Rare Poems #1

The Bible

Much books I have perus'd, but I protest
Of books the sacred Bible is the best.
Some books may much of humane Learning boast
But here's the language of the Holy Ghost.
Hence we draw living water, here we do
Observe the Patriarchs' lives, and doctrine too:
Here Christ himself directs us how to pray,
And to the Gate of Heaven chalks the way.
Here is the salve which gives the blind their sight,
All darkness to expel; here is the light:
Here is strong meat for men and milk to feed
The weaker babes, which more perfection need;
Cast off erroneous pamphlets, wanton rhymmes,
All feigned books of love, which cheat the times,
And read this book of life; those shall appear
With Christ in Heaven which are written here.

- Rowland Watkyns

ps: i love you

its another movie day! today, it so happened to be ps i love you that got playing the harddrive. This is such a bittersweet movie. Really really sweet, but really really sad at the same time. But its movie like this that always makes me think. and i like movies that make me think. 

some people who never spend time watching movie like this, they're missing out a big time. chick flick and a genuine love story is different. i always like movies from books, because its always those that have the best quotes, those that have the best stories to tell. and this,is one of the best.

usually, i don't like movie with sad ending. and this book, someone dies right from the beginning. thats just sad. but i guess thats the part of it that make it a beautiful story. it shows how beautiful love can be, that despite how much pain it brings when you lost it, it is still worth having it in the first place. 

this sort of remind me of a friend who likes to ask really difficult questions, such as "would you rather lose both hands or both legs?" or " would you prefer to be deaf and to never hear music again, or mute, to never be heard again?" difficult questions like that. and this movie, gave me another difficult question. 

" would i rather have someone to love me and know me like how Jerry know Holly, and then love him so much that the pain of losing him is just so difficult to bear? or would i rather not love at all?"

how do you choose to love a person? maybe you don't even get to choose to love a person, maybe it just happen. whether you want it or not. 

oh, and that part about creating things, where Holly said, her business is to create something, anything, anything that will bring that part of you to show it to the world, that part of you that makes you different from the ordinary people from the world. i think that part is just beautiful. i think that's really something that makes someone so special, that you cant find it on anyone else. 

you know, i've always imagined what would my funeral be like. what would my friends say about me, what kind of a person would my family described me to be... and always from now and then, i will try my very best to be kind, to be helpful, to be special, because i want to be special. i want people to remember me as someone special in their life, someone who did something, someone who changed something. someone who sees something when others didnt, someone who did something when others walked away, someone who loves God, someone who cares, someone who is special. 

i just wish i would remember that everyday, especially on days in the black hole. i hate that black hole. everyone would be so much happier if there isnt such thing as a black hole. but just like Holly, she doesn't always remember what she wants or need in life either. Maybe thats why we need people who loves us to remind us, people who know us to tell us, what makes our eye sparkles, what make us, us. 

i like this movie. its my 3rd time watching it, after reading the book. and it still makes me think and it still makes me cry. i like how movie do this to people. i like how authors do, how they create something so beautiful that make people cry, or think, or learn how to love. i want to do things like that too. i don't want to work for the sake of working, or do things for the sake of doing. i want to create things that would make people love, make people smile, make people cry, make people feel. i want to create things that will make an impact, or make a little change, i want to help, i want to help people learn, help people love. and maybe through helping, i would myself learn how to love. 

ps: i think this soundtrack is gonna go on playing for a while <3 div="">

“You deserve someone who loves you with every single beat of his heart, someone who thinks about you constantly, someone who spends every minute of every day just wondering what you’re doing, where you are, who you’re with, and if you’re OK. You need someone who can help you reach your dreams and protect you from your fears. You need someone who will treat you with respect, love every part of you, especially your flaws. You should be with someone who could make you happy, really happy, dancing on air happy.”

 ― Cecelia Ahern, Love, Rosie

they looked for a miracle and found it in a song

tell me to read a christian related book few years back and i would imagine a boring thick book filled with deep verses which i could never comprehend. its like i need to prepare an army of tiny little brain cells to actually go through the pages.

however i changed my mind, after picking up a book. and perhaps at that time, it was the right book.
now, i like reading these books. i like to read how God works miracle in people's life.

Many times, people might think, christian life is always so perfect and awesome, they're always happy, they're always kind, they seldom get angry, and they always do the right thing.

Read a book and you'll know it isn't true.

Many inspiring books came from testimony of the once terrible, horrible life. Broken families, broken relationship, broken soul, tragic tragedy. Its because when those things happen, the life that was full of pride will finally allow God to come and take control of the actual fragile life.

we don't necessarily have to wait till bad things happen to do that do we?

And there is this misconception where people thinks coming to God is an escape to all problems. It will solve all your problems and you'll live happily ever after. But the actual happily ever after only comes when we're finally in heaven. As long as we're on earth, there will be tough times.

Being a christian doesn't make you less angry, it doesn't make being kind easier, and it definitely doesn't make sad things less sad. You still struggle like every people. and  its still very tempting to get angry at people when bad things happen, n i do mean cursing kind of angry. 

there are time when i was so tempted to get angry. so tempted to just curse like everyone else. there are times, when it seems so easy to just give up and give in.

and then i think of God. of the kind words He uses and the amount of time He forgive.
and then we go on and try a little harder. for Him.

the next book i'm gonna get :)

but we didn't really talk

" it's a little crazy, actually. As the time approaches, we remove the cages, and then we dig a shallow trench from the nest to the water's edge, making it as smooth as possible, but high enough on the sides so the turtles can only go in one direction. And it's weird, because at first only a couple of eggs are moving, but it's like their movement is enough to set the whole nest going, and before you know it, the nest is like a crazy beehive on steroids. The turtles are climbing over each other to get out of the hole, and then they hit the sand and head toward the water in this little crablike parade. It's amazing."

phase 2. 

the dilemma between wanting to quickly get to the end of the story; and wanting to not read that quickly just so the book will last a little little longer.









i guess its d same in life aint.

you're all i can think of

"What is this stuff?" Jonah asked.
"It's supposed to be art."
"I thought art was like paintings and stuff."
"It is. But sometimes art is other thing, too."


Jonah wrinkled his nose, staring at the half-rabbit/half-snake.
"It doesn't look like art."

~ The Last Song by Nicholas Sparks

if u ever find the city of tiny apples, i'll tell u

“While wandering a deserted beach at dawn, stagnant in my work, I saw a man in the distance bending and throwing as he walked the endless stretch toward me.As he came near, I could see that he was throwing starfish, abandoned on the sand by the tide, back into the sea. 


When he was close enough I asked him why he was working so hard at this strange task.
He said that the sun would dry the starfish and they would die. I said to him that I thought he was foolish. there were thousands of starfish on miles and miles of beach.


One man alone could never make a difference.


He smiled as he picked up the next starfish. Hurling it far into the sea he said,
"It makes a difference for this one."


I abandoned my writing and spent the morning throwing starfish.”

~adapted from

The Starfish Thrower

by Loren Eiseley

o.O emo bunnies

was walking past Borders today when this book caught my attention,


i flipped to the first few pages and i was actually entertained by all the ways the poor bunny tries to commit suicide....
what an emo little bunny! thinking of all the ways to commit suicide...

this is NOT a book for kids, but my honest opinion? i was really entertained by it...yikes....the poor bunny just looked so innocent when it tries so hard, so many different way, just to DIE...

and...i can't believe i'm actually gonna say this....i wanna continue reading the book! haha!! >< it would be an entertaining animation series if they ever produce this in cartoon, but i doubt if it'll even pass the authority, seeing that its somehow, encouraging the idea of suicide...lol

once upon a time prayer

its amazing to see how God remembers your once upon a time prayer and answers it at the very unexpected moment.

the point where nothing IS and something soon will BE

its common to have artist block..and yea..its extremely frustrating and annoying...

instead of staring blank at the butter paper trying to squeeze something out,

i found this inspiring book in the library....

The movie director begins with an empty screen

A composer brings sound out of silence


The sculptor sets their chisel upon a block of faceless granite


A painter begin work with a blank canvas

All artist starts from the same point:

"the point where nothing IS and something soon will BE"




L.O.O.S.E.N. U.P

....click me to read me....

how inspiring~~

Drowned With Books.....

hehehe....so happy..not because I spent a lot today...which I did...
I'm can't stop smiling because..because.....I bought lotsa books....hehehe...so happy...

MPH sales!!! Last month, I've registered to be a member of the MRC during my school's bookfair..Not really interested in the beginning..but since it's half price for us student...so..I thought..why not...it's just RM10 for 2 years...
And now...I'm really glad I did...thanks to it I saved rm120++ today...muahaha...

Went to MPH on Wednesday night but I've only done my survey there....din manage to get any books...so I went with Reinette again today and got ourselves tonnes of books...okay...maybe not tonnes...since I've only got 4 books while she got 3 books...but we spent a lot.....which means we saved a lot too...thanks to the 20% off for members....hehe....

We spent about two hours in MPH...both in books dilemmas...couldn't decide on which book to buy...not because we couldn't find any...but because we found too many....However, we set our budget at rm100...so couldn't exceed that....after walking up and down the two floors for a dozen times......(sorry Reinette....about that...)....finally...We left MPH while closing my eyes...lol...must prevent myself from spotting another book and stand infront of it for another half and hour hesitating whether or not to buy.....

Hence, we've concluded our MPH sales hunting with a bag full of books and an empty wallet....lol...
Now...shall decide on which book to read first........

ps: Miss Meeko...too bad you've miss the sales....relax...I'm sure they'll have another one next year...
Oh ya...remember the essay competition I told you about?? I managed to get first in my class....but the teacher lied...no Rm30 Mph voucher...only Rm20 popular voucher....at least its better than nothing la...