rain stopped after just a few drops, so when we wanted to go back to the seat to continue eating, we realized that we had no more food. Due to the chaos caused by the rain, one of us got the food mixed up with trash, and threw it all away into the dustbin. The four of us sat there with no food in hand, laughing at our own silliness.

The first 2 days went by really slow, and not to forget tiring. We walked and walked and walked and walked. and it rained and rained and rained and rained...Blisters started attacking my toes, and we were all messy and dirty..finally feeling like a backpacker.... We tasted awful food, tasteless food, and finally when we were all exhausted, we ate the best food while standing.

Moving on to 3rd day, we moved from the city to a seaside town, carrying our heavy backpack with a few new clothes added, we dragged our feet up the slope to a small little cabin hidden in an old apartment. though little, the room was quite cozy. After dropping our backpacks there, off we go to explore the town. The day went by really quickly because we were rushing from places to places. You can say that we're ambitious, or greedy, but to God's blessing, we managed to get to every places. There, i had my best cycling experience ever! =D

Day 4, we spent most of our time traveling. From train to bus, from bus to cab, we went from the seaside town to a seaside hill. The scenery was just simply amazing! It was beautiful beyond description. it was somewhat a Greece-like town. With houses all built on hill, each with various shape and form. the architectures were stacked on hills just like those in Greece. From the place we stayed in, we can climb up to the roof top, and from there, we can see the entire town, with the view of the sea ahead of us. I love this place the best. The locals there were really friendly, and they rest really early, shops were all close after the sun set. But the night view was mesmerizing. At night, when everyone was asleep, we went exploring the town with our cameras on hand. i think we were the noisiest bunch in town! and despite spending half the night chatting on the rooftop, at 5am, we got up to climb the hill in order to try our luck to capture the sunrise. it was just great!

Day 5 and 6 were a little boring. We moved from North to the Center of Taiwan, from the seaside hill to the lakeside hill. Though the view there was quite beautiful, but there weren't much activities to do. We spent the first night wandering around and playing cards in room. The place was really boring, but we had fun cycling. We were even stopped by the local policemen twice, due to our dangerous way of cycling! What an experience.

Day 7, the final day in town, we went onto every transport at the very last minute. Thank God we managed to get pass every single one on time. From bus, to cruise, to train, to plane, we went onto every single one just seconds before it take off. Speaking about taking risk !!!!

Back at the airport, we had dinner at Old town white coffee, from there we begin our trip, and from there we ended it. Sitting back at that cafe, with 7 days in between, we were 4 different people altogether. The first time we sat there, we were awkwardly quiet, 7 days after, back at the same place, we were laughing away like we've known each other for years.




Thank you Father Lord Jesus for everything that You've given to me.
Thank you Lord for the wonderful family that You've blessed me with.
For the millionth time i thanked You for them, i thank you again.
Thank you Lord for the protection that You've blessed us with.
Thank you Lord for the miracles that You've done in our lives.
Thank you Lord for the awesome trip that You've given to me,
and the fantastic friends to travel with.
Thank you Lord for everything, and everyone and every blessing!
Amen

@_@

i'm gonna faint i'm gonna faint i'm gonna faint!!!

what air asia says is really true " now everyone can fly"

I JUST SAW THAT FLIGHTS TO SOUTH KOREA, BOTH WAYS....only cost RM255 in total!!!!!!!!!
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS...........insanity!!!!!!!! how could it be sooooooo cheap!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhh......

budden, the booking period is only 5 days, 4th -8th of August 2010...
but the travel period is from Nov 2010 till Aug 2011.....
those who're interested, make your move quick!!! itS totALLY a gREat DEAL!!!!

but i'm soooooooo broke right now!!! do you think if i start saving now, i can make it in april 2011?? spring in korea~~~ ahhh~~~~
can i can i????? i'm soooo greedy right now!! =P

but thus begins the journey of backpacking..........it can only begin if you dare to dream.......

now, let's settle taiwan first =D 台湾， 我来啦！！！

eat them??!!!

why not just eat them?
I can't believe there is such person who can say something like this. I've read bout this few months back and till now, every single time i think of it, its ridiculously *&@^(*&$(&@^@^$$!
people were discussing about how to solve the problem of stray dogs and someone suggested to just slaughter them and eat it. It was said to be able to create a win-win situation. =_= fine, maybe his intention was to scare the irresponsible owners who let their dogs astray,or maybe, he was just plain hungry during that moment.. either way, he shouldn't have say that!!!! If they are actually going to impose this stupid method, this world has officially gone cuckoo!!! Let's all start consuming human meat too because the population has also gone too far ...yay~~

Absurdity rating : 10/10

God bless the doggies out there..

facebook reconnects!

u never know how small the world is until u join facebook! =D

you know A, A know B, when you know B, you realized B know C , whom was your primary friend, and when you continue to chat with C, you realized...hey...C knows A after all..HAHA... and to top that, you saw that B has a picture with E, who is a best friend of your best friend D. weee~~~ confused? haha..this is fun!

so you see...its all connected... =O


n hor, holiday is just soooooooo nice!!! except for that "horrible" day..which wasn't that horrible after all...maybe i was having pms that day... paiseh..

as i was saying...holiday is JUST SO NICE!!! its like weekend everyday except that you don't go to church everyday...
seriously, every morning when i wakes up, i was actually smiling~~~ yea...sounds a bit scary, but i was that contented....=D

then, the question of the day was only, where should i go today, and who to yum cha with today ?? SYOK!!!
n oh n oh, i don't have to feel guilty watching tv.. though i still stay up till late at night, but it was to online for fun and not rushing assignments!!!

n also, i can just stare at the clock and see it go tick tock tick tock just like that!! i can be sooooo wuliao spamming people's wall on fb... i can say, argh....its time to sleep and i don't feel like sleeping =D wow.....

maybe after a few months, the holiday season won't seem as interesting, but i have only one month....so....THIS IS NIIIIICE!!

life is just so niceeeeeeee now!!! time...please try to move slower...

contented ...thank you God for everything!! =D

i'm a horrible person!!!!

i'm such a horrible terrible person!!!!!!!!!!!

have you ever done something that you know very well you shouldn't be doing it but if you don't do, you just gonna make yourself suffer so much that you're confirmed that it will exceed the limit you will be able to bear, and having the confidence that you WILL NOT be able to bear, you end up doing it because you're a really selfish person who ARE horrible and terrible after all...........
and after doing it you feel so guilty that you did that, and get pissed off at yourself for what you did and all the trouble you caused to the people around you???!!!! n you kept whining and complaining and making a big deal out of it, which you don't at all have the right to do so because you're the one who caused all these to happen at the first place...............

i'm such a horrible terrible person!!!!!!!!!!!

i shouldn't have started it at all in the first place.......

now everyone don't feel good......n i feel horribly terrible!!!!!!!!!!

God, please forgive me....i'm so sorry......i'm so sorry......i'm so sorry.........

it used to be "this" day

"well i wonder could it be.................call me crazy call me blind............"



it was then when i thought i made it obvious,
something i wouldn't usually do, something that i never thought i would have the courage to

n i have faith, and i've waited,

and maybe....only God knows that the wait has not ended...
i know that God knows..but the question is...
do you??






sometimes i just wish i know

and i wonder..............

for me it happens all the time.............

=D

I'm back to the world!! ask me out!! =D i'm freeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~~

of being a bat........

oh wait...even bat gets to sleep during the day and only works through the night.....

so....what works day and night??

........yawn.........

nevertheless....i still love architecture ♥__♥ *zombified*

gooooooglism.....waa~~

there's many many more....but i'm only interested in a few....

melissa is back
melissa is microsoft's fault
melissa is a direct result of digital monocultur
melissa is beautiful
melissa is"
melissa is a single mexican woman from hermosillo
melissa is actually not a bad girl
melissa is the best
melissa is a blonde haired little slut that
melissa is an idiot
melissa is sending you a warning as computer bugs go
melissa is a marketing tool
melissa is inspired by the chance of eventually being a soccer superstar *like
melissa is native to southern europe and is commonly seen growing in many european gardens
melissa is back?"
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melissa is useful with the following
melissa is a lemming *like
melissa is a psycho
melissa is definately my honey bee
melissa is 13 years old
melissa is a master trainer with imx
melissa is often used for insomnia *i dunno why but i like...zzzz
melissa is through
melissa is the first african american president of the usm association of office professionals
melissa is a very attractive 22 year old woman with a slim body and long brown hair * i'll be there..lol
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melissa is also a certified diabetes educator
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melissa is so nice *i'm nice....hehe
melissa is all about
melissa is fluent in creole
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melissa is a beautiful
melissa is not so
melissa is having a bad day
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melissa is deemed essential if humans are to travel successfully to mars
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melissa is real
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melissa is back to life again * can't wait!!!
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melissa is and she says
melissa is a product of her environment
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now......whose name's next.....hehe....

*ignoring the fact that the days to assessment is counting down fast....continue facebook-ing~~ weee~~~

i misssssssss cartoons

here's a good one introduced by a friend
enjoy!! =D

i survived!!!!!! =D

guess what???

i survived!!!!!!!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~

finally....i get to come home before 7pm

finally...i can get rid of the yucky task

finally.....i get to touch my assignment

finally.....i get to say, tomorrow is a weekend!!!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~

5 days of workshop.....well....it wasn't that bad.......thanks to God blessing, i survived!!!!


although the final 3 days were quite fun, it wasn't something that i want to go through again....
at least not in another year......

alright la...i'm not gonna lie... i did learned something from the workshop, and got to know a few seniors better.....
anyway, i'm just glad that its over!!! YAY!!!!! yay yay yay yay yay!!!!!
so now~~~

with only a month left to final assessment...its time to work it baby!!!
back to design and architecture!! but before that..let's just enjoy this weekend ya.....i haven't been sleeping since forever~~~

seriously, how on earth do architecture students survive? back from workshop on wednesday evening and class starts at 9am the next day?? no break kah?? archiTORTURE weeeyyy

whining whining whining =p


ahh~~~ bed~~~~~~~i haven't seen you for months....i'm sorry i chose the couch over you recently.....its just much more convenient to work in the living room....i will break up with couch as soon as possible and return to you alright??


oh one more thing......the most absurd thing ever.....

no offense to the novel written.....


how on earth?????!!! i mean, HOW IS IT POSSIBLE THAT......twilight saga~~~~ which is the worst movie ever!!! maybe 2nd to The Spirit....narh.....THE WORST MOVIE EVER......won the best movie award???????????
and not only that......come on~~ Robert Pattinson? Kristen Stewart????
this world is changing~~~~~ booo!

its gonna be a looooooong week ahead =(

♥ i love weekends♥

but why does it have to end...........=(
and worse, its gonna be a 14 days long week ahead....boo