some words are better left unexplained

many times, things are misleading.
but i'll believe that God will lead us.
somewhere along the line, we always stop believing.
don't depend on your understanding.
Trust God.

Message of d day

We want each of you to show this same diligence to the very end, so that what you hope for may be fully realized. 12 We do not want you to become lazy, but to imitate those who through faith and patience inherit what has been promised.

Hebrews 6:11 -12

春虫虫

思莹曰:

"不管在怎么样的情况下, 我们一定要记得微笑, 微笑是一股巨大的力量, 让你拥有最大的勇气去面对所有困难"

and so it rained, but the sun was just hiding behind d clouds

the speakers sound awesome, the magazine looks interesting, and the food taste great. 

did everything just become more awesome or am i just more than happy to still be alive and smiling?

yesterday was definitely one of my longest day in life! tho i dunno how long a day is when u're dead. 

i've learn my lesson to NEVER, never, print last minute, NEVER. even when your presentation starts late in the afternoon.  

my heart totally dropped more than a 100 miles below ground level when the guy phoned me and said my presentation board printing failed. and he had to do it just 30 minutes before the presentation. printing will take an hour. to drive around? woohoo.

but no.

i did not woohoo~ at that time. i just sat infront of my comp like one who just received certificate of her death.  holding 80% of the final. All the nights of rushing would mean nothing. Lecturers will just take that you did nothing. At that moment, i couldn't even cry. i dropped my heart remember? tears wouldn't come when you lose your heart. 

I prayed and prayed so hard for God to save me, and try to believe that God did that for a reason. He wouldn't let me die. God will save me. must have hope must have hope must have hope. But despite my brain keep telling me that, my heart wouldn't return. my brain went from must have hope to i'm not gonna make it; i'm gonna fail this; i can't graduate. my philippines trip is gone. my scholarship is gone. gone. gone. gone.

but then again, i'm still grateful. bcoz its during these desperate moments that you totally stop trying to depend on yourself and just surrender to God.

since the post started with alive and smiling, you probably figured that i finally managed to get it printed out handsomely.
and more awesomely, i gt it wit just half the price in a shop just minutes away from college. now, do you understand why God made that previous printing fail? :) thank you GOD. 

More importantly, i learned that, no matter how much effort you put in, how hard you try, how well you planned, and how much you expect it to be, it all still depend on whether its God's will for you. you're just a weak person who has no idea whats gonna happen the next minute. can you depend on yourself? well, i definitely cant.

next fri. will be the next. let's not let history repeat itself. i'm gonna print on Monday. 

i'm just talkin to me

The Lost Get Found 

~Britt Nicole~

Hello my friend 

I remember when you were 

So alive with your wide eyes 

Then the light that you had in your heart was stolen

 Now you say that it ain't worth stayin' 

You wanna run but you're hesitatin' 

I'm talkin' to me 

Don't let your lights go down 

Don't let your fire burn out '

cause somewhere, somebody needs 

a reason to believe 

Why don't you rise up now? 

Don't be afraid to stand out 

That's how the lost get found 

The lost get found 

 So when you get the chance 

Are you gonna take it? 

There's a really big world at your fingertips 

And you know you have the chance to change it 

There's a girl on the streets, she's cryin' 

There's a man whose faith is dyin' 

Love is calling you 

Why do we go with the flow 

Why take an easier road? 

Why are we playin' it safe?

 Love came to show us the way

 Love is a chance we should take 

I'm movin' out of the gray 

 Don't let your lights go down

 Don't let your fire burn out 

'cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe  

Why don't you rise up now? 

Don't be afraid to stand out 

That's how the lost get found 

The lost get found 

 So when you get the chance 

Are you gonna take it? 

There's a really big world at your fingertips 

And you know you have the chance to change it

i'll be smiling at the ceiling.

tis

is staring at me from my screen everyday.

and then all of the sudden.

it announce

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

well. d real thing is wed. but my dates move two days faster. 

so yea. 

TOMORROW!

kays. freak out.

erm. i mean, peace out. 

pray. then love. then eat.

in the left and right of a messed up pile and tons of application running on screen, i figure that it wud be  the perfect time to start a list.

.things to do even after i die. 

and it just gotta start with this:

# 1 spend time at waterfalls

as the bible say, heaven is an awesome perfect place to live.
there got to be a waterfall somewhere.

or maybe even something greater :O

tis reminds me of the people who likes to say awesome in a way that awesome ppl says it.
aWWWesomeeeeeeeeeeeeee

back2work.

P with the o and sit- i've :D

to believe that we can
haiyak! *kick
it's the only way to survive now!

the song reader

when songs became shmmmf.....

when you heard it live, sang by a voice that's right at that moment. original or cover.
or
when the lyrics met what you're feeling
or
when the song reminds you of a time well spent with the right person
or
it simply has a nice comfortable rhythm to it
or
sums up all the above 

then u'll realize,
somehow, when u're happily doing something,
that tune will come out naturally without u realizing it.
and gives u that happie feeling again. :)

i've got a new song playing in my head.
too bad i can't find an online version nice enough to be put into the playlist here.
at least i got it looping in my head,
that would be able to keep me going for 8 days.
till then. tata.

2 只 鸡

oma says....
he....粉身碎骨d.. :( 
so sad.
dear tortoise,  why...what makes u wanna commit suicide?  :( y u so cham? :(

mayb yr owner is as bad as nemo's braces girl.

mayb u watched mulan n thinks tat u might be as fortunate as d cricket.

but...

of all road, u choose to cross ldp. U really... 2只鸡! 

RIP. im gonna name u Koda.
Rest in peace Koda.
if only i can stop n save u.

come what july

when i'm stuck with the day that's grey and lonely

i just stick out my chin and grin and say

the sun'll come out tomorrow

so we gotta hang on till tomorrow

come what may

to be higher than on par

of the bubble night with train and car

came rain came fire came all but stars

its time to shut the heart afar

till the end comes up to meet the bar

let's exchange 10 days for 3 years

its just 10 days, let this 10 days be how it ought to be.

it ought to be how it ought to be.

10 days of hard work.

10 days of full force.

10 days of commitment.

will tell it all.

of the time wasted

don't panic don't panic
of the time wasted, you can blame no one but yourself.
start now. start rushing now.
don't freak out while continue procrastinating.
freak out then start rushing.

its not too late.
its only too late when you can't do anything.
you still can do something aint?
so its not too late.
if you don't want to regret,
if you don't want to freak out further,
if you don't want to give this up,
move on, move forward, act.

don't complain if you aint gonna do anything about it.
don't sigh if  you haven't try.
don't freak out if you're gonna continue lazing.

its not how good you are,
remember?
its how good you want to be.

you're not doing this alone.
God is with you.
With God you can,
stop depending on your own strength and willpower.
you're weak.
face it,
you're just too weak.
don't put God in a box.
Let Him live in you.

remember the panic.
remember how important this is.
see the bigger picture.
remember.

Jadi SepertiMu

Bapa Kau setia

takkan meninggalkan

dan kupercaya

Engkau millikku dan kumilik-Mu

Kerinduanku

Tinggikan nama-Mu

Kerana kutahu

Engkau dalamku dan kudalam-Mu

Ubah hatiku

Seputih hati-Mu

Setulus salib-Mu

Kasih-Mu Tuhan

Biar mataku

Seperti mata-Mu

Pancarkan kasih-Mu

Ku mau jadi seperti-Mu

do you like the umbrella as much as i do?

imagine if there's someone who's actually peeking into your brain?
its even worse than someone reading your diary, because you choose what to write into your diary but you don't really get to choose what to think, until well, you actually start thinking...

i think..
God is peeking into my brain.
O.o
you know how people says God knows what you're thinking even before you say your prayer?

yesterday, i was just like, thinking.. " how nice if ........ could ......"
and i didn't even make this a prayer or what,
and its nothing big or significant even...
its just a little little thought tat i allowed it to linger in my mind for bout 5 seconds....
and no its not bout going for a swim at night.
its much much less significant...

guess what...

today, as i was sitting here,
i suddenly realized,
eii wait. the if...could..... just happened today.

o.O

talk about having a "creepy" God who knows all things! :) and actually making it happen so effortlessly
wow-ed and wow-ing =)

i can't help but to type this "out-loud"

wowwwww
amazing God i have :D
thank You.

delight yourself in the Lord
and he will give you the desires of your heart 
                                                        ~Psalm 37:4