its my papa ya.

dear God,

please bless and protect my papa tmr ya.
Amen.

went onto the 380 and flip flap flip flap home :)

look what my brother bought home for me :)

bits of love 

its almost like i'm there.

well, just a little little further. hee. 

i'll miss you lots

be nice and accompany the egg will ya. i heard they say malacca camp is pretty. 

i drove bout 300 miles to pick up an egg

almost everyone is home!! :) its time for cny!! 

God gave u a heavy heart bcoz its better off filled than empty

it seems like there are many things already happenin tho the "holiday" had just begun. its an indescribable feeling how God is trying to make me see things i dun usually realize. i dun really noe how to describe it in words but its something tat i'm grateful tat God is making me see these things now. its amazing how He plans and make things happen juz so that i will be able to be ther to observe the things tat happened. n from there, His plan came by to change me bit by bit each day.

and each thing that i realized hurts me to learn that was wat kind of attitude i used to hav, how ignorant i was, how irresponsible my words were, how much of time wasted on myself resulting in neglecting the people tat are supposed to be closest to me, my own family. the time i've lost and the part i've left from my family in result of spending time on "me and my things". and i admit, none of the good things i did was from me but all the bad things were. i am not proud of who i am.

at the same time, i'm grateful to know that i'm actually being "taken care" of. and it is very comforting to know tat i'm nt on my own. to think that being who i am isn't d thing i shud concentrate on but what He wants and who He is. i'm glad tat He is telling me this now and not later. i've wasted enough. i couldn't afford to lose more.

i m still changing and i still do not know what to do. but aint tat wat its supposed to be? to be weak so we would always need to depend on Him, and to know not what to expect so we will always surrender our future onto Him.

just as what amen means; so be it.

wait... i'm going with u!!

a: how long will we have to be there?
b: till d nurse can bend my legs till 90 degree.
a: wat 90 degrees?
b: it'll be straight and not bendable, but she will bend it a little day by day till it reaches 90 degree.
a: o.O
b: she says it'll hurt so much tat i'll cry. u sure u wanna be ther?
a: do u wan me to be ther?
b: of course la. i'm scared.
a: okay. i'm scared too. erm, can we fall asleep at the same time? i dun wan to be awake alone.
b: ...

It is now my responsibility

oh no oh no...juz heard something from my eldest sis. Now I feel extremely guilty. sigh sigh sigh... I'm so not a good child. Eldest sis staying in hostel for more than 5 years now, while 2nd sis just left to uni. Now, I'm actually the oldest among the siblings (home, i mean.)?? oh no~~I used to be so dependent on my 2nd sis, and now that she has left to uni, I realized that I'm actually so...useless.. as in..not contributing anything to the family. Now, even Reagan might move into sport school, that means left Jason and I on the list. Despite how much I dislike working in the office, I guess its now my responsibility to help out. I shouldn't be so selfish-ly enjoying all the lepak-ing during my free time from college..So, instead of sitting here being pathetic while feeling guilty, I should get up and start doing something for a change...I need to do my part. Right....I need to make this right!!!

God...please grant me the wisdom to do this right. Help me in this would ya?? Cast away all my selfish thoughts and desires....I ask for Your strength and will power...Thank You God. Amen.

Renovating Dookoo's semi-d

Project planned in Dec 2008, finally was carried out on 9th Feb 2009, Monday. Dookoo's semi-d was finally renovated... Project involving,

The mathematician who calculated the composition of paint used, serving drinks to workers and also provided music for entertainment purposes.

the noisy entertainer

Oma d artist who got sunburn after working under d sun...
Sab sab , the part time worker
the painter who tried to fit into the cage in order to paint the interior

and last but not least, the supervisor aka owner of the house...


Finally, after all the sweat and hardwork,
this piece of metal.....
and these few piece of wood,
becomes Dookoo's nice nice semi -d
Although Dookoo is not so rich to buy herself a banglo, but she's happy with what she has....
Now, the world is a much better place......be contented.... :D

Blessed

I used to take things for granted…always complaining and whining….. ..never have I slow down my steps to take a look around……..Until recently, through my friends I see…that God have actually given much to me……..now I know that I should be way more than happy……..I should be thankful for what I have……because….I am really blessed…. I used to complain to my friends…..’I hate being the middle child……my two elder sisters always join hands with my two younger brothers to make fun of me…’ but now….I’m more than thankful to have them…..

Thinking back at those times......moments where we fought and cried.....where we gave each other bruises and also a panda eye.....being enemy over the tv remote.....but became all buddy buddy when facing my dad's cane...we often fought over small little things......from a piece of chocolate...to who should take the front seat.....always saying that popular phrase to each other ....'I don't friend you!'' ....lolz....however, we never fail to make up with one another...because once we see each other's face...our lips will betray us...and we'll start laughing crazily.......

I still remember we created a system to reduce the number of our fights......there were a few comfortable couch that we love to sit on......hence we like to snatch with each other for it and often we will end up fighting....therefore,our system was....the booking system.....when one left the seat without saying 'choop' to book that seat, others are free to take it....however, if one did said 'choop' before leaving the seat.....no one can take it...because the seat was 'legally' reserved for that person.....That system worked for quite some time, but it was later banned by us......I forgotten the reason though...

We used to play around at our front porch while waiting for my parents to return....I still remember all our silly games...from racing to catching...and also the famous handkerchief game......

Moreover, food were never tasty when my siblings weren't around to snatch with me....

TV will only be an empty screen if they weren't there to watch with me....

We're one big noisy family....five is quite a handful.....I salute my parents for all their hard work....it must be a tiring task....

I used to ask my mum: 'were we naughty'...and then she will smile and this story she will tell......"there was once when all of you were still young....we were still living in the old house......we lived in a small unit located at the first floor....we went for dinner and to shop at the mall...when we returned home...all of you were fast asleep in the car....

seeing every one of you sleeping so comfortably....we didn't want to wake you all up and so...daddy have to carry every single one of you upstairs to put you all to bed....then he came down and helped me with the shopping bags....but when we stepped into the house....we were surprised to see...the four of you (my youngest brother haven't exist yet) were no longer asleep but sitting together on the couch, watching Donald duck and Mickey...
the four of you were smiling innocently at us...welcoming us in....then only we know that we've been conned by these four little kids...."

that must be a really funny scene.......

Our imagination were also very fascinating..... There were a few long curtains in our house........when the wind blows...the curtains will fly all over......we used to imagine the curtain as flame .....shouting 'fire!!!fire!!!' as we crawl under the flying curtains.....
There was also once when there's only my brother and I at home, I came up with a crazy idea of building a swing at the bannister using towels and ropes......and we succeeded.....we enjoyed the swing really much and managed to take it off before my parents came back.....however....we were so excited about it, that we bragged to our siblings.....that's when my parents found out about it and....you know what happens next......

Although we've never been to overseas together...except for Singapore......every year, our parents will bring to at least one vacation trip locally.....and in every long journey drive to the destination, we'll be so excited that we'll sing and play games till we reach that place...but when we're on our way back....all of us will be fast asleep like we used to when we were young....

We also love to play pranks on others....especially when we were so bored that we have nothing better to do....there was one period of time where my sister came up with this naughty idea.....we just got ourselves a cordless phone that time....and we were so happy that we wouldn't have to leave our seats to pick up the phone while we were watching the tv.....and so...here came the pranks......whenever the phone rang.....the five of us but mostly my second sis, my brother and I will take turns to answer the phone in a weird way....Sometimes we'll answer in Japanese, "mushimushi", sometimes in Thai "sawadika"...and the most skillfull one, my sis, will answer like the answering machine "the number you have dialed, is currently out of service. After the tone, please record your message." And so, at that time, we were really excited and panic whenever the phone rang....Until there was once when it was my sister's turn to imitate the answering machine, the person hung up before she managed to finish the sentence...then the whole day, we were thinking...who was the person who phoned....what if it's an emergency call....and so....we stopped playing that prank...

I know that....One day.....we will all grow up and have our own families and lives...and I know that I'm gonna miss them so much when that day arrives............but...who says that we can't hang out like we used to...doing crazy stuff together...maybe we can even bring in our families along to get crazy altogether....haha.........

Here's a toast to my family.....Thank God for everything............
A couple of years before......
A couple of years later.........