i wanna see u when i open my eyes

can we not countdown and either stay this year or quick quick move on to the next year? i dun like this feeling. faster faster pls..... lalala :D

its for better or for worse

tangible : its sweeter on paper than on air

i wonder why people no longer write~ i mean on paper that is.
i find writing letter d most exciting form of mailing ever. it beats any digital mail or short messages on phone.
its always nice to find a coloured envelope with your name on it in the mail box. it never fail to surprise me every single time.

letters and cards always make my day <3 and because of my lovely friends studying abroad that i still get a mail or two once in a blue moon. and i always read it over and over and over again. somehow, no matter how long the letter is, it never seems to be long enough. heh.

don't u think writing letter d sweetest way to express ones wishes and thoughts?
maybe letter seem a bit too much for others, but postcards are always cool. :) so, send me postcards people!! i'll love you guys lots! haha.

ps: i still don't mind long long long long letters tho :) or i can live with letter with just a sentence. heh. in anyweiiiis, send me one ~ :)

let's talk :)

so, here comes the 3 months break! yippee~  although there're like 2 classes in the week, it can still be considered as a 3 months break! this 3 months shall not be wasted like how i did last year > <

lotsa things i wanna do!! let's list it~

- teman sab jie
- start 'hiking' again
- start building portfolio ( redo model, create 3d)
- learn sketch up, revit and how to place lighting in 3d max
- one sketch a day
- start sewing
- help melanie
- read at least 5 books in bible.
- finish d 2 books on shelf  > <
- download architecture documentary
- tidy up "studio" n stuff
- get a job in autisme centre or something to do with horses
- paint the barn
- build a proper painted nice nice nice doggie house with proper pitch roof for dookoo

erm... i'm thinking like this -->

kalau boleh~~ lol

- filter photos!! (oh my darling, vietnam photos especially!!  x_x
- start making the photo wall at stairs

- walk doggies pls
- start report and final design!!!!! ( *can procrastinate til after cny)
- sleep more n sleep well


whua whua whua whua~~ > < amat ambitious!! pls pls pls melissa chong! pls do this okay. u can do this!! jiayou jiayou jiayou!! :D

i dun know what to do, but God knows! :) so i guess its okay~~

oh....i so so so love this christmas :)

i thank God for blessing me so abundantly. and i felt that He was also here to celebrate this Christmas with us ! can u imagine can u imagine?? like He was there when we sang and dance, He was there when we savor His story all over again, He was just sitting there, and guess what! maybe He was sitting beside me :) heh. 

yeap. i think so... i can feel it!!! bcoz the legs can't stop moving. :D

it makes people so happie that the legs of people who hop and jump when they're happie couldn't stop jumping and hopping around. like literally, they just wouldn't stop no matter how hard u try to stop them. they just won't. *shake head shake head*

yea..tell me about it~ people says legs are stubborn creatures who listen to no one but their own feelings. 

i like how He brought my family to church, my dad , my mum, my sister and brother :) coz i love spending christmas with them. n i noe my dogs are singing with us at home.

i like how He reminds me that things may not be in my control, but i need not fear because He is in control. 

i like the comfort He gives where i can surrender the bad things to Him with just a prayer and be all jolly again.

i like how He brought us to little children and uses us to bring them to Him.

i like how He help in suggesting gifts that i can afford with an empty wallet.

i like how they react when they receive d presents, the happie smiles on their faces like they've been blessed. 

i like how everyone smiles so happily wishing others blessed christmas blessed christmas, i like singing Feliz navidad.

i like christmas hugs. i like group hugs that can't fit in my arms. i like taking pictures with people i love lots lots.

i like walking in malls that are so crowded, with my parents infront, aunty beside, sisters in hand, and brother who then joined later. (but not so much on the crowd part unless the crowd are happie crowd, like yesterday crowd :)

i like playing silly games in my sister room, in which the loser would need to attempt in making others laugh. i like trying so hard to not laugh out that it makes my tummy hurt so much.

i like going to bed smiling. i like to sleep smiling.

i like that i don't need to know what to do and what is gonna happen next. :)

i like being able to love people i love and being loved by people who loves me. i like loving God.

when He's around, christmas became oh so nice and warm and happie and special. i like christmas like this. i like it like it like it so much i could fly and hop and jump for the next hundred days. weeeeeeee~

and they say there're 12 days of christmas... oh how blessed more can i be~~ :')

thank you God!!

He knew even before i ask

GOD has no iPhone, but I talk to him .

He has no Facebook, but he is my friend .

Does not have twitter, but I still follow Him.

And even without internet, I’m still in

contact with Him.

~unknown

let's not see the result, let's feel it with a big big smile~

this semester, we did more than necessary. we did our best. we set up spotlights, prepared refreshments, made brochures, and turned our studio into an exhibition space instead of just the usual pin on wall and present thing. was it just for that 20% of marks that the final assessment can give? we definitely gained more than that. Though it seems like its too much of extra work to do, see how happie everyone turned out to be in the end :) it was definitely definitely worth it!! 

and u know how i always complain about group projects? the frustration that group projects give can be ao unbearable when everyone is unhappy with everyone; but when everyone work together happily towards one goal, singing and screaming like annoyingly noisy smurfs, just like the final 3 hours on the day before assessment, the joy and result of it beats what one can do alone! i love it when everyone is happie ^^

we learn to do what's more than necessary and be amazed by the outcome of it :)

its not always about the pointer or marks. its d satisfaction on the result of your combined hardwork and efforts.
Thank you God
group hug!!!

i like what God suggested :)

"A Malaysian gangster was extorting money from a dental clinic. When the dentist gave him the cash "payment" he was forced to make, he also gave him a booklet. He said, "Read this. It's good for you."
The gangster was angry with the dentist for giving him a religious booklet --- a copy of Our Daily Bread. But the dentist replied, "Please keep it. Wait till you are in a good mood, then read it."
Nine months later, when the booklet accidentally dropped to the floor, the gangster picked it up. As he read its pages, he was convicted of his sins and received Jesus as his Saviour."

~Our Daily Journey

i find morning devotions more crucial than brushing ur teeth in d morning.

not brushing teeth gives u bad breath,
but without d peaceful heart with guided wisdom gives u a scary day.
The world is one scary place full of temptations and misleading things.

but the Lord says,

For I am the Lord, your God,
who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.

Isaiah 41:13

of the songs we sang and the 14 hours we spent

and they say i'm smiling like

                                                                             ^ ^

                                                      \_______________________/

did i?

erm. i'm going to bed.

i need bigger hands

fishes in the sea n fishes for me

i tend to lose my brain when i'm up n jumping

n do all too many silly things 

yesterday i almost kill a cute mannequin. 

 > < 

which is SO. embarrasing. 

but i tend to find embarrassing moment 

always comes with ppl laughing non stop like

till their tummy hurts kind of laugh.

so i guess it aint that bad if it makes ppl happy

but still. it. was. so. embarrassing 

a drop in the ocean

a change in the weather~~

soooo shouldn't be drawing this right now....

bt i just can't stop listenin to his songs.

Puedo ir contigo?

No siempre es fácil
Doy gracias a Dios que estás aquí conmigo

tho u didn't mean it tat way, it still sounded nice '')

u noe how d night before exam is the best time to learn new things and do things u never have time to do?
erm. like photo editing. heh

yay! i'm stressed again :)

look at their once happy feet

my lecturer once said,

only the people who once experience and enjoyed the beauty of nature will concern about it. the best way to make them care is to make them love it. let them enjoy nature and they will learn to love it. it beats any campaign. they will learn to protect because it matters to them. 

and he did make the ocean matter to us. 

its heartbreaking to know that all these, each little creature that God has made in joy, are at risk.


imagine,  you did not sleep for 3 days and nights to complete your little model. and when you finally completed it, someone barged in and ruined it before your assessment day.
imagine.

God did not create the world in 3 days. 

i dare not imagine. :'(

tats y i love them lots

u noe they do actually understand wat u tell them right?
tats y i tok to them a lot :)

a.l.o.o.f....

its a really nice feeling to wake up to every morning and find there is a different day to live.
some days are cold morning, so dark and lazy, nice and easy to snuggle and sleep in...
some days are jumping up from bed and thinking, scrap! wat day is today! is it assessment, exam, class?
while most of the days, are rushing and dancing. especially when there isn't time to wake up as there isn't time to sleep, i juz somehow fell asleep by d computer or so.

so today is one where i woke up feeling contented. i like how God talks to me in the morning.
dunno since when the morning devotion is becoming longer and longer. there are many people that i want to pray for. but these 2 days i realized though there are that certain few whom i never missed saying prayers for, asking God to protect them with journey mercies, to stay from temptation, to guide them with wisdom; there are many that i've missed out. i guess it somehow led by how self-absorbed i have always been. and i think that's my biggest weakness of all. even from this post, i dunno how many 'i' that i've typed.

but its somehow comforting to know that God is the one who creates each one of us. because this means He can, guide and help us in using our strengths for His glory and He will always be there for our weakness.

i'm so lost of words right now as i dunno how to make up what's in my mind. i'm just somehow grateful that God is making me realize how self absorbed i've been all these while, and slowly revealing to me the people that i've somehow neglected. because these people are people who matters to me. and i'm just glad that its not too late to be involved in their lives. it hurts me to simply think that i was happily living my life as if nothing bothers me while something is happening and is troubling them, but i'm totally ignorant bout it. thank you God for opening up my eyes to see. thank you God for giving me a chance to care. thank you God for seeing my weakness and helping me change. i can do nothing without You Lord. :)

all these all these thoughts, wouldn't appear if God didn't bring me back to Him.
all these all these feeling, wouldn't have existed if He didn't answer the prayers.
its amazing to see when u start connecting the dots. so, let's dance and sing~ heh

*swinging side by side*
little by little, everyday
little by little in every way,
Jesus is changing me
He's changing me

since i made a turn about faith *turn face*
i've been growing in His grace
Jesus is changing me *turn 3 rounds*

He's changing me
my precious saviour
i'm not the same person that i used to be *nod nod*
well it's been slow going *glide*
but still there's knowing
that someday perfect i will be *show teeth*

i throw u into d bucket and punch punch punch

oh noes oh noes :( 

class cancellation again!!!

next week exam is so six feet under x_X

it sort of comes with the hat and uniform....

i tot i shud hav gotten use with it by now....

liking these days :)

again and again and again and again.

this extreme feeling of contentment. 

After d final internal presentation on friday, everything was done. What's left are paper exams and to repeat the presentation during the final assessment. Minor touching ups are whats' left to be done.
i'm so glad everything is done! and it ended perfectly! :) okay, mayb not perfect, coz ntg is perfect, bt seriously, i love God so much!! He always always blessed me! and what He promised came through, He said that all ur effort and hardwork WILL pay off! and it did! it did!!! it is during these moments that the extreme satisfaction came about and all tiredness and all d 委屈-ness and all d injustice just fade far far away.

so many times throughout the semester tat i struggled in group project. trying hard to cooperate, trying hard to compromise and trying even harder to focus on the good in people and not the faults of them. learning to forgive despite all things, learning to focus on the solution instead of indulging in the problem. finding ways to solve instead of people to blame. and i will not deny, it was absolutely super duper extremely DIFFICULT! The days when my patience were put to test, the days when i struggled to hold it together. mayb it was also because i was full of pride. tat i know is my biggest weakness. different people work at different pace, and most of the time i tend to get stressed up as i am one who prefer to get everything planned out in advance just to make sure everything will go right. and perhaps at those time, i tried to be in control and make things my way. so when things didn't go as i planned, i got even more stressed up.

those are the times when i failed and felt angry. those are the times when i gave up and cried. But what kept me going strong was God's word. In times when i felt weak and felt that i wouldn't be able to control my emotion, i brought God's word with me to class. and reading God's word really taught me how to look things at different perspective. to have a bigger heart and to learn to forgive. to not judge others while ignoring the plank in my own eyes. God walked with me throughout the semester. He was there, and His presence was strong.

He pushed me to do things i would never been able to accomplish alone. He insisted on planning cf activities despite the small number of people attending and the busy with assignments schedule. Every single meeting was a blessing. It may not be on the number, but it was ther to make that few of us grow, to make me grow. Many times, when we tried to plan things on our own, we get stressed and disappointed. But when we surrendered to God and just pray and let things be, He surprises us with the most unexpected and the awesomest plan ever! oh. How great is our Lord!!!

and now that even December is here. there is just one thing that i'm still waiting for. God has promised a million times on that and i shall no longer doubt. So be it what God plans may be, i surrender my all to Him. :)

architecture, may give the satisfaction that i dream and desire if enough effort was put into it.
but God's plan gives the contentment and greatness that i can never dream nor desire. It was given as a gift for me. without me having to do anything.

thank you God. thank you. i'm liking these days. many prayers that i once prayed long long time ago are now answered one after another. i once wondered if God's answer is Yes, No or Wait. so, now that it is happening, is God's answer wait? :) wait i shall. for You Lord.

blessed ^^ teehee... heehehehe ..heeehee