the possibility

a dedicated love song

You are the peace that guards my heart

my help in time of need

You are the hope that leads me on

and brings me to my knees

For there i find You waiting

and there i find release

so with all my heart i'll worship

and unto You i'll sing

For You alone deserve all glory

for You alone deserve all praise

Father, we worship and adore You

Father we long to see Your face

For You alone deserve all glory

for You alone deserve all praise

Father, we love you

and we worship You this day

erm, lets hang out. later. like 8 weeks later.

tada~~ 3d model in the making. 

let's do it do it~ 

keep the good aura up high~ 

where are my other classmates?

so, that closed group for our class was set up mainly to discuss about things we do not want to discuss face2face, erm. like very stress things. 

but little did they know that, the main aim is to actually stress them out when i'm stress.... bahahahaha. and here am i typing as if they are not gonna read this post. hee hee hee.. i'm just kidding...hehehe...

or am i?? *evil grin*

anyway, usually, people gets more motivated when there is a reward to be given. i dunno how tat works, but somehow it just work. so. i hereby, challenge the owner of this blog, erm. to survive.

and that if she one day survives, July,

she will be rewarded, erm....

er.....

hmm....

mmm....

...

wat???!

a very happie sushi meal?

okie?

with parfeit?

deal. 

and i have no idea how stress can make someone so randomly silly. heh.

pfft. 

stress. 

and that leads to that leads to that leads to that......

oh the joy of serving~~  

and the blocks of blessing that come with it

now i don't feel that stressed :)

jom buat kerja. 

i don't like short messages, i prefer letters

oma: *puts ice into an oily bowl, ready to drink*

me: ewwww. y did you put into that bowl, so disgusting!! do you know what will it become when you mix oil and ice?!!

oma: oiice?

me: =_= seriously???
     i'm gonna blog this.

oma:  nt again....

the best part of me was always you

when you're dying, God gives you hope.
when you're stressed, God gives you rest.
At the exact time and the exact place where you needed it, God gives the exact thing you requires.

oh no. oh wait. lets do it again.

when i was dying, God gave me hope.
when i was stressed, God gave me rest.
At the exact place and the exact time, He gave the exact words to rhyme.

when i was tired, He gave me strength,
and to spice and spices, He gave me friends,
He knew which voice i needed to hear, so He sends it to me to show that He's near.

The words and the verses He pressed on to us,
was meant to be lead right up to our ears,
not coincidence, not superstitious, it is believing, and thats why faith matters.

He forgave when i repeatedly did wrong,
disciplines me so i won't be gone,
secretly puts me from the comfort zone, to help me achieve what i can never have alone.

so it was said, that if we give up,
it meant to have put God in a box,
because we don't believe that He is able, to pull us through and that He is our saviour.

one by one my prayers He answers,
without really observing i wouldn't have wondered,
but because God says to always be contented, it helps me see that the dots are connected.

so 谢谢 and 谢谢 to the one up above,
for reminding me to have the slow slow patience,
no rushing no stressing no can you be faster, because this is called preparing, and He is the master.

ooo lala la laaaaa~ ooo lala la laaaaaa~

autocad, back massage pls.

i dreamed i lost my bag, but i found it in the car.
then i dreamed i lost my car. o.O

but everybody likes to get a letter now and then

because it seems like lately i've forgotten how to pray

do remind me sometime later

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes
And make a new beginning

 Anyone can feel the ache
You think it's more than you can take
But you're stronger
Stronger than you know

 Don't you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

 I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

It doesn't matter what you've heard
Impossible is not a word
It's just a reason
For someone not to try

Everybody's scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It'll be alright

Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance
(That's what faith can do)
When the world says you can't
It'll tell you that you can

u sound nice

jerry : i think we should start a series of us running and catching
tom : *nod nod*
jerry : i'll be the director and you'll be the clown.

its a cat. not a dog.

additional to the post before this:

i think perhaps being a father makes a gentler tutor.
undeniably, young people have more daring and much more ambitious ideas. free from the restricting world.

but right now, i need a kind father that gives wise words and slowly lead us into the correction we need.
instead of throwing a million questions to us and expect us to solve it all out with the pressure given.

i miss these sifus...... thanking the father above that provides these fathers to me.  i love all fathers!!!

#not a father's day post >.<

the bottom that has no bottom

ding dong ding dong ding ding dong

So, it started with last semester from how a group of us worked together to analyse on an urban site in KL, taking the strengths and weakness, to come up with a new masterplan for that area. Together, we proposed a number of new buildings to be built there. So, in this semester, each of us took one of the buildings proposed as  our final project.

and i picked. horses. and autisme.
basically, its a building, that functions as an autisme centre, collaborating with therapy using horses.

horses. i've always wanted to know more bout horses. somehow, i think its the most beautiful animal in this whole wide world. size and proportion, spirit and character.

autisme. its something so near yet so far. so deep yet so direct.
take note:  autistic people are not mentally retarted, they are just people who struggle a bit harder than the others in their feelings and emotions.
and its always very inspiring to see what they can do.

the design. supposed to be a place where both can be comfortable in. to understand and guide. to give spaces and to comfort.

EquinoTherapia lalala

its supposed to be all inspiring, motivating, satisfying and overwhelming.
and now i am overwhelmed... with stress.

its so frustrating when u happily go find a lecturer and ask for his opinion, and then his comments just beats you down again and again and again and again and again and again and again.

first lecturer comments, u take in the comment happily,
2nd one comments, u edit and solve the problem.
the 3rd one came, and u edit and edit and edit and edit and edit.


and it just kept comin and coming and coming and coming and coming and coming...
and anyone in this course will know that a design process NEVER really ends.
but when to put a stop to it, is so difficult to define.
when, WHEN, do you stop taking advices?
and proceed with what you have.

when??


seriously. horse poop. horse poop?!! seriously! which part of it looks like horse poop! :(

that tiny thing that shines

autism

a blessing or a curse

now u've watched this.

Design. 

starting with the one near you

here's another inspiring movie that i saw from hallmark few weeks back. As usual, hallmark movies are always very inspiring.  

but this, was a little special. it kinda got me thinking, what do i really see myself in the future. 

an architect? or not? 

anyways, gotta be

grateful with what i have, 

hopeful with what i can give. 

7 pages okay?

scolding doesn't help me think,

compliments does. 

but the world has no eyes n ears

if i walk would you run

if i stop would you come

if i say you're the one

would you believe me

if i ask you to stay

would you show me the way

tell me what to say

so you don't leave me

the world is catching up to you

while you're running away

to chase your dream

its time for us to make a move

cause we are asking one another to change

and maybe i'm not ready 

but i'll try for your love

i can hide up above

i'll try for your love

we've been hiding enough

if i sing you a song

would you sing along

or wait till i'm gone

oh how we push and pull

if i give you my heart

would you just play the part

or tell me its the start

of something beautiful

am i catching up to you

while you're running away

to chase your dream

its time for us to face the truth

cause we are coming for each other to change

and maybe i'm not ready 

but i'll try for your love

i can hide up above

i'll try for your love

we've been hiding enough

if i walk would you run

if i stop would you come

if i say you're the one

would you believe me

Try    

~ Asher Book

there was a star danced, and under that i was born

how nice if one day, 

when it starts to rain,

this little one and that everyone, 

the tall and the short, 

the young and the old, 

wise or not they all will go,

rich or poor, they are to follow,

hear the rain drop and and stop what they're doing,

started tapping, and then move on with the singing.

first with their feet, then with their fingers, 

those stuck in the traffic started jamming in the vehicle.

as if that drop was last seen in years,

as if that drop was so very precious, 

they gather at the street high in their voices,

with colourful umbrellas and happy dances :)

the tired regain strength,

the feared regain courage,

the ones who struggle surrender to the Father,

the suffered smiles,

the rich contented,

the ones who are alive praise the heaven above.

all spinning in the rain, happy that it came,

the troubles and the pain gone far far away.

try
imagine that day
:)

by separating the colours

some people take blogging as a way to spread news, share information.

some people use blogs to let people know them better.

some people post to let others know their thoughts.

some people use it as a diary, letting everything out.

some people come here to whine and groan.

some people use it to display their works.

Some, works as a filter. to filter and arrange the lockers of thoughts in mind. to analyse and then organizing it all by putting it into proper sentences just like books in the library, then summarizes it to get a conclusion. a list. a final check list. 

to make things clearer before moving it in frontal lobe

Some, is just a conversation made between the mind and heart. To discuss things out. To compromise and come to a mutual agreement

you know what you want. you just forgotten what it was.

rethink

why did you choose this for final in the first place?
why horses?
why autisme?
why kids?

don't you know that its gonna be tough?
one focus is tough enough. what makes you think two is gonna be any easier?

if you have the chance to choose again.....
back to the option,
hotel and this therapy centre,
which will you choose?

why did you choose this in the first place?
what were you expecting to achieve?
what initial idea of an environment you plan to create?
what's the goal for this design?
what do you want to do for them?
for the horses, and for the kids?
what?

think, and think again....
you already have all the answers don't you?

not this black hole! NO!!

okay!
i'm gonna give up
this is so hard
i'm frustrated
i feel so bad
i fall very easily
this stupid crappy damnit design
is so demotivating
this is so shitty
so crappy
so horrible and ugly and not right!
nothing is right!!
im gonna fail
i can't do this anymore :'(
maybe i should just give up!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh


but what can i do if i give up?
cannot give up!! i musn't give up!! i can't afford to give up !!!!
melissa chong. stop thinking. stop analyzing. just do it! pls. pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!
barhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

we don't go shit! damn! crap! , we go come on, let's go, lets rock it!!!

define labour day:
labour : work
equals to working day.

hence, you don't go out, you work.

after what seemed like the longest day yesterday, today is the only chance to catch up with the others.
being pointed to name as one of the person who has the slowest progress, doesn't feel nice. :(
being sick is not an excuse. running away from stress doesn't solve the problem.

tomorrow design class, is the day to redeem myself.

i won't waste this day.
i am gonna work this out.
not gonna give up.
not gonna feel bad and pity for myself.
simply saying doesn't get things going and doing nothing won't change any fact.


sacrificing an outing with family and making today a 'home alone' day is the first step.
to not fall into temptation is the 2nd.
now, its up to God and me


bring it on! with God's help, i'm not gonna fall that easily. jia you jia you jia you!!!!!
dear God, let's do this!!