sigh...what about design~~~

*head lying on table*

*look up*

*look left*

*look right*

*jump up*

scribble scribble.........doodle doodle........mumble mumble........

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and in the end....=D

I've got nothing =_=


sien....................let's dance~~

oh ....one last question....

why do they get holidays during world cup while we don't???
bang...now i'm dead...

Of a dream i dreamed....

how do dream works?

do we dream of something because we were too indulge in thinking bout it during the day? or do we dream because we just simply dream?

or maybe maybe, dream is just a mishmash of the activities that happened around us....

there's a song which sings, "dream is a wish your heart makes~~~"

but what about nightmares?

and I wonder, can a person control his/ her dream??

during one of my lectures, a lecturer once mentioned that, in order to improve your creativity, learn from your dream...
How? when you dream, try to open up your eyes and observe the details in your dream...like, what colour of tie is that person wearing, is the room big or small, is that person in the background wearing a specs? all the little little details....meaning, he asked us to explore our dreams....

But, usually, when a person dream, the dream is just like a movie right, you can't possibly control what to do in it...because its just a dream....you just do what you do in a dream, without any reason...right?

oh... what am i babbling about here....

actually, i just want to say that....i like what i dreamed last night....=)

Of clouds that gone cuckoo

don't you feel that there's something weird with the clouds lately???

its intimidatingly pretttieee
of days when i stop working, and can't stop thinking bout
afraid of the former july, and that things will go back to none

rest in the Lord

i've never once in my life work an average of 22 hours a day, 7 days a week and no...its not just shortly for a few days and thats it... This new lifestyle has been going on for two weeks now and yes, its still not over yet. With the workshop coming up next month, and after that will be the final assessment, i'm gonna assume that this lifestyle will goes on until mid July. i thought, after last friday, I'll finally get to breathe for a week before the new assignment sinks in, but way i was wrong. Saturday, the youths went to visit the orphanage home and sunday, church and tuition. Every day is just so packed with activities and a long to-do list.

Nevertheless, i'm enjoying every moment of it. Every fun comes with a price and every satisfying feeling comes with an effort. Maybe sometimes, like now, i might just feel so strengthless, after all the work and lack of sleep, i'll be sitting here wondering the true purpose of me doing all these...whether its work from college or church, from home or from God. i'm just glad to know that I'm never alone.

It is obvious that God has been with me through these all. i mean, how possibly can a person stay awake ( not to just lepak online like she used to) but to work non stop, from a subject to another, trying hard to squeeze as much brain juice as possible in order to solve all the questions that comes with the design. With only two hours of sleep everyday, she still has strength to wake up in the morning and drive to school. And seriously, felt the strong adrenalin rushing in her that it enable her to work non stop. Moreover, with that limited amount of knowledge, its impossible for her to complete what she has completed in the past two week. No, i don't believe in luck. i believe in God.

i believe that, its God who used my dog to wake me up in the middle of the night just so i can complete my work.

i believe that, its God who provided me with a caring family at home, who are always trying to help me in whatever way they can.

i believe that, its God who gave me a family at church, who made me forget about all my burdens and workload for the moment, and just enjoy the time spent with them in the house of God.

i believe that, its no coincidence at all in the way He provided me with all the materials and ideas in order to accomplished my work.

It was never easy, but things can never be too hard for God to handle. So, as long as i'm with God, i believe it can never be too hard for me. and if, if i'm ever out of breath, I still have a sabbath day to rest! =)

"Come unto me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

Matthew 11: 28-30

i love my red shoes

i need a flying umbrella

of all coincidence

speaking of all spookiness and coincidence... :o

how many times have the Lord told me to not doubt but have faith?
how many times have the Lord proved that He's watching over me?
still i became anxious, still i became impatient...

maybe its of God's plan... or maybe its just plainly coincidence?
how certain thing happen at that exact moment at that exact place with certain exact person? how many indirect things have to happen just to make that exact thing happen the way it happened? is it the almighty God?

once? twice? make it more than thrice...


4 years? 19 months? 3 months? it doesn't even matter any longer...
God once said wait...and I've waited....
and now, i think God is saying, enjoy where you are right now....is it?

perhaps i'm just dreaming....
i can always just dream, can i?

and i can always dream =)

i wish one day, ( sometime soon...best is within this week), i'll wake up in the morning and mum gave a bunch of money ask me to go sunway, so i'll drive to sunway to pick li yun up, then li yun's bf offer to bring us to bukit jalil, so v meet up with ee yun, and then ee yun's bf say....hey....i need to get something from KLIA, wanna come along? so v tagged along...and when we reached ther, ey felt she stepped on something, and so she took up and see....ei.....is 3 flight tickets to penang....at 1pm ( that time was 12.30pm....juz nice) ......so we took the flight to penang and meet up with zhi hui....
after eating famous char kuey teow in penang, ( zhi hui's treat), the char kuey teow aunty said we're the lucky 1000th customer that day..and the prize is 4 flight tickets to singapore....so.....coincidently.. we had our passports with us...so we say....why not.....

( wow...this daydream is getting real long....wat to do? u guys are all around the world ><)

so...at about 6pm, we arrived at singapore and meet up with lamoi....then lamoi's landlord said..hey..ur frens so good come n visit u ah...come i treat them eat nasi lemak........(lamoi.i saw it on ur facebook haha...) and so....v stayed over at lamoi's place and crash her room.....having pillow talk all night.....

then we woke up at 12pm, juz nice when the sun came shining at our butt........awaken by the doorbell....guess what.....its someone from lamoi's uni.....saying....her art from years ago, won some award....and COINCIDENTLY (AGAIn) its 4 days 3 night cruise trip for 5 pax to Australia....then we said...hey..this can't be real.....so we pinched ourselves, and then pinched each other..HARD...only to find out it really hurts...so it must be real..hence...without further ado, we grab our backpack and head to the harbor....so...on the cruise, we enjoyed watermelon juice, coconut juice and we saw there's the jackpot thingy...so...since zhi hui (with that...hey..tats fun..let's try it spirit), she took 50 cents from her pocket, and ask us to each kiss the coin once for "sisterhood blessing" and drop the coin into the machine....n GUESS WHAT......actually dun need to guess..its quite obvious what's gonna happen....its JACKPOT!!!! and we won ourselves..100k US dollars...wow....so we decided to use 1k US dollars to shop at the cruise...we bought ourselves a few winter clothing...then...we still have 99k US dollars....then we planned to surprise mx at aussie...but who knows...we bumped into her at a cafe....we saw her, but she didn't see us...because she was busy doing SOMETHING..so v "woo wooo" her~~~ haha....(refer to mail..hehe..)

anyway....we spent a few days exploring Australia...and wait...how many days izzit already ah in this story? i only have a week holiday leh..opps...ok...flash back...the cruise is taking too much time...make it a 2 days 1 night cruise to Aussie...so since we spent a night at singapore...if we started our journey on monday ( which means..tomorrow), the day we arrived at Aussie will be Wednesday...since we left SG on Tuesday...ok...so we spent 2 days exploring Australia..went to Gold Coast, Perth and whatever beautiful places available in Aussie...then we used bout 20 US dollars to buy lotsa Aussie Nougats..(how do u spell that? izzit nuggets or something? the very nice chocolate thingy that ppl always buy from aus la...)and then after all the food and entertainment in aussie....we realized we still have more than 50k to spent... so we decided to go visit jia yin...since she can't come back DURING MY HOLIDAY =_=...then....v spent 20k us dollar to buy us all economy class tickets...so that v still have money to spend in UK....

n so.....the 7 of us...happily tour Europe until Sunday..and i still dun feel like leaving...suddenly I receive a call from college, saying they decided to move into the new college on monday instead of in August..so college will be close for 2 more weeks...for all the moving n stuff...so..hip hip hooray....( Birthday ROCKS!!) so v continue our Europe tour and since all the museums are so cheap...we actually spend most of our jackpot money shopping and eating good food =)

oh ya..n v celebrated mx's bday at the Big Ben building ( suggested by ey..coz i can't think of any building in Europe now..other than the Eiffel tower...but Eiffel tower seems to go with coffee..n i dun like coffee...so Big Ben it is....)
and celebrated my birthday in Spain....we spent the greatest 3 weeks together exploring places and having pillow talk more than ever.weee~~~ so fun....ok..i dun feel like ending the story by typing..."going back to college" so i shall end it here.... THE END....

yay!! and I'm gonna pray hard tonight =)

and i can always dream~~~

ps: this post was edited..hehe.. mx n jy, for ur additional parts..refer to d mail la..^^

with all the lemon drops and gum drops

its beyond competition if i ever try to compete
its beyond comprehension if i ever try to read
i plan and i imagine, i seek and i protect
even with all the lemon drops and gum drops in the world, i still can never get.

but i'm up with high hope, with faith, with no regret
to be in this state, of skipping heart and that,
to just savor every course, and not settle for mishmash,
to wait on the Lord, and see if the end matched