liking these days :)

again and again and again and again.

this extreme feeling of contentment. 

After d final internal presentation on friday, everything was done. What's left are paper exams and to repeat the presentation during the final assessment. Minor touching ups are whats' left to be done.
i'm so glad everything is done! and it ended perfectly! :) okay, mayb not perfect, coz ntg is perfect, bt seriously, i love God so much!! He always always blessed me! and what He promised came through, He said that all ur effort and hardwork WILL pay off! and it did! it did!!! it is during these moments that the extreme satisfaction came about and all tiredness and all d 委屈-ness and all d injustice just fade far far away.

so many times throughout the semester tat i struggled in group project. trying hard to cooperate, trying hard to compromise and trying even harder to focus on the good in people and not the faults of them. learning to forgive despite all things, learning to focus on the solution instead of indulging in the problem. finding ways to solve instead of people to blame. and i will not deny, it was absolutely super duper extremely DIFFICULT! The days when my patience were put to test, the days when i struggled to hold it together. mayb it was also because i was full of pride. tat i know is my biggest weakness. different people work at different pace, and most of the time i tend to get stressed up as i am one who prefer to get everything planned out in advance just to make sure everything will go right. and perhaps at those time, i tried to be in control and make things my way. so when things didn't go as i planned, i got even more stressed up.

those are the times when i failed and felt angry. those are the times when i gave up and cried. But what kept me going strong was God's word. In times when i felt weak and felt that i wouldn't be able to control my emotion, i brought God's word with me to class. and reading God's word really taught me how to look things at different perspective. to have a bigger heart and to learn to forgive. to not judge others while ignoring the plank in my own eyes. God walked with me throughout the semester. He was there, and His presence was strong.

He pushed me to do things i would never been able to accomplish alone. He insisted on planning cf activities despite the small number of people attending and the busy with assignments schedule. Every single meeting was a blessing. It may not be on the number, but it was ther to make that few of us grow, to make me grow. Many times, when we tried to plan things on our own, we get stressed and disappointed. But when we surrendered to God and just pray and let things be, He surprises us with the most unexpected and the awesomest plan ever! oh. How great is our Lord!!!

and now that even December is here. there is just one thing that i'm still waiting for. God has promised a million times on that and i shall no longer doubt. So be it what God plans may be, i surrender my all to Him. :)

architecture, may give the satisfaction that i dream and desire if enough effort was put into it.
but God's plan gives the contentment and greatness that i can never dream nor desire. It was given as a gift for me. without me having to do anything.

thank you God. thank you. i'm liking these days. many prayers that i once prayed long long time ago are now answered one after another. i once wondered if God's answer is Yes, No or Wait. so, now that it is happening, is God's answer wait? :) wait i shall. for You Lord.

blessed ^^ teehee... heehehehe ..heeehee