颓废着的颓

now i know why human need a job.
a chef is a job.
a boss is a job.
a housewife is a job.
a student is a job.

but on current state, i'm jobless.
an unemployed student.
n i feel useless.
worthless.
like, i can just disappear from this world and no one will notice.
well, except for the ones that are annoyed by me every day.
like oma chan.

or maybe not, since she's also quite busy from her job and job and the other job.

things are just laying there waiting for me.
portfolios, applications, n things tat are supposed to be on the list.
and i just kept them waiting,
blissfully,
just like how somethings had kept me waiting,
blissfully.

i need a job.
i need to get up and start working towards a job.


i shall start getting the hype up by doing happy things, like painting the toilet and stapling things.
erm. when the sun comes out.
which is tomorrow.
right.