a time for everything

and He says, 

There is a time for everything,

and a season for every activity under heaven;

a time to be born and a time to die,

a time to plant and a time to uproot,

a time to kill and a time to heal,

a time to tear down and a time to build,

a time to weep and a time to laugh,

a time to mourn and a time to dance,

a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,

a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

a time to search and a time to give up,

a time to keep and a time to throw away,

a time to tear and a time to mend,

a time to be silent and a time to speak,

a time to love and a time to hate,

a time for war and a time for peace.

He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live. That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil--- this  is the gift of God. I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it, God does it so that men will revere him. 

Whatever is has already been, 

and what will be has been before;

and God will call the past to account. 

i thought in my heart.

Ecclesiates 3:1-17

its fate, we'll have faith.

so fast so fast, christmas has passed... another 364 days to christmas~~  aiyoyo

they say there's 12 days of christmas, how come we only celebrate one day? 

before this, after a long day of work, walking down to the mall and being welcomed by the christmas songs felt soo warm and comforting~ but soon, soon....i'll be greeted by happening chinese new year songs.... noooo.... all the chak dong qiang~ >.< wo bu yao~~

its not that i don't like chinese new year, just that, after a long n tiring day, loud and happening singing voices aint something u desire...

anyway, christmas was :) this year. and the lasagna turned out fine :D i was so worried that my family wouldn't come to church this christmas but thank God thank God they all came!and they stayed longer than usual :) except for jason tho who are now far far away having a white christmas. i can't wait for the sundays when we wake up altogether to attend church like how we used to when i was a kid. its kinda ironic really, how our roles have been switched. i used to be the one pretending to be sick and sleeping to skip church.... hmm. oh wells~ we just gotta keep praying :)  szee ying's grandma has not only allowed her to church, but has also begin to trust me more. so u see, God is good! and i have faith, one day~ we'll all happily go to church every sunday as a family. Amen! :D

christmas is a time~~ to love < 3 

weee~

and i'm officially, happily broke. heee

mess we've made

hurray hurrah and all ways to say yiiihaa~
friday has finally arrived to be nice :)

i realized, i felt depressed workin only when i'm not given any task to complete.
whenever i'm occupied, i actually like the time better. so, this week has been kind till friday,thank God! and the beginning of last night marks d start of a festive season :D  am grateful to have got the monday leave! poor pei rong got her leave all postponed.

its always always nice to gather with the crazie girlfriends, packed in a tuna fish can, and just spend d night laughin till the wheezing come knocking. it feels like back in highschool again. d only difference is nw we all have cars n probably grew a few inches taller (me).

today is a saturday! and i'm already feeling like i've earned a day from not sleeping last night. a few more days for the celebration of christmas! yay!! gonna make lasagna for christmas tis yr and let's hope it'll turn out fine. tada~~~

the last time i baked one was months ago, and i dont really remember what i put into it. o.O but it turned out to be yum and my brother licked the entire tray. so, yea.. fingers crossed!

btw, after getting the internet fixed, youtubing has been easy and i couldnt get enough of the nice originals and short videos. awesooooooome! i foresee a great life ahead! heh. one more for tis post!

once bitten twice shy

news everywhere is saying the world is gonna end,

it will....

someday...

but i think we'll survive this christmas ...

u can't keep doing what u do

has been awhile since last stream music on youtube.. found tis song n love it. Again.

 



only through God alone, will it be when all what seems lost, will be found.

heart pain pain pain pain

:(  this morning, in the office, a very horrible terrible msg came in. :(

"Mel, zai leg got one hole. :( will bring to vet later."

hole???! holeee!! how can a dog's leg possibly have a hole??? how did it happened ?? :(

zai's was limping on monday night but we thought it was normal cause his leg hasn't been good since d last owner sent him to us. although he was limping more unusual than before, we thought tat Sam fought with him over food again. plus he was eating like normal...

then... then.. this morning, reagan checked on him n found d horrible hole.

something worse? reagan said the hole was big enough to fit a marble!! T_T ewwwww :'(

even worse???
the vet says there were lotsa lotsa maggots in it. and a surgery is needed to clean all the maggots.

how can we not know anything at all??? he looked so normal other than that limping leg.
he greeted us when we come home, he ate when we feed. :( i feel so guilty for not bathing him last weekend. i could have notice.

poor zai... my heart is so pain.. poor poor zai. he must hav felt very pain....d maggots eating up his flesh. :(
i'm soooooooo sorrrrrry zai......
how can i not know :'(

dear Lord... please bless zai zai.. :(

if a small wound ends up to this.... how is diki now?? 

dear Lord, please bless diki too 

heal them.  

lets talk

 i finalli understand why working ppl hate sunday nights!! cause its monday tmr and i dont want this day to end so sooooon toooo. :'( 

its tat time of the year when i feel like changing the skin of this blog again.
havent figure out what to draw yet but i'm getting on it. craving for more colours. :D
its actualli looking kinda dull. needa lift the mood a little.

its always a different day

最討厭要下不下的雨 ,可惜未來總是撲朔迷離..
如果摔得越痛才越會飛行,快把我丟向最高的天空裡

不喜歡別人說我幸運, 他們不懂我有多麼努力
雖然衝動永遠比堅持容易,寶貴的東西都需要很費心

碰到的事每一天都不同
有的給我眼淚有的給我笑容

 終於會珍惜花開不怕花落,  走過的曲折就全變成彩虹

遇見的人每一天都不同,  偶爾失去什麼偶爾學到什麼
慢慢能翻越沙丘走出日落,  每一天的我要比昨天遼闊

連我都不相信自己的時候, 只有你一直相信我
此刻我什麼也不想說 因為擁抱能表達得更多

God sees the bigger picture

weeeeeee

im back! :D like finalli!!
hopefully no more internet discruptions from now on :)

so.. it has been two weeks since the internship started and its really draining me.
the said 8 1/2 hours aint exactly 8 1/2 hours of work. i've been staying back on most of the days and its a little stressful. the pros and cons of working in a big company. but i guess there's an advantage when you worked above a mall. Every night when you leave the office, you walk right into the mall and christmas carols are playing, and happie faces of the shoppers, families, and kids are  all around you. sometimes, after working for a long day in a formal set up, all u want to do is to get loose and reward urself with a happie meal with a good friend. and that's definitely an easy thing to do when you and ur bestfriend are both working in the same mall. :)

2 weeks passed, that means 24 weeks to go. x_x hopefully the days will get better and i'll adapt well enough to not feel that its a torture to be facing all the colourful lines and clicking the mouse away talking to a cat. (wat an ironic sentence) seriously, i think i'm gonna have a cat phobia soon. don't meow me. :"(
yet, i'm grateful that i'm learning things. the people in the company are kind and willing to teach. they are actually very humorous as well.

i guess, staying back in msia aint tat bad afterall. at least, after a long day at work, you come home to a supporting family and a comfortable bed; friends to hang out with during the weekend and unlimited tv n internet.

but this aint the other way that i'm taking, its just a detour in my journey, anyhow, i'll still reach the destination sooner or later. though some may not understand, but as long as my family knows it well and God knows my heart desire. He will lead me.

sometimes, its just better to say less.

disconnect

almost a month without internet at home and its no fun. another 2 weeks to go... 2 weeks
anyway... why r we so dependent on internet in d first place? very bad very bad...
still... can't wait.

heels that scream hello

dingling rocks and pumpkin dogs,

i'm finally moving on to the next phase of my life. after more than 3 months of swinging around upside down, i finally found a placement in a singapore company. and in Dec, i'll be embarking on my new journey of professional archi works.

the sound of professional scares me a little. just the interview itself took almost an hour. all my works, reports, portfolios, cad drawings, were laid on the table and analysed. as for the portfolio, it was my first time presenting projects to a stranger whom possibly be my superior for the next 6 months. she seems nice and young for a vice precident, though her words are a little direct and straight to the heart. got a few shots but thank God i survived the interview.  i guess thats what makes her who she is, the vice precident at this age. i've seen the efficiency of this company and no doubt, there is a bright glowing possibility in there.

wednesday, tat leaves this week another 4 days. 4 more days, and i'll be dressed in a suit and speak proper language. 4 more days, and i'll be wearing proper shoes and forced to stop my jumping feet. 4 more days, and i'll have to act my age and be an adult. pwwt, not gonna be easy to do that, but i'm still really excited bout it.

and before tat can i just scream....... weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ i've finally gotten a job! :D

u just need a pen

sometimes...  waiting is so u can do things unplanned. 

im not saying goodbye

keep dancing, even when your heart sank

And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music.

~ Friedrich Nietzsche

until you let go

I took a burden to the Lord 

To cast and leave it there. 

I knelt and told Him my plight, 

And wrestled deep in prayer. 

But rising up to go my way 

I felt a deep despair,

For as I tried to trudge along, 

My burden was still there! 

Why didn’t you take my burden, Lord?

Oh, won’t you take it please. 

Again I asked the Lord for help, 

His answering words were these: 

My child, I want to help you out 

I long to take your load

I want to bear your burdens too 

As you walk along life’s road. 

But this you must remember, 

This one thing you must know. . . 

I cannot take your burden 

Until you let it go.

 written by Betty Curti 

the sugar honey bee

was looking back at some of the notes i wrote during seminars and lectures. its definitely something i miss alot. have been lazing around the house for quite some time, 1st month was outings all the way, 2nd month was a mixture of travel and dragging, the 3rd month was basically clearing the dragged list... a life of procrastination, not the best feeling in the world. :(

felt so useless and worthless. its like every morning, you find no interest to wake up because, there's nothing to anticipate, and at the end of the day of course, achieve nothing. 

hate being sucked into a black hole like this.

thankfully, today, looking back at all these notes, i finally found something that interest me again. one of my friend came asking me for some ideas on design last night, and suddenly, we were brainstorming for design ideas. 

THAT's the feeling that i missed.

That's the satisfaction that i lost.

that's the thing that makes me want to wake up in the morning, and not willing to go to bed. 

that's the thing that kept me reading for hours and had no time to sleep, eat or even think nonsense. 

i miss design. i miss brainstorming session. i miss using my brain to study something. and those wasted days of doing nothing were nothing but regrets. not gonna let my days go pass like that anymore.

i needa go back to studying mode. even when there's no exams. because really, what i miss is, learning  :)

find a beautiful song

You never change 

You are the God you say You are 

When I'm afraid 

You come and still my beating heart 

You stay the same 

When hope is just a distant thought 

You take my pain 

And You lead me to the cross

Chorus: 

What love is this 

That You gave Your life for me 

And made a way for me to know You 

And I confess You're always enough for me 

You're all I need 

 I look to You 

I see the scars upon Your hands 

And hold the truth 

that when I can't You always can 

And standing here beneath the shadow of the cross 

I'm overwhelmed that I keep finding opening arms

Jesus, in Your suffering 

You are reaching 

You thought of me Jesus, 

may the Lord lead our way

something more ironic? 

when you don't know you're u.

be a little looper and have a memory of 3 secs

for 3 is a magic number

and let's make it a double.

i think i can do this all day :)
bloop bloop

with colour or without?

sometimes less is more,

sometimes its not.

but what about this time? 

wonder why its pixelated. click in to see clearer. 

unwrap the sweet please

oh please let the playlist of great music start moving,
 then my dusty pile of work can start going :)

do a plie and stand up tall

when you step out to see the world, you'll realize how little you are. i've learn to never underestimate any job one is holding, each job has its own challenge and difficulties.

Over the last two months, it has been an eye opening experience to me. Given the opportunity to travel to Europe, to be around the people of the industry, to learn things from peers from interiors, to walk and talk with journalists, to share meals and conversations with successful yet humble big bosses; it was nevertheless inspiring.

But little did i know, working together with usherers from a convention centre, talking to security guards of different nations, workers from Nepal and Indonesia, is as inspiring.

If my father knew, he would have said, don't talk to strangers, especially immigrant workers. well, i guess that's probably what any father would say to their daughter, daughters would know what i meant.

But in truth, they are simply just as amazing as any managing directors, any vice president of interior associates, any CEO of the company, the only difference is the thing you get to learn from them. Self protecting skills, we all should have, so, nobody ask you to give all your information to a stranger. But i think, sharing a conversation or two wouldn't do any harm. We are in a way, coworkers for at least 4 days. :)

so i guess, it is good to try jobs of different kinds. i did indeed learn much from this time's part time. From the way of dealing with people, offering your smiles, professionalism of hospitality and hmm... i guess, the most important of all, pure humility. It is always important to never see yourself higher than others. Because really, you never know.


a toast to all the amazing people i met. thanks for everything.

a prayer.

oh dear Lord, my fingers are crossed.
i pray i pray and pray pray pray.
very ganjeong.

If this is your plan for me Lord, so be it. if You have better plans, Amen.
I know my future is in Your hands.
All of my hopes and dreams and plans.
where to, send me and i will go.
what to, tell me and i will do.
when to, show me and i will stay.

one thing i've learn throughout these years,
even the silent prayer within the heart, He can hear.

sometimes, it doesn't matter.

God made the world with towering trees, 

Majestic mountains and restless seas. 

Then paused and said , "It needs one more thing...

Someone to laugh and dance and sing.

To walk in the wood and gather flowers... 

To commune with nature in quiet hours." 

 So God made little girls 

With laughing eyes and bouncing curls, 

With joyful hearts and infectious smiles, 

Enchanting ways and feminine wiles. 

And when He'd completed the task He'd begun. 

He was pleased and proud of the job He'd done. 

For the world, when seen through little girl's eyes

 Greatly resembled Paradise.

 ~unknown

dear Lord,
please help me think.

legs are made to move

i think, everyone in this world should spend some time watching this.

after watching, i googled and found a blogger's review on how this movie is only  for kids and children, with its animation and illogical illustrations. no comment on the message of it or whatsoever, it is plainly described as a children movie. 

i find it, untrue, and felt that its totally underrated.

there's just so much more than what it seems in this movie. It may seems like one children movie and i do not deny that children will definitely enjoy this movie, but i think, this movie is one of the best movie i've ever seen. and by saying this, i don't mean in a childish way. this movie allows one to go into deep thoughts yet it is actually just trying to show the basic truth. it is ironic how directly indirect it tells the story through the perspective of the little special one, and his unique thinking. the movie clearly display how children are often mislabeled for their misbehavior, how adults not taking children reason seriously, and i'm inspired by the it trying to give out the message of how each and every children nowadays are being "taught" on that one way to think. 

in fact, they do not really need to be taught on how to think. i believe God has made each and every individual specially with thoughts in mind and molded them to be different and special. and that's just how its supposed to work.

there are so much to learn from children, and its ironic to think that adults are actually thinking otherwise. 

i guess, children actually enjoy this movie because they are more open and humble in the sense of learning and the review from the blogger just further proves how true the message is. 

constantly playing...

dance with me before the sun rises

simply beautiful

Ctrl + S

1...2...3...4....a total of 4 days after the event, it is still quite difficult to believe that this is happening.

In the morning of the competition, i was jokingly telling all my family members that i'm going to amsterdam, giving them the confident handshakes and the fist on the chest. then off we alfa-ians went with d heys and hahs, teasing each other that we're the one going to amsterdam. until the topics were given and the clock started on screen ticks. picture the mess. poof. 

A WORKSPACE.

- to create an office space for any form of business

- able to portray the image of the business

- functional

- concept : colours, texture, form

- answering the future

that was my given topic. 10 mins past, and i've got nothing. i silently prayed. 

2 hrs passed and our works were left in the hall for judging. from 500 to being shortlisted to 30 then to 9, then suddenly, to present it infront of 500 ppl. totally didn't see that coming. i couldn't even pronounce the word "research" with a "h" in it. everything went by so quickly that when it finally sinks in, i was sitting in a room of reporters. the only thing my brain kept telling me was, i am going to amsterdam. i am going to amsterdam.

n the next thing that came unexpectedly was, i can't go philippines, i can't go philippines

it was totally a mixed feeling. nevertheless, it is indescribable. not only it is my first award, but its also an answer to the questions that i posted to God. none of these would make sense if God wasn't present. everything He planned to happen, in a matter of time, happened for a reason. and on just that day, He answered 3 questions of mine. 

To God be the glory. May the Lord continue to guide in His magnificent way. 

plan B

-taken from tumblr-

u don't ponder?

n my september starts today

Those hours, that with gentle work did frame
The lovely gaze where every eye doth dwell,
Will play the tyrants to the very same
And that unfair which fairly doth excel;
For never-resting time leads summer on
To hideous winter, and confounds him there;
Sap checked with frost, and lusty leaves quite gone,
Beauty o’er-snowed and bareness every where:
Then were not summer’s distillation left,
A liquid prisoner pent in walls of glass,
Beauty’s effect with beauty were bereft,
Nor it, nor no remembrance what it was:
But flowers distill’d, though they with winter meet,
Leese but their show; their substance still lives sweet.

those hours, 

that with gentle work did frame
~ mr. s

颓废着的颓

now i know why human need a job.
a chef is a job.
a boss is a job.
a housewife is a job.
a student is a job.

but on current state, i'm jobless.
an unemployed student.
n i feel useless.
worthless.
like, i can just disappear from this world and no one will notice.
well, except for the ones that are annoyed by me every day.
like oma chan.

or maybe not, since she's also quite busy from her job and job and the other job.

things are just laying there waiting for me.
portfolios, applications, n things tat are supposed to be on the list.
and i just kept them waiting,
blissfully,
just like how somethings had kept me waiting,
blissfully.

i need a job.
i need to get up and start working towards a job.


i shall start getting the hype up by doing happy things, like painting the toilet and stapling things.
erm. when the sun comes out.
which is tomorrow.
right.

a little bigger, a little bigger

生气不如留一口气，
吞口气是为了和气。

不会吞气
needa practice.

all my bags are packed and i'm ready to go

statement of the night:
"These are my children. He's twenty-one, he's eighteen"
"Nice."
" this is my daughter. She's twenty-two."
" oh. Really? I thought she's fifteen. She looks like fifteen"

The Sound Beating

the air was thin, the air was thick

it wasnt the cloud, its the wind instead

there were men lying, with burnt skin and blind

there were people walking, and their hearts are blind.

was it fear or was it concern,

or was it just plain pure ignorance,

no one cared, no one bothered,

no one dared to take a step further.

 the air is thin, fore.

cracking branches, dimming torches.

litters on roots of hidden papers,

cutting mountains, brown earth soil water

no screams nor sound, not until later. 

the air was thick, so.

if lips formed, cried may be heard,.

if limps shown, will were be werent.

rooted there, rooted down,

not given chance, to create any sound.

the air was gone, now.

speak for the unsound, hear for the unspoken,

try see,  not look; not hear but listen,

feel for the leaves, fall for the branches,

the living might survive , somehow.

 the air may exist, then.

~21 aug '12

if he can hear the dog say

SHOCKING news. 23:45PM, 12th AUG 2012

a friend just called to tell me that he just witnessed a reckless driver who ran over a dog on purpose.

He had enough time to stop but he didnt, he just drove over the poor dog. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

seriously

what kind of person with a heart can do such a thing. and still have the ego to scold others.

perhaps, that person don't own a heart.

my kind friend, was brave enough to u-turn and move the dog to the road side. 

each hand holding 2 legs of the dog, dragging the soft n dead doggy, with its broken bones....

you have my respect!

poor him. He feels so bad now :( who can bear to face this alone?? 

then my sister ask,

do dogs go to heaven?

this is a question i often ask myself. :(

the mother dog even came back to look at it. poor poor poor doggy. poor poor mama dog. :( 

d last time when v managed to save that cat, its a happy thing.
this, is a TERRIBLY HORRIBLe thing. :( 

mayb others might not think this is a big deal,
mayb, they just don't care.
but if they matter to you, you know how horrible such a thing to see.
trees, animals, human alike.

but God says, don't hate the people, hate their sins.
don't curse the people, pray for him.

is calling him stupid consider cursing?
but he's just so stupid. :(
stupid driver :( 

feeling the zen

maybe a little crazy  

but as happy as can be

:)

to the sweet 171 :)

for my kawan in class :)

can't imagine living in a class of crazy guys without you!

have a blessed birthday!!! 

will miss all the rantings and screaming and late night watsapp crying with you.
may ur days in the future be bright and sun shiny!!
keep that smile of yours close to you. :D

some words are better left unexplained

many times, things are misleading.
but i'll believe that God will lead us.
somewhere along the line, we always stop believing.
don't depend on your understanding.
Trust God.

Message of d day

We want each of you to show this same diligence to the very end, so that what you hope for may be fully realized. 12 We do not want you to become lazy, but to imitate those who through faith and patience inherit what has been promised.

Hebrews 6:11 -12

春虫虫

思莹曰:

"不管在怎么样的情况下, 我们一定要记得微笑, 微笑是一股巨大的力量, 让你拥有最大的勇气去面对所有困难"

and so it rained, but the sun was just hiding behind d clouds

the speakers sound awesome, the magazine looks interesting, and the food taste great. 

did everything just become more awesome or am i just more than happy to still be alive and smiling?

yesterday was definitely one of my longest day in life! tho i dunno how long a day is when u're dead. 

i've learn my lesson to NEVER, never, print last minute, NEVER. even when your presentation starts late in the afternoon.  

my heart totally dropped more than a 100 miles below ground level when the guy phoned me and said my presentation board printing failed. and he had to do it just 30 minutes before the presentation. printing will take an hour. to drive around? woohoo.

but no.

i did not woohoo~ at that time. i just sat infront of my comp like one who just received certificate of her death.  holding 80% of the final. All the nights of rushing would mean nothing. Lecturers will just take that you did nothing. At that moment, i couldn't even cry. i dropped my heart remember? tears wouldn't come when you lose your heart. 

I prayed and prayed so hard for God to save me, and try to believe that God did that for a reason. He wouldn't let me die. God will save me. must have hope must have hope must have hope. But despite my brain keep telling me that, my heart wouldn't return. my brain went from must have hope to i'm not gonna make it; i'm gonna fail this; i can't graduate. my philippines trip is gone. my scholarship is gone. gone. gone. gone.

but then again, i'm still grateful. bcoz its during these desperate moments that you totally stop trying to depend on yourself and just surrender to God.

since the post started with alive and smiling, you probably figured that i finally managed to get it printed out handsomely.
and more awesomely, i gt it wit just half the price in a shop just minutes away from college. now, do you understand why God made that previous printing fail? :) thank you GOD. 

More importantly, i learned that, no matter how much effort you put in, how hard you try, how well you planned, and how much you expect it to be, it all still depend on whether its God's will for you. you're just a weak person who has no idea whats gonna happen the next minute. can you depend on yourself? well, i definitely cant.

next fri. will be the next. let's not let history repeat itself. i'm gonna print on Monday. 

i'm just talkin to me

The Lost Get Found 

~Britt Nicole~

Hello my friend 

I remember when you were 

So alive with your wide eyes 

Then the light that you had in your heart was stolen

 Now you say that it ain't worth stayin' 

You wanna run but you're hesitatin' 

I'm talkin' to me 

Don't let your lights go down 

Don't let your fire burn out '

cause somewhere, somebody needs 

a reason to believe 

Why don't you rise up now? 

Don't be afraid to stand out 

That's how the lost get found 

The lost get found 

 So when you get the chance 

Are you gonna take it? 

There's a really big world at your fingertips 

And you know you have the chance to change it 

There's a girl on the streets, she's cryin' 

There's a man whose faith is dyin' 

Love is calling you 

Why do we go with the flow 

Why take an easier road? 

Why are we playin' it safe?

 Love came to show us the way

 Love is a chance we should take 

I'm movin' out of the gray 

 Don't let your lights go down

 Don't let your fire burn out 

'cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe  

Why don't you rise up now? 

Don't be afraid to stand out 

That's how the lost get found 

The lost get found 

 So when you get the chance 

Are you gonna take it? 

There's a really big world at your fingertips 

And you know you have the chance to change it

i'll be smiling at the ceiling.

tis

is staring at me from my screen everyday.

and then all of the sudden.

it announce

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

well. d real thing is wed. but my dates move two days faster. 

so yea. 

TOMORROW!

kays. freak out.

erm. i mean, peace out. 

pray. then love. then eat.

in the left and right of a messed up pile and tons of application running on screen, i figure that it wud be  the perfect time to start a list.

.things to do even after i die. 

and it just gotta start with this:

# 1 spend time at waterfalls

as the bible say, heaven is an awesome perfect place to live.
there got to be a waterfall somewhere.

or maybe even something greater :O

tis reminds me of the people who likes to say awesome in a way that awesome ppl says it.
aWWWesomeeeeeeeeeeeeee

back2work.

P with the o and sit- i've :D

to believe that we can
haiyak! *kick
it's the only way to survive now!

the song reader

when songs became shmmmf.....

when you heard it live, sang by a voice that's right at that moment. original or cover.
or
when the lyrics met what you're feeling
or
when the song reminds you of a time well spent with the right person
or
it simply has a nice comfortable rhythm to it
or
sums up all the above 

then u'll realize,
somehow, when u're happily doing something,
that tune will come out naturally without u realizing it.
and gives u that happie feeling again. :)

i've got a new song playing in my head.
too bad i can't find an online version nice enough to be put into the playlist here.
at least i got it looping in my head,
that would be able to keep me going for 8 days.
till then. tata.

2 只 鸡

oma says....
he....粉身碎骨d.. :( 
so sad.
dear tortoise,  why...what makes u wanna commit suicide?  :( y u so cham? :(

mayb yr owner is as bad as nemo's braces girl.

mayb u watched mulan n thinks tat u might be as fortunate as d cricket.

but...

of all road, u choose to cross ldp. U really... 2只鸡! 

RIP. im gonna name u Koda.
Rest in peace Koda.
if only i can stop n save u.

come what july

when i'm stuck with the day that's grey and lonely

i just stick out my chin and grin and say

the sun'll come out tomorrow

so we gotta hang on till tomorrow

come what may

to be higher than on par

of the bubble night with train and car

came rain came fire came all but stars

its time to shut the heart afar

till the end comes up to meet the bar

let's exchange 10 days for 3 years

its just 10 days, let this 10 days be how it ought to be.

it ought to be how it ought to be.

10 days of hard work.

10 days of full force.

10 days of commitment.

will tell it all.

of the time wasted

don't panic don't panic
of the time wasted, you can blame no one but yourself.
start now. start rushing now.
don't freak out while continue procrastinating.
freak out then start rushing.

its not too late.
its only too late when you can't do anything.
you still can do something aint?
so its not too late.
if you don't want to regret,
if you don't want to freak out further,
if you don't want to give this up,
move on, move forward, act.

don't complain if you aint gonna do anything about it.
don't sigh if  you haven't try.
don't freak out if you're gonna continue lazing.

its not how good you are,
remember?
its how good you want to be.

you're not doing this alone.
God is with you.
With God you can,
stop depending on your own strength and willpower.
you're weak.
face it,
you're just too weak.
don't put God in a box.
Let Him live in you.

remember the panic.
remember how important this is.
see the bigger picture.
remember.

Jadi SepertiMu

Bapa Kau setia

takkan meninggalkan

dan kupercaya

Engkau millikku dan kumilik-Mu

Kerinduanku

Tinggikan nama-Mu

Kerana kutahu

Engkau dalamku dan kudalam-Mu

Ubah hatiku

Seputih hati-Mu

Setulus salib-Mu

Kasih-Mu Tuhan

Biar mataku

Seperti mata-Mu

Pancarkan kasih-Mu

Ku mau jadi seperti-Mu

do you like the umbrella as much as i do?

imagine if there's someone who's actually peeking into your brain?
its even worse than someone reading your diary, because you choose what to write into your diary but you don't really get to choose what to think, until well, you actually start thinking...

i think..
God is peeking into my brain.
O.o
you know how people says God knows what you're thinking even before you say your prayer?

yesterday, i was just like, thinking.. " how nice if ........ could ......"
and i didn't even make this a prayer or what,
and its nothing big or significant even...
its just a little little thought tat i allowed it to linger in my mind for bout 5 seconds....
and no its not bout going for a swim at night.
its much much less significant...

guess what...

today, as i was sitting here,
i suddenly realized,
eii wait. the if...could..... just happened today.

o.O

talk about having a "creepy" God who knows all things! :) and actually making it happen so effortlessly
wow-ed and wow-ing =)

i can't help but to type this "out-loud"

wowwwww
amazing God i have :D
thank You.

delight yourself in the Lord
and he will give you the desires of your heart 
                                                        ~Psalm 37:4

green and purple blue and orange pink and white and yellow

the last post was simply too depressing to be left as d first post to greet one's arrival

tat's why this post is here. to push the black and white down down down. 

now. 

here it goes.

let's catch some happy pictures. 

:)

starting with a smile

try doing it with the music :)

:)

:)

:)

:)

aint that easy? :)

so stop scrolling down now. go back up there and start smiling again. 

the music is still playing :)

between the black and the white

a black and white presentation

plain black ink 

empty white paper

lecturer's face turned black

student's face went white

n the photo quality is just as horrible

its my papa ya.

dear God,

please bless and protect my papa tmr ya.
Amen.

wake me up when June ends

don't get it.
don't understand.
don't know how to understand.
don't think i'll ever understand.


but then again,
dear God,
do i need to understand?

maybe not. 

not coincidence, i believe.

 Barcelona Barcelona Barcelona Barcelona Barcelona!

Spain spain spain spain spain spain spain spain spain

Sagrada sagrada sagrada sagrada sagradaaaaaaa

Gaudi Gaudi gaudi gaudi gaudi gaudi

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i need to go to Spain.

before that, i needa learn spanish.

and before that i needa pass this architecture course.

the magical connection.

u don't say.

u don't see.

u don't feel.

u don't understand.

i dunno how to explain.

 i just needa get there. somehow, someday.

u can be the pencil and i can be the paper

i'm gonna throw all the work aside and watch tis movie now. 
i'm gonna.

if only i can do just tat.
sigh

but i can't afford to watch it now. 

this short clip will just have to do for now.

went onto the 380 and flip flap flip flap home :)

look what my brother bought home for me :)

bits of love 

its almost like i'm there.

well, just a little little further. hee. 

totally 偷偷地 totally 偷偷地

let's do this today! 

不要放弃！要努力！

加油加油加油！ 

let's finish this today.

don't breathe till you finish. 

u have a total of 8 hours.

ready...

 set?  

GO!!!! 

c is the word before 2 pits.

have you ever tried

cooking without knowing what's edible?

writing essay without knowing any alphabets?

dancing without knowing how to stand?

singing without knowing any song?

solving a math question without knowing the formula?

that's how i feel right now.

trying to do this working drawing without knowing how these technical stuff functions. 

trying so hard to design something but restricted by the limited construction methods i know :(

not a good feeling. i feel stupid. so stupid. 

for the lyrics i'll survive

of d million million songs that went looping,
i wonder if there are two person out there having the same playlist looping?
be it one east one west one rich one poor, they gotta be d bestest friend.
soul mates even.
tho they have not met, they would probably meet one day.

best. bestest. bebebeleh leh.
extreme title. bad. just bad.

go here. there. and everywhere.

Title: How To Get Something Out of Your Head

# what you need: 

1. a virtual long and durable thread ( let's name this Ash)

2. a kind and persuasive voice

3. some kind of bait ( sushi or something)

4. a tiny binocular

# instructions: 

1. drop Ash into the ear, with the bait attached to it. u can tie the binocular around its neck. 

2. slowly lead it through all the tiny passages till it reaches the radioactive zone, u usually can recognize that area when you have a million of envelopes and letters flying overhead. 

3. now, take out that binocular, and start searching for the target object that pops up every now and then.

* beware, at this stage, its really tricky. you can't just drag it out or push it out, its too risky. try talking to it. 

here's where you need to use the persuasive voice, you can go " ello~~~ yoo hoo~~ weee~~~ then, bring up the target's name once in a while. den from then on, it really depends on your persuasive skills.....
like:

hi hi, come on out.. its gonna be fun... let's just take a long holiday and leave this place for a little while~
      or
let's go sushi-ing.
      or
yo. jom movie. :D

it might actually work. 

i think.

note: nvr try. hey, get out of here and shooo off.
bcz he'll lost his shoes and couldn't leave anyways.

so. nvr.