i wanna see u when i open my eyes

can we not countdown and either stay this year or quick quick move on to the next year? i dun like this feeling. faster faster pls..... lalala :D

its for better or for worse

tangible : its sweeter on paper than on air

i wonder why people no longer write~ i mean on paper that is.
i find writing letter d most exciting form of mailing ever. it beats any digital mail or short messages on phone.
its always nice to find a coloured envelope with your name on it in the mail box. it never fail to surprise me every single time.

letters and cards always make my day <3 and because of my lovely friends studying abroad that i still get a mail or two once in a blue moon. and i always read it over and over and over again. somehow, no matter how long the letter is, it never seems to be long enough. heh.

don't u think writing letter d sweetest way to express ones wishes and thoughts?
maybe letter seem a bit too much for others, but postcards are always cool. :) so, send me postcards people!! i'll love you guys lots! haha.

ps: i still don't mind long long long long letters tho :) or i can live with letter with just a sentence. heh. in anyweiiiis, send me one ~ :)

let's talk :)

so, here comes the 3 months break! yippee~  although there're like 2 classes in the week, it can still be considered as a 3 months break! this 3 months shall not be wasted like how i did last year > <

lotsa things i wanna do!! let's list it~

- teman sab jie
- start 'hiking' again
- start building portfolio ( redo model, create 3d)
- learn sketch up, revit and how to place lighting in 3d max
- one sketch a day
- start sewing
- help melanie
- read at least 5 books in bible.
- finish d 2 books on shelf  > <
- download architecture documentary
- tidy up "studio" n stuff
- get a job in autisme centre or something to do with horses
- paint the barn
- build a proper painted nice nice nice doggie house with proper pitch roof for dookoo

erm... i'm thinking like this -->

kalau boleh~~ lol

- filter photos!! (oh my darling, vietnam photos especially!!  x_x
- start making the photo wall at stairs

- walk doggies pls
- start report and final design!!!!! ( *can procrastinate til after cny)
- sleep more n sleep well


whua whua whua whua~~ > < amat ambitious!! pls pls pls melissa chong! pls do this okay. u can do this!! jiayou jiayou jiayou!! :D

i dun know what to do, but God knows! :) so i guess its okay~~

oh....i so so so love this christmas :)

i thank God for blessing me so abundantly. and i felt that He was also here to celebrate this Christmas with us ! can u imagine can u imagine?? like He was there when we sang and dance, He was there when we savor His story all over again, He was just sitting there, and guess what! maybe He was sitting beside me :) heh. 

yeap. i think so... i can feel it!!! bcoz the legs can't stop moving. :D

it makes people so happie that the legs of people who hop and jump when they're happie couldn't stop jumping and hopping around. like literally, they just wouldn't stop no matter how hard u try to stop them. they just won't. *shake head shake head*

yea..tell me about it~ people says legs are stubborn creatures who listen to no one but their own feelings. 

i like how He brought my family to church, my dad , my mum, my sister and brother :) coz i love spending christmas with them. n i noe my dogs are singing with us at home.

i like how He reminds me that things may not be in my control, but i need not fear because He is in control. 

i like the comfort He gives where i can surrender the bad things to Him with just a prayer and be all jolly again.

i like how He brought us to little children and uses us to bring them to Him.

i like how He help in suggesting gifts that i can afford with an empty wallet.

i like how they react when they receive d presents, the happie smiles on their faces like they've been blessed. 

i like how everyone smiles so happily wishing others blessed christmas blessed christmas, i like singing Feliz navidad.

i like christmas hugs. i like group hugs that can't fit in my arms. i like taking pictures with people i love lots lots.

i like walking in malls that are so crowded, with my parents infront, aunty beside, sisters in hand, and brother who then joined later. (but not so much on the crowd part unless the crowd are happie crowd, like yesterday crowd :)

i like playing silly games in my sister room, in which the loser would need to attempt in making others laugh. i like trying so hard to not laugh out that it makes my tummy hurt so much.

i like going to bed smiling. i like to sleep smiling.

i like that i don't need to know what to do and what is gonna happen next. :)

i like being able to love people i love and being loved by people who loves me. i like loving God.

when He's around, christmas became oh so nice and warm and happie and special. i like christmas like this. i like it like it like it so much i could fly and hop and jump for the next hundred days. weeeeeeee~

and they say there're 12 days of christmas... oh how blessed more can i be~~ :')

thank you God!!

He knew even before i ask

GOD has no iPhone, but I talk to him .

He has no Facebook, but he is my friend .

Does not have twitter, but I still follow Him.

And even without internet, I’m still in

contact with Him.

~unknown

let's not see the result, let's feel it with a big big smile~

this semester, we did more than necessary. we did our best. we set up spotlights, prepared refreshments, made brochures, and turned our studio into an exhibition space instead of just the usual pin on wall and present thing. was it just for that 20% of marks that the final assessment can give? we definitely gained more than that. Though it seems like its too much of extra work to do, see how happie everyone turned out to be in the end :) it was definitely definitely worth it!! 

and u know how i always complain about group projects? the frustration that group projects give can be ao unbearable when everyone is unhappy with everyone; but when everyone work together happily towards one goal, singing and screaming like annoyingly noisy smurfs, just like the final 3 hours on the day before assessment, the joy and result of it beats what one can do alone! i love it when everyone is happie ^^

we learn to do what's more than necessary and be amazed by the outcome of it :)

its not always about the pointer or marks. its d satisfaction on the result of your combined hardwork and efforts.
Thank you God
group hug!!!

i like what God suggested :)

"A Malaysian gangster was extorting money from a dental clinic. When the dentist gave him the cash "payment" he was forced to make, he also gave him a booklet. He said, "Read this. It's good for you."
The gangster was angry with the dentist for giving him a religious booklet --- a copy of Our Daily Bread. But the dentist replied, "Please keep it. Wait till you are in a good mood, then read it."
Nine months later, when the booklet accidentally dropped to the floor, the gangster picked it up. As he read its pages, he was convicted of his sins and received Jesus as his Saviour."

~Our Daily Journey

i find morning devotions more crucial than brushing ur teeth in d morning.

not brushing teeth gives u bad breath,
but without d peaceful heart with guided wisdom gives u a scary day.
The world is one scary place full of temptations and misleading things.

but the Lord says,

For I am the Lord, your God,
who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.

Isaiah 41:13

of the songs we sang and the 14 hours we spent

and they say i'm smiling like

                                                                             ^ ^

                                                      \_______________________/

did i?

erm. i'm going to bed.

i need bigger hands

fishes in the sea n fishes for me

i tend to lose my brain when i'm up n jumping

n do all too many silly things 

yesterday i almost kill a cute mannequin. 

 > < 

which is SO. embarrasing. 

but i tend to find embarrassing moment 

always comes with ppl laughing non stop like

till their tummy hurts kind of laugh.

so i guess it aint that bad if it makes ppl happy

but still. it. was. so. embarrassing 

a drop in the ocean

a change in the weather~~

soooo shouldn't be drawing this right now....

bt i just can't stop listenin to his songs.

Puedo ir contigo?

No siempre es fácil
Doy gracias a Dios que estás aquí conmigo

tho u didn't mean it tat way, it still sounded nice '')

u noe how d night before exam is the best time to learn new things and do things u never have time to do?
erm. like photo editing. heh

yay! i'm stressed again :)

look at their once happy feet

my lecturer once said,

only the people who once experience and enjoyed the beauty of nature will concern about it. the best way to make them care is to make them love it. let them enjoy nature and they will learn to love it. it beats any campaign. they will learn to protect because it matters to them. 

and he did make the ocean matter to us. 

its heartbreaking to know that all these, each little creature that God has made in joy, are at risk.


imagine,  you did not sleep for 3 days and nights to complete your little model. and when you finally completed it, someone barged in and ruined it before your assessment day.
imagine.

God did not create the world in 3 days. 

i dare not imagine. :'(

tats y i love them lots

u noe they do actually understand wat u tell them right?
tats y i tok to them a lot :)

a.l.o.o.f....

its a really nice feeling to wake up to every morning and find there is a different day to live.
some days are cold morning, so dark and lazy, nice and easy to snuggle and sleep in...
some days are jumping up from bed and thinking, scrap! wat day is today! is it assessment, exam, class?
while most of the days, are rushing and dancing. especially when there isn't time to wake up as there isn't time to sleep, i juz somehow fell asleep by d computer or so.

so today is one where i woke up feeling contented. i like how God talks to me in the morning.
dunno since when the morning devotion is becoming longer and longer. there are many people that i want to pray for. but these 2 days i realized though there are that certain few whom i never missed saying prayers for, asking God to protect them with journey mercies, to stay from temptation, to guide them with wisdom; there are many that i've missed out. i guess it somehow led by how self-absorbed i have always been. and i think that's my biggest weakness of all. even from this post, i dunno how many 'i' that i've typed.

but its somehow comforting to know that God is the one who creates each one of us. because this means He can, guide and help us in using our strengths for His glory and He will always be there for our weakness.

i'm so lost of words right now as i dunno how to make up what's in my mind. i'm just somehow grateful that God is making me realize how self absorbed i've been all these while, and slowly revealing to me the people that i've somehow neglected. because these people are people who matters to me. and i'm just glad that its not too late to be involved in their lives. it hurts me to simply think that i was happily living my life as if nothing bothers me while something is happening and is troubling them, but i'm totally ignorant bout it. thank you God for opening up my eyes to see. thank you God for giving me a chance to care. thank you God for seeing my weakness and helping me change. i can do nothing without You Lord. :)

all these all these thoughts, wouldn't appear if God didn't bring me back to Him.
all these all these feeling, wouldn't have existed if He didn't answer the prayers.
its amazing to see when u start connecting the dots. so, let's dance and sing~ heh

*swinging side by side*
little by little, everyday
little by little in every way,
Jesus is changing me
He's changing me

since i made a turn about faith *turn face*
i've been growing in His grace
Jesus is changing me *turn 3 rounds*

He's changing me
my precious saviour
i'm not the same person that i used to be *nod nod*
well it's been slow going *glide*
but still there's knowing
that someday perfect i will be *show teeth*

i throw u into d bucket and punch punch punch

oh noes oh noes :( 

class cancellation again!!!

next week exam is so six feet under x_X

it sort of comes with the hat and uniform....

i tot i shud hav gotten use with it by now....

liking these days :)

again and again and again and again.

this extreme feeling of contentment. 

After d final internal presentation on friday, everything was done. What's left are paper exams and to repeat the presentation during the final assessment. Minor touching ups are whats' left to be done.
i'm so glad everything is done! and it ended perfectly! :) okay, mayb not perfect, coz ntg is perfect, bt seriously, i love God so much!! He always always blessed me! and what He promised came through, He said that all ur effort and hardwork WILL pay off! and it did! it did!!! it is during these moments that the extreme satisfaction came about and all tiredness and all d 委屈-ness and all d injustice just fade far far away.

so many times throughout the semester tat i struggled in group project. trying hard to cooperate, trying hard to compromise and trying even harder to focus on the good in people and not the faults of them. learning to forgive despite all things, learning to focus on the solution instead of indulging in the problem. finding ways to solve instead of people to blame. and i will not deny, it was absolutely super duper extremely DIFFICULT! The days when my patience were put to test, the days when i struggled to hold it together. mayb it was also because i was full of pride. tat i know is my biggest weakness. different people work at different pace, and most of the time i tend to get stressed up as i am one who prefer to get everything planned out in advance just to make sure everything will go right. and perhaps at those time, i tried to be in control and make things my way. so when things didn't go as i planned, i got even more stressed up.

those are the times when i failed and felt angry. those are the times when i gave up and cried. But what kept me going strong was God's word. In times when i felt weak and felt that i wouldn't be able to control my emotion, i brought God's word with me to class. and reading God's word really taught me how to look things at different perspective. to have a bigger heart and to learn to forgive. to not judge others while ignoring the plank in my own eyes. God walked with me throughout the semester. He was there, and His presence was strong.

He pushed me to do things i would never been able to accomplish alone. He insisted on planning cf activities despite the small number of people attending and the busy with assignments schedule. Every single meeting was a blessing. It may not be on the number, but it was ther to make that few of us grow, to make me grow. Many times, when we tried to plan things on our own, we get stressed and disappointed. But when we surrendered to God and just pray and let things be, He surprises us with the most unexpected and the awesomest plan ever! oh. How great is our Lord!!!

and now that even December is here. there is just one thing that i'm still waiting for. God has promised a million times on that and i shall no longer doubt. So be it what God plans may be, i surrender my all to Him. :)

architecture, may give the satisfaction that i dream and desire if enough effort was put into it.
but God's plan gives the contentment and greatness that i can never dream nor desire. It was given as a gift for me. without me having to do anything.

thank you God. thank you. i'm liking these days. many prayers that i once prayed long long time ago are now answered one after another. i once wondered if God's answer is Yes, No or Wait. so, now that it is happening, is God's answer wait? :) wait i shall. for You Lord.

blessed ^^ teehee... heehehehe ..heeehee

faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen

attended a wedding dinner last sunday. what thought was reluctant and boring, wasn't that bad in the end.
The bride and groom are our supposedly close relative, yet ironically, i've never seen them. or mayb i did when i was little little little, but it escaped from my frontal lobe.

annie ways, i didn't regret coming when they started playing an animated video of how they got to know each other and came to tis day. tat part of d animation was interesting.

every morning, they meet each other at d bus stop to wait for d bus to school. bt it was only during time of spm tat they made their first conversation.

story skip to how they began to date n seeing each other, went dancing, swimming, eating, hiking and travelling together. The bride works for d airlines while d guy is quite a Hat-guy they named. despite d long distance, they were together for 12 years before gettin married. 12 years. 12 years. wow.

tho i dun really know them, they look happy together. n dey must have really love each other to be with one another for such a long time without any official promise. to compromise, to understand, to forgive and to be kind. May the Lord continue to bless them :)


oh right. this was d first wedding dinner i've been to that served chicken soup instead of shark fin soup. oh i like them already. God bless bless bless them. heh

may i go climb tree with u?

it is not too much as it is not too little,

it is as it is. Just nice.

oh. why am i so stressed?

i just realized that you're quite tall

i'm stressed i'm stressed i'm stressed
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

God is good all the time

He put a song of praise in this heart of mine

God is good all the time

Through the darkest night His light will shine

God is good, God is good all the time

If you're walkin through the valley

and there are shadows all around

Do not fear, He will guide you

He will keep you safe and sound

Cause He has promised To never leave you 

Nor forsake you, and His word is true

it was almost too obvious

image taken from: http://weheartit.com/entry/8576627

tis morning, God speaks through devotion, do u hear wat i hear?

"A benefit of being a teacher, I know that Thanksgiving vacation is always an anticipated respite from the routine of waking early, grading papers, and planning lessons. What I hadn't planned for the impending disagreements that would arise from our two children being home in close quarters with extra time. No matter how much I tried to reason with them, they couldn't seem to agree on anything. They were focused on each other's faults, while denying their own. A glutton for punishment, I grounded them from media for several days. Much to my delight, the arguments waned and they suddenly remembered that they actually like each other.

As living sacrifices--set apart, transformed--believers in Jesus are to become living, breathing reflections of God's will (Romans 12:1-2). In the quietness of our devotional time with the Lord, this goal stirs our hearts. In the day to day of relationships, however, it can seem to be downright impossible.

As I deal with my children, I often hear the Lord speaking to me about my relationships with others. It takes two to fight (Proverbs 20:3). You can't choose how others act, but you can choose how you respond (Matthew 5:38-39). Be kind, whether it's deserved or not (Proverbs 31:26). Like my children, I can either trust the wisdom of the One who knows far more than I do or I can rely on my own perspectives (Proverbs 3:5-6).

Godly love doesn't come by finding perfect relationships; it comes when I first choose to deal with my own faults (Roman 12:9). Relational peace is not avoidance. It's a decision to act on the things for which I am responsible, while placing the things I cannot change in the hands of Jesus. I must trust a God for whom nothing is impossible. (Luke 1:37; Mark 9:23)."

~Regina Franklin

(Our daily journey)

its u la! nw dun wan to share wit u d!

不明白啊， 不明白! 


letter to hmph! >=[


why do you have to be so mean?  why can't you talk with a better tone?
why is it when people smile and talk nicely to you and you have to reply in an impatient way?
why always so mean to me? still okay to others but very mean to me. 
and yet i'm still being so silly. hmph! aigu!


today i'm offended. i've decided. you're too mean.
and i bet, you wouldn't know this is you that i'm talking about. bcoz you don't hear yourself. hmph.
hmph!! hmph!! hmph!! hmph!! hmmmmmmmmmmmmph!!! 

i wish i can share tis with u

sometimes things don't work out the way you want it to.
sometimes people look at little bad things over the many good things u do.
but is that enough to make you move away?




thank God for reminding me to keep trying.
i know, it will be worth fighting for.

come do d boogie shake wit me wil ya?

it feels good to wake up early unintentionally :)

and i noe what to get you for christmas :)

if you stop and think, you'll hear what your heart says.

if you stop and pray, you'll hear what God says.

coherent or not, you hear your heart says

you know how ancient architecture used to take more than a hundred years to complete?
and i often wonder, why would the builder be willing to do so..
he knew from the start he'll never get to see his works being completed and done within his lifetime.
All his hardwork, efforts and glory will only be passed down from one generation to another, and before being able to witness his work of art standing before him, or better yet get to enjoy what his effort leads, he'll move on to be with God.


what make him still went for it?


it didn't only work for builders,
many things,  we don't see the immediate result, or perhaps maybe, never get to,
but, that doesn't give us the reason to refrain from beginning.




so now i figured, 
it simply means even when what you started may not have any obvious result till when its time for you to moved on,
what is done will be what's done and it is something even if there is nothing to be seen.
it is somehow beautiful to believe that, what you begin may lead to something beautiful which someone, at some point, would complete it, in a way, for you. 


or even if, it is never completed, what you did make it quite impossible for you to imagine what could have been if you have never ever started. 

to give or not to give

For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—not by works, so that no one can boast. Notice that faith is
"not from yourselves, it is the gift of God."


And if that weren't clear enough, Paul reinforces his point by saying that your salvation is "not by works" (i.e., not by anything you accomplished) because if it were then you could boast. But, since God does everything to bring about your salvation, you cannot boast (c.f. Romans 3:27).

~christ notes

in about 93 hours of air time

today is the day which i woke up and decided that it would be a day where i will not have a thought of the things that would make my mind go turning.
and somehow ended up in a room of exam papers and crunchy stickers which doesn't help in giving answers.


thus explain my incoherent speech or rather script in writing that hardly capable of describing what i actually intend to say.


nonetheless, i insist.


to be frank, i just thought that this title would make a good title on the( or better "a" ) post hence decided to just fill this empty space with something rather than nothing to create a post, which i obviously failed since nothing of these make any sense or human language at all other than nouns and verbs add up together.


cookies free. failed miserably.

but we didn't really talk

" it's a little crazy, actually. As the time approaches, we remove the cages, and then we dig a shallow trench from the nest to the water's edge, making it as smooth as possible, but high enough on the sides so the turtles can only go in one direction. And it's weird, because at first only a couple of eggs are moving, but it's like their movement is enough to set the whole nest going, and before you know it, the nest is like a crazy beehive on steroids. The turtles are climbing over each other to get out of the hole, and then they hit the sand and head toward the water in this little crablike parade. It's amazing."

phase 2. 

the dilemma between wanting to quickly get to the end of the story; and wanting to not read that quickly just so the book will last a little little longer.









i guess its d same in life aint.

i wanna be like them :)

they make people happy :)

you're all i can think of

"What is this stuff?" Jonah asked.
"It's supposed to be art."
"I thought art was like paintings and stuff."
"It is. But sometimes art is other thing, too."


Jonah wrinkled his nose, staring at the half-rabbit/half-snake.
"It doesn't look like art."

~ The Last Song by Nicholas Sparks

sweet serendipity

back in 2007

today, i woke up and never felt as contented as ever. Realizing, life has been great and couldn't ask for more than what God has been blessing me with.

Given so many opportunities to try things i never imagined myself doing leading me busy signing up for everything. n before i know it, i'm actually clearing out my  bucket list one by one. :D

 these are d things tat help in looking over d bad things and tough times bcoz when you managed to survived that period to reach these moments, u wud literally be saying....ahh~~thank God i'm alive to experience this. 
for me, these are d perfect moments.....

if u can, just stay alive for a little longer and give tough things a little more try before actually throwing ur bags away and say goodbye, it will be worth living. 

so that's where you keep all your favourite things? *nod nod nod*

http://misaamelissa.tumblr.com/

the dancing chimpanzee that writes love letter

the red faced peach colour girl

A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman," she told him.
"I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will."
Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?"
"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.
The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.


Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?"


God said, "When I made the woman she had to be special.


I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world,
yet gentle enough to give comfort.
I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children.
I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.
I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly.
I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.
I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.


And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed."


"You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.


The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."

By: Navin Jethmalani

lying under a million stars

now i feel like looking for someone to love me forever too

three steps on a tree

先收着...

pick the number on ur shirt

i found my tree!! :D
orangeeeeeeeee tree!!

but i definitely miss you

 

can i do this to my room??

if u ever find the city of tiny apples, i'll tell u

“While wandering a deserted beach at dawn, stagnant in my work, I saw a man in the distance bending and throwing as he walked the endless stretch toward me.As he came near, I could see that he was throwing starfish, abandoned on the sand by the tide, back into the sea. 


When he was close enough I asked him why he was working so hard at this strange task.
He said that the sun would dry the starfish and they would die. I said to him that I thought he was foolish. there were thousands of starfish on miles and miles of beach.


One man alone could never make a difference.


He smiled as he picked up the next starfish. Hurling it far into the sea he said,
"It makes a difference for this one."


I abandoned my writing and spent the morning throwing starfish.”

~adapted from

The Starfish Thrower

by Loren Eiseley