都不对了

有些日子， 已不是刻意或不小心的记得，而是，因为多年的累积而演变成习惯。
但此时此刻，一切都不对了
时间不对，
地点不对，
感觉不对，
身份更加不对。。

可是，没有后悔什么，也不是想抱怨什么，
人生嘛，总会有一些遗憾的，
不是遗憾得不到，而是遗憾这辈子都不会知道。
若时间倒流，可能一切也还是会一样。

因为，我们都是一样的我们，周边的事也是一样

但有时候，还是会忍不住想想，是哪里的点，碰不着， 哪一条线，接不上，明明我们就那么的努力尝试，那么的努力配合。 可能，暗地里所做的还真的不如明显的表现。真的是被我们的那一点高傲的自尊心给毁了。
曾经的确认与相信，却给任性与犹豫冲淡了，消失得无影无终，所剩下的，
就只有这一些，我记你不记的日子。

人啊，真是个愚蠢的动物

所能做能也就在九千厘之外，送上安静的祷告，以感谢，所知或不知，暗地或明显，曾努力或不曾努力中，所做的一切。。。

可能，或许，有一天，在另一个世界里，我们会知道一个答案， 也或许，当这一天来临时，那答案一不关紧要了

a much much much more bigger heart

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

speak of words of kindness words of kindness words of kindnesss

forgive forgive forgive forgive forgive

a bigger heart than this

comparison.

why do people like to compare?

we all know that God has created each and everyone of us to be different.

we may have the same hair colour but we may not have the same eyes,

we may have the same skin colour but we may not have the same personality.

many people often ask me, why when your sister have long hair, you will have short?

i do not deny that i did it on purpose. and all, just to give the hint to others to stop comparing.

we all have different ways of doing things. and no one should expect two to be the same.

i just don't understand why should it be any different when it comes to this.

just because one doesn't show doesn't mean one doesn't care.

dear lord, please help me to forgive.

i'm a horrible person!!!!

i'm such a horrible terrible person!!!!!!!!!!!

have you ever done something that you know very well you shouldn't be doing it but if you don't do, you just gonna make yourself suffer so much that you're confirmed that it will exceed the limit you will be able to bear, and having the confidence that you WILL NOT be able to bear, you end up doing it because you're a really selfish person who ARE horrible and terrible after all...........
and after doing it you feel so guilty that you did that, and get pissed off at yourself for what you did and all the trouble you caused to the people around you???!!!! n you kept whining and complaining and making a big deal out of it, which you don't at all have the right to do so because you're the one who caused all these to happen at the first place...............

i'm such a horrible terrible person!!!!!!!!!!!

i shouldn't have started it at all in the first place.......

now everyone don't feel good......n i feel horribly terrible!!!!!!!!!!

God, please forgive me....i'm so sorry......i'm so sorry......i'm so sorry.........

waste of time.....

this sem is a waste of time. I can't say I learnt nothing at all in these two months, but what I've learned only occupies maybe 1/8 of these 2 months. Meaning, wait....let me calculate, 2 months = 8 weeks, minus last week holiday, I've wasted 6 weeks of time lingering in college doing nothing. Like now, waiting for time to pass cause 6.30pm only got practice. BORING~~ I've watched almost every trailer online.....and log in to facebook for the zillionth time. ...maybe i'm exaggerating a bit bit.......

i feel like cycling right now, i wanna go hiking........i wanna swim.......i miss football....i wanna go outdoor.......i wanna be physically exhausted so that when I lie on my bed I can fall asleep within seconds... hopefully this saturday extreme challenge will be fun, and hopefully i wouldn't need to use any of the chicken exit.

lalalalala....20 more minutes to go....what more can i do??

ps : i'm wondering....if u remember the song?

simple math

itchy nose itchy nose!!

Let's do some simple math,

if it takes 3 hours to tidy up 5 drawers,

how long will it takes to tidy up an entire room?

dressing table-m
files-n
art box-p
wardrobe-x
study table-y
book shelf-z
drawers-a

if 5a=180 minutes
m+5(n+p) + 2x *2y+3z =?

calculating......*sweat sweat sweat*


still calculating........* banging hard on poor calculator while screaming...Mei xian!!! I need your brain.....*


*literally pulling hair roots out....no...maybe I need Einstein*



*stoning infront of the clock.....I guess I'm wrong.....I need God..*


ah well~~ let's just sing the song and start tidying up...

tidy up my room~~~~ tidy up my room~~~

tidy tidy~~

let's dance....

ph7

swim swim swim~~~ swimming~~~

swim swim swim~~~ swimming~~~

in ph7 pool....

feeling the breeze, getting the peace...

So out of this

See no evil

Hear no evil

Speak of no evil

I'm so out of these.....I'm not going back in.

Give me more assignments please.....
more choir practice please........

ice cream

I want ice cream
I miss ice cream
I'm craving for ice cream
I'm in need of ice cream

Can I have ice cream?

Tomorrow is the 31st, ~~
mmm~~~ ice cream~~~~

This reminds me of the song from Barney..

"I scream, you scream, we all scream for Ice cream...
Ice~~ Ice~~ Ice~~~~"

ice cream~~~~~~ ** dreamy eyes***@_@

more crap

Come on?? MORe crap???

Am I the only one taking this as a big deal?
Well forgive me if I'm taking this personally...
I'm not enjoying this anymore than any of you do..
so, please.... cut the crap....

what more can I say?

What more can I say??

All the actions made my thinking blunt.....

There's just no one to be blamed......

crap

crap crap crap crap crap crap crap crap crap

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and more crap!

i can't sleep

garh..........I can't believe its my turn!!!!! since dunno when, its so hard for me to fall asleep.....
wait, no, i do fall asleep, just that after an hour or so, I'll be wide awake, and inspite of how tired my body felt, my mind doesn't bother to allow it to rest!!!

ahhhhhhh.......lamoi!!!!! I dunno why imagining white blank paper doesn't work this time!!!! I feel so tired.........I wanna sleeeeeppp........how how how how how????????????? I slept at 12am just now, and woke up at 2am? aiyo......5 more hours and I have to get up to prepare for church since there's music practice in the morning....and I'm gonna have to drive since sheryl jie not around.....how am I gonna be wide awake in the morning if I don't sleep now!!!!!!! pls la pls la....let me sleep.............

1..2....3......4.....5.......6...7...8..9.............100...101............105..........107...............................................10000000000

nope..i'm still awake...........let me try closing my eyes.......

Goal!! where's the goal?? not seeing it anywhere near...

World Cup 2010 qualifier is on again...... and why did I get myself a job.......*knocking head on d wall*......

sounds desperate?? narh... I don't usually watch football....but I enjoy playing though...who cares if I'm not good at it...I do admit I'm kinda the lousy one....come on...no one is born to be a footballer right away.....imagine a month old baby juggling the ball, passing every pro footballer, escaping a tackle from the right, and another from the left....n finally...GOAL....how scary would that scene be.....yikes..


so, who knows..maybe 10 years later you'll see me playing like a pro...lol...but for now, I just enjoy running and running n just focusing on the ball and my teammate voices....then if there's a goal...that will be the extra bonus for that day...wakaka

As I mentioned earlier that watching football is not top in my list, yet real live games as in supporting own team at the field itself, and also World Cup n Euro are somehow different.....probably because during the world cup n Euro, there are more company.....got friend to cheer along is always more exciting compared to watching alone......and I actually thought that having two brothers will be an advantage.....wei, they watch less than me leh....yet still plays better....aiyaya




seriously, I'm still a "bigdumbdumb" in watching football....dunno who's who...recognizing the footballer is still okok...but the names ah...hahahahaha...don't ask me.....coach once said, you can't play gd football if you don't watch football....that's what got me started..but last year's euro cup quite fun leh.....the days in McD throughout the night...and then also the friendly match in MKIS..do you know how much fun can it be to cheer and shout for your team??!!! heart can literally jump out wei...no kidding!!

ok..mayb not literally..hehe..

I missed football training!!! no more d...form 4 and 5 were the best...everyone was still around, although some always skip practice, at least we still get to play with one another...never worrying that there'll be no kaki....then after graduated from form 5..only get to play with pmo juniors once in a blue moon ....once in a blue moon its better than none la....no more green green field...still got futsal court in megah....really grateful to have these juniors.....then finally in upper sixth..surprised to find that the girls football club was still alive..bring in the grass!!!. bonus is that coach Mark was still the coach...happily happily went for training....and almost bought a new football boots..and even paid the fees. Although all old kaki left d...nevermind, thought can find new kaki... then guess what...four training in the beginning of the year then no announcement, no news no nothing liao...SAD..



when will be the time again...or should I say, will there ever be a time again for my football kaki to come back and play shuang shuang game with me?? if I were a boy~~~shud be easier to find kaki..izzit?? I wonder if there's a women football club in uni.......wei...now football boots alot cheaper leh...why not gimme a reason to buy!!!!! wakaka....God grant us the miracle that d women who tipu-ed us will suddenly mail us the photos..our one and only team photo taken formally with our jerseys on....haha....oikeat, i tried emailing her...failed! eeyun...pray hard!!

hmm...

To be or not to be ; that is the question.

If only..........

If only I didn't wait till it fills up d dvd.....
If only I didn't transfer it from the laptop to the comp....
If only I didn't delete it from my pendrive....
If only I fix the problem before saving all d files without back up
If only I saved a copy in the external harddisk.......
If only I burn the disc sooner........
If only If only If only.....................

then I'll still have all dookoo puppy pics..........
last year's pics.....
camp pics....
home video....



urgh...sad.....

hopefully it can be save........

???

what to do what to do what to do
what to do what to do what to do
what to do what to do what to do
what to do what to do what to do
what to do what to do what to do
what to do what to do what to do

ding dong ding dong ding dong ding dong ding dong ding dong ding dong

*faint