Sometimes i forget

"i want to do things like that too. i don't want to work for the sake of working, or do things for the sake of doing. i want to create things that would make people love, make people smile, make people cry, make people feel. i want to create things that will make an impact, or make a little change, i want to help, i want to help people learn, help people love. and maybe through helping, i would myself learn how to love."

Sometimes sometimes, i forget the things i've learn.
sometimes sometimes, when i forget, it is as if i have not learnt the lesson.
but at those times when i forget, i am very grateful to have found, that i have wrote it down somewhere, that it reminded me again.

and today, it was this sentence that i have once learned, and told myself i need to remember.
but in the end forgotten, until i saw it again today, on this blog.

and today, i want to say this again, because till this day, i am grateful i still feel this way.
i want to do things like that too. i don't want to work for the sake of working, or do things for the sake of doing. i want to create things that would make people love, make people smile, make people cry, make people feel. i want to create things that will make an impact, or make a little change.
i want to help, i want to help people learn, help people love. and maybe through helping, i would myself, learn how to love.


so dear God, please help me to remember, if i ever forget again.
that this is really what i want to do.

and as for today's application, it will be,
i want to do thesis like that too. i don't want to work for the sake of grades, or do drawings for the sake of submitting. i want to create designs that would make people love, research that make people smile, building that make people cry, make people feel. i want to create something that will make an impact, or make a little change. i want to help, i want to help people learn, help people love. and maybe through helping, i would myself, learn how to love, through architecture.

and i still believe, no matter which stage of life am i in, this will be applicable, and i hope, that no matter which stage of life am i in, i will still feel this way.

都不对了

有些日子， 已不是刻意或不小心的记得，而是，因为多年的累积而演变成习惯。
但此时此刻，一切都不对了
时间不对，
地点不对，
感觉不对，
身份更加不对。。

可是，没有后悔什么，也不是想抱怨什么，
人生嘛，总会有一些遗憾的，
不是遗憾得不到，而是遗憾这辈子都不会知道。
若时间倒流，可能一切也还是会一样。

因为，我们都是一样的我们，周边的事也是一样

但有时候，还是会忍不住想想，是哪里的点，碰不着， 哪一条线，接不上，明明我们就那么的努力尝试，那么的努力配合。 可能，暗地里所做的还真的不如明显的表现。真的是被我们的那一点高傲的自尊心给毁了。
曾经的确认与相信，却给任性与犹豫冲淡了，消失得无影无终，所剩下的，
就只有这一些，我记你不记的日子。

人啊，真是个愚蠢的动物

所能做能也就在九千厘之外，送上安静的祷告，以感谢，所知或不知，暗地或明显，曾努力或不曾努力中，所做的一切。。。

可能，或许，有一天，在另一个世界里，我们会知道一个答案， 也或许，当这一天来临时，那答案一不关紧要了