getting to know you

"getting to know you~~ getting to know all about you~~~
getting to like you~~~ getting to hope you like me~~~~
haven't you noticed suddenly I'm bright and breezy?
because of all the beautiful and new things I'm learning about you
day by day. "

i've always love this song, and i still do.. but in real life, i guess...we don't always like what we know....and the new things we learn about a person, aren't always beautiful things.

time doesn't really matter when it comes to knowing someone. give you four years and if you did not communicate with the other person, you still can't say you know him/her.

i came to realize this recently.
four years, and i realized that i know nothing much about this person. only until this year that i got to know a little better.i guess, only through face to face interaction that one can learn more about the other.

So, it turned out to be, this person wasn't really how i expected to be. it was kinda different with the image i had in mind. because in mind, i built an image that's all too perfect to even exist in this world. i thought i know a little about this person. as i was saying...i thought i knew...
how foolish of me to expect this person to be perfect. who is perfect? only God's perfect. so, how could i even think of blaming this person for not being perfect. as if i'm perfect... how shallow of me....i should slap myself for even having the slightest thought bout it! i thought i had patience, but it turned out to be that i wasn't patient enough.

and i was just telling my sister, i don't like what i see! how arrogant of me...

but today, God revealed to me again.
i'm learning to learn to see things differently. learning to look beyond the frame that i've created. learning to see not only the clean white picture but to also appreciate the black dots around it. learning to like the good and not hate the bad. learning to look beyond the weakness and focus on the strength, learning to pray that i'll be able to see things more maturely. to not be shallow in seeing God's unique creation. and also to be even more patient than patient in waiting to see what God has in mind. learning to focus on not what i am to receive but to think of more ways to give. learning to not get impatient when things didn't happen as expected. learning not to expect that i have to get what i planned for me. and when i start to think differently, i'm beginning to feel different too. and so, if my plan wasn't exactly God's plan, at least i know, i won't be discouraged, because, at least by then i'll know, what i planned wasn't suitable for me. God has something else in mind instead. And His plan? will just be the perfect one for me.




and i pray that God will help me see.....
and just as weekly wisdom state,

"As thunder follows lighting, so actions follow thoughts."

now that i'm thinking this way, i guess its just a matter of time for my actions to come this way.