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one more time....
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I've just attended an interview just now. For the position of a photographer assistant. Terrible!!!!!!!
Haiz...I've just sent in my resume yesterday and they phoned me last night. So, last night, I took out all my interview notes, all the Do's and Don't, jotting down every information about tomorrow's interview, jumping up and down while brainstorming on the questions that they might ask...blablabla... Thus, this afternoon, I was searching online on any quick info about wedding photography. Urgh....but during that interview that lasted for how long?? 5-10 minutes??...everything just went blank...no...my mind went blank. Everything is just not right....I speak too soft...I just smiled at the manager, answered almost every question with just hmm.. ah....right....

The worst thing is, they interviewed me in Cantonese. Although I understand and speak Cantonese ..I just don't know why I can't speak it formally... I can speak with my family members phrases and sentences without having any problem....but I just screwed up in the interview just now. Big TIME.... Urgh....

So now, all I can do is just pray...pray for miracles to happen....pray for God to make it possible...
Anyway, I want to thank God for giving me at least a chance to attend the interview. Its better than having no reply from them at all... At least, I met the manager, understood roughly how things work and what I'm supposed to do; that is...if I'm hired.

One more thing, the manager asked me a question just now, why do I want to work in this field.
Well, of course, the only answer that I can come up with is that I'm interested in photography. Do I really want to study in this field, that I don't know. But I'm just really curious in how things work around the photographer while taking pictures of the soon to be married couple... I guess if this really works for me, its gonna be a whole new experience...I'm gonna be able to learn so much in this job. Something different from the usual part time. Although its not the end of the world if I can't get this job, it'll be a whole new world if I did manage to get this job.

Lastly, Thank You God again for giving me this chance, Thank God for opening another path, Thank God for this interview, though it sucks, it might be worse without God's help. I shall just have faith and wait..