Invitation

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it, or fade it, or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own; if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself.

If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty every day. And if you can source your own life from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand at the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, 'Yes.'

It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children.

It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.


by Oriah Mountain Dreamer

When You Are Gone

by Yasmin binti Ahmad

But if only God would grant me a piece of His courage,
I might face your absence without dying. 
But if only you would take me with you wherever you go,
I would find home in a million different places.
And I would sweeten you in a million different ways.
Before you are sleepy, I will have already placed a thigh under your falling head.
Before you are hungry,  I am already peeling onions.
When you are angry with me, I shall kiss you.
When you are not, I shall kiss  you twice.
If you should die before me, I shall lie down beside you.
Whisper a joke into your half-listening ear.
Promise the ultimate promise of eternal companionship.
When you are gone, I do not die, 
But I am forever dying. 

bring me back to you

ps: i love you

its another movie day! today, it so happened to be ps i love you that got playing the harddrive. This is such a bittersweet movie. Really really sweet, but really really sad at the same time. But its movie like this that always makes me think. and i like movies that make me think. 

some people who never spend time watching movie like this, they're missing out a big time. chick flick and a genuine love story is different. i always like movies from books, because its always those that have the best quotes, those that have the best stories to tell. and this,is one of the best.

usually, i don't like movie with sad ending. and this book, someone dies right from the beginning. thats just sad. but i guess thats the part of it that make it a beautiful story. it shows how beautiful love can be, that despite how much pain it brings when you lost it, it is still worth having it in the first place. 

this sort of remind me of a friend who likes to ask really difficult questions, such as "would you rather lose both hands or both legs?" or " would you prefer to be deaf and to never hear music again, or mute, to never be heard again?" difficult questions like that. and this movie, gave me another difficult question. 

" would i rather have someone to love me and know me like how Jerry know Holly, and then love him so much that the pain of losing him is just so difficult to bear? or would i rather not love at all?"

how do you choose to love a person? maybe you don't even get to choose to love a person, maybe it just happen. whether you want it or not. 

oh, and that part about creating things, where Holly said, her business is to create something, anything, anything that will bring that part of you to show it to the world, that part of you that makes you different from the ordinary people from the world. i think that part is just beautiful. i think that's really something that makes someone so special, that you cant find it on anyone else. 

you know, i've always imagined what would my funeral be like. what would my friends say about me, what kind of a person would my family described me to be... and always from now and then, i will try my very best to be kind, to be helpful, to be special, because i want to be special. i want people to remember me as someone special in their life, someone who did something, someone who changed something. someone who sees something when others didnt, someone who did something when others walked away, someone who loves God, someone who cares, someone who is special. 

i just wish i would remember that everyday, especially on days in the black hole. i hate that black hole. everyone would be so much happier if there isnt such thing as a black hole. but just like Holly, she doesn't always remember what she wants or need in life either. Maybe thats why we need people who loves us to remind us, people who know us to tell us, what makes our eye sparkles, what make us, us. 

i like this movie. its my 3rd time watching it, after reading the book. and it still makes me think and it still makes me cry. i like how movie do this to people. i like how authors do, how they create something so beautiful that make people cry, or think, or learn how to love. i want to do things like that too. i don't want to work for the sake of working, or do things for the sake of doing. i want to create things that would make people love, make people smile, make people cry, make people feel. i want to create things that will make an impact, or make a little change, i want to help, i want to help people learn, help people love. and maybe through helping, i would myself learn how to love. 

ps: i think this soundtrack is gonna go on playing for a while <3 div="">

Juruselamatku

Walau kuharus berjalan
Dalam lembah kekelaman
Perlindungan-Mu Oh Tuhan
Nyatalah bagi hidupku

 Tiada pernah sedetik pun
Tiada pernah Kau tinggalkan
Sungguh mulia dan sempurna
Hanya Kau layak disembah

Yesus Engkau Juru s’lamatku
Dalam janji-Mu kemenanganku
Selamanya ‘kan kunyatakan
Besar setia-Mu Tuhan
Di hidupku

make sense to me

Love is doing little things

Remembrance is the joy it brings.

It lends a warmth to every heart

Little things are so great a part

Of what it’s like to love the best

To run the mile and pass the test.

God doesn’t ask you to be the lark

Or brighten skies with your spark.

He only asks what you can do

To plod along ’til you are through.

Your labors need not be so fine,

But quiet, soft, and quite benign.

Hardly noticed by the like of these

But greater far than forest trees.

Because they sought no great reward

But merely to help others toward

Some sheltered love which is from God.

Doing little things isn’t very hard.

~ Jean Quigley

how white make things shine

photos by Sharon Montrase

i remember falling in love with a giraffe from a gallery of animal portraits. i don't remember who the photographer was but i love how the photoshoot was done. all young animals were brought into the studio and photos were taken gently. i think its Sharon Montrase. 

maybe, it was because the animals were taken to heart by the photographer, the pictures came out beautifully genuine. 

oh  giraffaaaa....  sho cute

check out her other photos and videos of doggies too...

here here here~~ 

its always a different day

最討厭要下不下的雨 ,可惜未來總是撲朔迷離..
如果摔得越痛才越會飛行,快把我丟向最高的天空裡

不喜歡別人說我幸運, 他們不懂我有多麼努力
雖然衝動永遠比堅持容易,寶貴的東西都需要很費心

碰到的事每一天都不同
有的給我眼淚有的給我笑容

 終於會珍惜花開不怕花落,  走過的曲折就全變成彩虹

遇見的人每一天都不同,  偶爾失去什麼偶爾學到什麼
慢慢能翻越沙丘走出日落,  每一天的我要比昨天遼闊

連我都不相信自己的時候, 只有你一直相信我
此刻我什麼也不想說 因為擁抱能表達得更多

keep dancing, even when your heart sank

And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music.

~ Friedrich Nietzsche

find a beautiful song

You never change 

You are the God you say You are 

When I'm afraid 

You come and still my beating heart 

You stay the same 

When hope is just a distant thought 

You take my pain 

And You lead me to the cross

Chorus: 

What love is this 

That You gave Your life for me 

And made a way for me to know You 

And I confess You're always enough for me 

You're all I need 

 I look to You 

I see the scars upon Your hands 

And hold the truth 

that when I can't You always can 

And standing here beneath the shadow of the cross 

I'm overwhelmed that I keep finding opening arms

Jesus, in Your suffering 

You are reaching 

You thought of me Jesus, 

dance with me before the sun rises

simply beautiful

plan B

-taken from tumblr-

n my september starts today

Those hours, that with gentle work did frame
The lovely gaze where every eye doth dwell,
Will play the tyrants to the very same
And that unfair which fairly doth excel;
For never-resting time leads summer on
To hideous winter, and confounds him there;
Sap checked with frost, and lusty leaves quite gone,
Beauty o’er-snowed and bareness every where:
Then were not summer’s distillation left,
A liquid prisoner pent in walls of glass,
Beauty’s effect with beauty were bereft,
Nor it, nor no remembrance what it was:
But flowers distill’d, though they with winter meet,
Leese but their show; their substance still lives sweet.

those hours, 

that with gentle work did frame
~ mr. s

not coincidence, i believe.

 Barcelona Barcelona Barcelona Barcelona Barcelona!

Spain spain spain spain spain spain spain spain spain

Sagrada sagrada sagrada sagrada sagradaaaaaaa

Gaudi Gaudi gaudi gaudi gaudi gaudi

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i need to go to Spain.

before that, i needa learn spanish.

and before that i needa pass this architecture course.

the magical connection.

u don't say.

u don't see.

u don't feel.

u don't understand.

i dunno how to explain.

 i just needa get there. somehow, someday.

went onto the 380 and flip flap flip flap home :)

look what my brother bought home for me :)

bits of love 

its almost like i'm there.

well, just a little little further. hee. 

the possibility

a dedicated love song

You are the peace that guards my heart

my help in time of need

You are the hope that leads me on

and brings me to my knees

For there i find You waiting

and there i find release

so with all my heart i'll worship

and unto You i'll sing

For You alone deserve all glory

for You alone deserve all praise

Father, we worship and adore You

Father we long to see Your face

For You alone deserve all glory

for You alone deserve all praise

Father, we love you

and we worship You this day

do remind me sometime later

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes
And make a new beginning

 Anyone can feel the ache
You think it's more than you can take
But you're stronger
Stronger than you know

 Don't you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

 I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

It doesn't matter what you've heard
Impossible is not a word
It's just a reason
For someone not to try

Everybody's scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It'll be alright

Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance
(That's what faith can do)
When the world says you can't
It'll tell you that you can

starting with the one near you

here's another inspiring movie that i saw from hallmark few weeks back. As usual, hallmark movies are always very inspiring.  

but this, was a little special. it kinda got me thinking, what do i really see myself in the future. 

an architect? or not? 

anyways, gotta be

grateful with what i have, 

hopeful with what i can give. 

its just as simple as that :)