heels that scream hello

dingling rocks and pumpkin dogs,

i'm finally moving on to the next phase of my life. after more than 3 months of swinging around upside down, i finally found a placement in a singapore company. and in Dec, i'll be embarking on my new journey of professional archi works.

the sound of professional scares me a little. just the interview itself took almost an hour. all my works, reports, portfolios, cad drawings, were laid on the table and analysed. as for the portfolio, it was my first time presenting projects to a stranger whom possibly be my superior for the next 6 months. she seems nice and young for a vice precident, though her words are a little direct and straight to the heart. got a few shots but thank God i survived the interview.  i guess thats what makes her who she is, the vice precident at this age. i've seen the efficiency of this company and no doubt, there is a bright glowing possibility in there.

wednesday, tat leaves this week another 4 days. 4 more days, and i'll be dressed in a suit and speak proper language. 4 more days, and i'll be wearing proper shoes and forced to stop my jumping feet. 4 more days, and i'll have to act my age and be an adult. pwwt, not gonna be easy to do that, but i'm still really excited bout it.

and before tat can i just scream....... weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ i've finally gotten a job! :D

u just need a pen

sometimes...  waiting is so u can do things unplanned. 

im not saying goodbye

keep dancing, even when your heart sank

And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music.

~ Friedrich Nietzsche

until you let go

I took a burden to the Lord 

To cast and leave it there. 

I knelt and told Him my plight, 

And wrestled deep in prayer. 

But rising up to go my way 

I felt a deep despair,

For as I tried to trudge along, 

My burden was still there! 

Why didn’t you take my burden, Lord?

Oh, won’t you take it please. 

Again I asked the Lord for help, 

His answering words were these: 

My child, I want to help you out 

I long to take your load

I want to bear your burdens too 

As you walk along life’s road. 

But this you must remember, 

This one thing you must know. . . 

I cannot take your burden 

Until you let it go.

 written by Betty Curti 

the sugar honey bee

was looking back at some of the notes i wrote during seminars and lectures. its definitely something i miss alot. have been lazing around the house for quite some time, 1st month was outings all the way, 2nd month was a mixture of travel and dragging, the 3rd month was basically clearing the dragged list... a life of procrastination, not the best feeling in the world. :(

felt so useless and worthless. its like every morning, you find no interest to wake up because, there's nothing to anticipate, and at the end of the day of course, achieve nothing. 

hate being sucked into a black hole like this.

thankfully, today, looking back at all these notes, i finally found something that interest me again. one of my friend came asking me for some ideas on design last night, and suddenly, we were brainstorming for design ideas. 

THAT's the feeling that i missed.

That's the satisfaction that i lost.

that's the thing that makes me want to wake up in the morning, and not willing to go to bed. 

that's the thing that kept me reading for hours and had no time to sleep, eat or even think nonsense. 

i miss design. i miss brainstorming session. i miss using my brain to study something. and those wasted days of doing nothing were nothing but regrets. not gonna let my days go pass like that anymore.

i needa go back to studying mode. even when there's no exams. because really, what i miss is, learning  :)